第3章
Iknowyouwillgetonwellwithhim。Hehassuchagoodheart。Andhisattitudetowardyou,Basil,isbeautifulalways——sorespectful;ornotthatsomuchasappreciative。Yes,appreciative——that"stheword;Imustalwayskeepthatinmind。"
"It"squiteimportanttodoso,"saidMarch。
"Yes,"sheassented,seriously,"andwemustnotforgetjustwhatkindofflatwearegoingtolookfor。The"sinequanons"areanelevatorandsteamheat,notabovethethirdfloor,tobeginwith。Thenwemusteachhavearoom,andyoumusthaveyourstudyandImusthavemyparlor;andthetwogirlsmusteachhavearoom。Withthekitchenanddiningroom,howmanydoesthatmake?"
"Ten。"
"Ithoughteight。Well,nomatter。Youcanworkintheparlor,andrunintoyourbedroomwhenanybodycomes;andIcansitinmine,andthegirlsmustputupwithone,ifit"slargeandsunny,thoughI"vealwaysgiventhemtwoathome。Andthekitchenmustbesunny,sotheycansitinit。Andtheroomsmustallhaveoutsidelight。Audtherentmustnotbeovereighthundredforthewinter。Weonlygetathousandforourwholehouse,andwemustsavesomethingoutofthat,soastocovertheexpensesofmoving。Now,doyouthinkyoucanrememberallthat?"
"Notthehalfofit,"saidMarch。"Butyoucan;orifyouforgetathirdofit,Icancomeinwithmypartialhalfandmorethanmakeitup。"
Shehadbroughtherbonnetandsacquedown-stairswithher,andwastransferringthemfromthehatracktoherpersonwhileshetalked。Thefriendlydoor-boyletthemintothestreet,andtheclearOctobereveningairbrightenedhersothatasshetuckedherhandunderherhusband"sarmandbegantopullhimalongshesaid,"Ifwefindsomethingrightaway——
andwe"rejustaslikelytogettherightflatsoonaslate;it"sallalottery——wellgotothetheatresomewhere。"
Shehadamoment"spanicabouthavinglefttheagents"permitsonthetable,andafterrememberingthatshehadputthemintoherlittleshopping-bag,whereshekepthermoney(eachnotecrushedintoaroundwad),andhadheftitonthehat-rack,whereitwouldcertainlybestolen,shefounditonherwrist。Shedidnotthinkthatveryfunny;
butafterafirstimpulsetoinculpateherhusband,shelethimlaugh,whiletheystoppedunderalampandsheheldthepermitshalfayardawaytoreadthenumbersonthem。
"Whereareyourglasses,Isabel?"
"Onthemantelinourroom,ofcourse。"
"Thenyououghttohavebroughtapairoftongs。"
"Iwouldn"tgetoffsecond-handjokes,Basil,"shesaid;and"Why,here!"
shecried,whirlingroundtothedoorbeforewhichtheyhadhalted,"thisistheverynumber。Well,Idobelieveit"sasign!"
Oneofthosecoloredmenwhosoftenthetradeofjanitorinmanyofthesmallerapartment-housesinNewYorkbythesweetnessoftheirracelettheMarchesin,or,rather,welcomedthemtothepossessionofthepremisesbythebowwithwhichheacknowledgedtheirpermit。Itwasalarge,oldmansioncutupintofiveorsixdwellings,butithadkeptsometraitsofitsformerdignity,whichpleasedpeopleoftheirsympathetictastes。Thedark-mahoganytrim,ofsufficientlyuglydesign,gavearichgloomtothehallway,whichwaswideandpavedwithmarble;
thecarpetedstairscurvedaloftthroughagenerousspace。
"Thereisnoelevator?"Mrs。Marchaskedofthejanitor。
Heanswered,"No,ma"am;onlytwoflightsup,"sowinninglythatshesaid,"Oh!"incourteousapology,andwhisperedtoherhusband,asshefollowedlightlyup,"We"lltakeit,Basil,ifit"sliketherest。"
"Ifit"slikehim,youmean。"
"Idon"twondertheywantedtoownthem,"shehurriedlyphilosophized。
"IfIhadsuchacreature,nothingbutdeathshouldpartus,andIshouldnomorethinkofgivinghimhisfreedom!"
"No;wecouldn"taffordit,"returnedherhusband。
Theapartmentwhichthejanitorunlockedforthem,andlitupfromthosechandeliersandbracketsofgiltbrassintheformofvinebunches,leaves,andtendrilsinwhichtheearlygas-fitterrealizedmostofhisconceptionsofbeauty,hadrathermoreoftheuglinessthanthedignityofthehall。Buttheroomswerelarge,andtheygroupedthemselvesinareminiscenceofthetimewhentheywerepartofadwellingthathaditscharm,itspathos,itsimpressiveness。Wheretheywerecutupintosmallerspaces,ithadbeendonewiththefranknesswithwhichaproudoldfamilyoffallenfortunespractisesitseconomies。Theroughpine~
floorsshowedablackborderoftack-headswherecarpetshadbeenliftedandputdownforgenerations;thewhitepaintwasyellowwithage;theapartmenthadlightatthefrontandattheback,andtwoorthreeroomshadglimpsesofthedaythroughsmallwindowsletintotheircorners;
anotheroneseemedliftinganappealingeyetoheaventhroughaglasscircleinitsceiling;therestmustdarkleinperpetualtwilight。Yetsomethingpleasedinitall,andMrs。Marchhadgonefartoadaptthedifferentroomstothemembersofherfamily,whenshesuddenlythought(andforhertothinkwastosay),"Why,butthere"snosteamheat!"
"No,ma"am,"thejanitoradmitted;"butdere"sgratesinmosto"derooms,anddere"sfurnaceheatindehalls。"
"That"strue,"sheadmitted,and,havingplacedherfamilyintheapartments,itwashardtogetthemoutagain。"Couldwemanage?"shereferredtoherhusband。
"Why,Ishouldn"tcareforthesteamheatif——Whatistherent?"hebrokeofftoaskthejanitor。
"Ninehundred,sir。"
Marchconcludedtohiswife,"Ifitwerefurnished。"
"Why,ofcourse!WhatcouldIhavebeenthinkingof?We"relookingforafurnishedflat,"sheexplainedtothejanitor,"andthiswassopleasantandhomelikethatIneverthoughtwhetheritwasfurnishedornot。"
Shesmileduponthejanitor,andheenteredintothejokeandchuckledsoamiablyatherflatteringoversightonthewaydown-stairsthatshesaid,asshepinchedherhusband"sarm,"Now,ifyoudon"tgivehimaquarterI"llneverspeaktoyouagain,Basil!"
"Iwouldhavegivenhalfadollarwillinglytogetyoubeyondhisglamour,"saidMarch,whentheyweresafelyonthepavementoutside。"
Ifithadn"tbeenformystrengthofcharacter,you"dhavetakenanunfurnishedflatwithoutheatandwithnoelevator,atninehundredayear,whenyouhadjustswornmetosteamheat,anelevator,furniture,andeighthundred。"
"Yes!HowcouldIhavelostmyheadsocompletely?"shesaid,withalenientamusementinheraberrationwhichshewasnotalwaysabletofeelinherhusband"s。
"Thenexttimeacoloredjanitoropensthedoortous,I"lltellhimtheapartmentdoesn"tsuitatthethreshold。It"stheonlywaytomanageyou,Isabel。"
"It"strue。Iaminlovewiththewholerace。Ineversawoneofthemthatdidn"thaveperfectlyangelicmanners。Ithinkweshallallbeblackinheaven——thatis,black-souled。"
"Thatisn"ttheusualtheory,"saidMarch。
"Well,perhapsnot,"sheassented。"Wherearewegoingnow?Ohyes,totheXenophon!"
Shepulledhimgaylyalongagain,andaftertheyhadwalkedablockdownandhalfablockovertheystoodbeforetheapartment-houseofthatname,whichwascutonthegas-lampsoneithersideoftheheavilyspiked,aesthetic-hingedblackdoor。Thetitterofanelectric-bellbroughtalarge,fatButtons,withastageeffectofbeingdressedtolooksmall,whosaidhewouldcallthejanitor,andtheywaitedinthedimlysplendid,copper-coloredinterior,admiringthewhorlsandwavesintowhichthewallpaintwascombed,tillthejanitorcameinhisgold-bandedcap,likeaContinentalporker。WhentheysaidtheywouldliketoseeMrs。GrosvenorGreen"sapartment,heownedhisinabilitytocopewiththeaffair,andsaidhemustsendforthesuperintendent;hewaseitherintheHerodotusortheThucydides,andwouldbethereinaminute。TheButtonsbroughthim——aYankeeofbrowbeatingpresenceinplainclothes——
almostbeforetheyhadtimetoexchangeafrightenedwhisperinrecognitionofthefactthattherecouldbenodoubtofthesteamheatandelevatorinthiscase。Halfstifledintheone,theymountedintheothereightstories,whiletheytriedtokeeptheirself-respectunderthegazeofthesuperintendent,whichtheyfeltwasclassingandassessingthemwithunfriendlyaccuracy。Theycouldnot,andtheyfalteredabashedatthethresholdofMrs。GrosvenorGreen"sapartment,whilethesuperintendentlitthegasinthegangwaythathecalledaprivatehall,andinthedrawing-roomandthesuccessionofchambersstretchingrearwardtothekitchen。Everythinghad,beendonebythearchitecttosavespace,andeverything,towasteitbyMrs。GrosvenorGreen。Shehadconformedtoalawforthenecessityofturningroundineachroom,andhadfolding-bedsinthechambers,buttherehersubordinationhadended,andwhereveryoumighthaveturnedroundshehadputagimcracksothatyouwouldknockitoverifyoudidturn。Theplacewasratherprettyandevenimposingatfirstglance,andittookseveraljointballotsforMarchandhiswifetomakesurethatwiththekitchentherewereonlysixrooms。Ateverydoorhungaportierefromlargeringsonabrassrod;everyshelfanddressing-caseandmantelwaslitteredwithgimcracks,andthecornersofthetinyroomswerecurtainedoff,andbehindtheseportieresswarmedmoregimcracks。ThefrontoftheuprightpianohadwhatMarchcalledashort-skirtedportiereonit,andthetopwascoveredwithvases,withdragoncandlesticksandwithJapfans,whichalsoexpandedthemselvesbatwiseonthewallsbetweentheetchingsandthewatercolors。Thefloorswerecoveredwithfilling,andthenrugsandthenskins;theeasy-chairsallhadtidies,ArmenianandTurkishandPersian;theloungesandsofashadembroideredcushionshiddenundertidies。
TheradiatorwasconcealedbyaJapscreen,andoverthetopofthissomeArabscarfswereflung。Therewasasuperabundanceofclocks。Chinapugsguardedthehearth;abrasssunflowersmiledfromthetopofeitherandiron,andabrasspeacockspreaditstailbeforetheminsideahighfiligreefender;ononesidewasacoalhodin"repousse"brass,andontheotherawroughtironwood-basket。SomeredJapanesebird-kiteswerestuckaboutinthenecksofspeltervases,acrimsonJapumbrellahungopenedbeneaththechandelier,andeachglobehadashadeofyellowsilk。
March,whenhehadrecoveredhisself-commandalittleinthepresenceoftheagglomeration,comfortedhimselfbycallingthebric-a-bracJamescracks,asifthiswastheirfullname。
Thedisrespecthewasabletoshowthewholeapartmentbymeansofthisjokestrengthenedhimtosayboldlytothesuperintendentthatitwasaltogethertoosmall;thenheaskedcarelesslywhattherentwas。
"Twohundredandfifty。"
TheMarchesgaveastart,andlookedateachother。
"Don"tyouthinkwecouldmakeitdo?"sheaskedhim,andhecouldseethatshehadmentallysavedfivehundreddollarsasthedifferencebetweentherentoftheirhouseandthatofthisflat。"Ithassomeveryprettyfeatures,andwecouldmanagetosqueezein,couldn"twe?"
"Youwon"tfindanotherfurnishedflatlikeitfornotwo-fiftyamonthinthewholecity,"thesuperintendentputin。
Theyexchangedglancesagain,andMarchsaid,carelessly,"It"stoosmall。"
"There"savacantflatintheHerodotusforeighteenhundredayear,andoneintheThucydidesforfifteen,"thesuperintendentsuggested,clickinghiskeystogetherastheysankdownintheelevator;"sevenroomsandbath。"
"Thankyou,"saidMarch;"we"relookingforafurnishedflat。"
Theyfeltthatthesuperintendentpartedfromthemwithrepressedsarcasm。
"Oh,Basil,doyouthinkwereallymadehimthinkitwasthesmallnessandnotthedearness?"
"No,butwesavedourself-respectintheattempt;andthat"sagreatdeal。"
"Ofcourse,Iwouldn"thavetakenit,anyway,withonlysixrooms,andsohighup。Butwhatprices!Now,wemustbeverycircumspectaboutthenextplace。"
Itwasajanitress,large,fat,withherarmswoundupinherapron,whoreceivedthemthere。Mrs。Marchgaveherasuccinctbutperfectstatementoftheirneeds。Shefailedtograspthenatureofthem,orfeignedtodoso。Sheshookherhead,andsaidthathersonwouldshowthemtheflat。Therewasaradiatorvisibleinthenarrowhall,andIsabeltacitlycompromisedonsteamheatwithoutanelevator,astheflatwasonlyoneflightup。Whenthesonappearedfrombelowwithasmallkerosenehand-lamp,itappearedthattheflatwasunfurnished,buttherewasnostoppinghimtillhehadshownitinallitsimpossibility。WhentheygotsafelyawayfromitandintothestreetMarchsaid:"Well,haveyouhadenoughforto-night,Isabel?Shallwegotothetheatrenow?"
"Notonanyaccount。IwanttoseethewholelistofflatsthatMr。
Fulkersonthoughtwouldbetheverythingforus。"Shelaughed,butwithacertainbitterness。
"You"llbecallinghimmyMr。Fulkersonnext,Isabel。"
"Ohno!"
Thefourthaddresswasafurnishedflatwithoutakitchen,inahousewithageneralrestaurant。Thefifthwasafurnishedhouse。Atthesixthapatheticwidowandherprettydaughterwantedtotakeafamilytoboard,andwouldgivethemaprivatetableataratewhichtheMarcheswouldhavethoughtlowinBoston。
Mrs。Marchcameawaytinglingwithcompassionfortheirevidentanxiety,andthispitynaturallysouredintoasenseofinjury。"Well,ImustsayIhavecompletelylostconfidenceinMr。Fulkerson"sjudgment。AnythingmoreutterlydifferentfromwhatItoldhimwewantedIcouldn"timagine。
Ifhedoesn"tmanageanybetterabouthisbusinessthanhehasdoneaboutthis,itwillbeaperfectfailure。"
"Well,well,let"shopehe"llbemorecircumspectaboutthat,"herhusbandreturned,withironicalpropitiation。"ButIdon"tthinkit"sFulkerson"sfaultaltogether。Perhapsit"sthehouse-agents"。They"reaveryillusorygeneration。Thereseemstobesomethinginthehumanhabitationthatcorruptsthenaturesofthosewhodealinit,tobuyorsellit,tohireorletit。Yougotoanagentandtellhimwhatkindofahouseyouwant。Hehasnosuchhouse,andhesendsyoutolookatsomethingaltogetherdifferent,uponthewell-ascertainedprinciplethatifyoucan"tgetwhatyouwantyouwilltakewhatyoucanget。Youdon"tsupposethe"party"thattookourhouseinBostonwaslookingforanysuchhouse?Hewaslookingforatotallydifferentkindofhouseinanotherpartofthetown。"
"Idon"tbelievethat!"hiswifebrokein。
"Well,nomatter。Butseewhatascandalousrentyouaskedforit。"
"Wedidn"tgetmuchmorethanhalf;and,besides,theagenttoldmetoaskfourteenhundred。"
"Oh,I"mnotblamingyou,Isabel。I"monlyanalyzingthehouse-agentandexoneratingFulkerson。"
"Well,Idon"tbelievehetoldthemjustwhatwewanted;and,atanyrate,I"mdonewithagents。TomorrowI"mgoingentirelybyadvertisements。"
VIII。
Mrs。MarchtookthevertebratewithhertotheViennaCoffee-House,wheretheywenttobreakfastnextmorning。ShemadeMarchbuyhertheHeraldandtheWorld,andsheaddedtoitsspinyconvolutionsfromthem。Shereadthenewadvertisementsaloudwithardorandwithfaithtobelievethattheapartmentsdescribedinthemwereeveryonetruthfullyrepresented,andthatanyoneofthemwasrichlyresponsivetotheirneeds。"Elegant,light,large,singleandoutsideflats"wereofferedwith"allimprovements——bath,ice-box,etc。"——fortwenty-fivetothirtydollarsamonth。Thecheapnesswasamazing。TheWagram,theEsmeralda,theJacinth,advertisedthemforfortydollarsandsixtydollars,"withsteamheatandelevator,"rentfreetillNovember。Others,attractivefromtheirairofconscientiousscruple,announced"first-classflats;
goodorder;reasonablerents。"TheHelenaaskedthereaderifshehadseenthe"cabinetfinish,hard-woodfloors,andfrescoedceilings"ofitsfifty-dollarflats;theAsteroidaffirmedthatsuchapartments,with"sixlightroomsandbath,porcelainwash-tubs,electricbells,andhall-boy,"
asitofferedforseventy-fivedollarswereunapproachedbycompetition。
Therewasasamenessinthejargonwhichtendedtoconfusion。Mrs。Marchgotseveralflatsonherlistwhichpromisedneithersteamheatnorelevators;sheforgotherselfsofarastoincludetwoorthreeasremotefromthedown-townregionofherchoiceasHarlem。Butaftershehadrejectedthesethenondescriptvertebratewasstillvoluminousenoughtosustainherbuoyanthopes。
Thewaiter,whorememberedthemfromyeartoyear,hadputthematawindowgivingaprettygoodsectionofBroadway,andbeforetheysetoutontheirsearchtheyhadamomentofreminiscence。TheyrecalledtheBroadwayoffive,often,oftwentyyearsago,swellingandroaringwithatideofgaylypaintedomnibusesandofpicturesquetrafficthatthehorsecarshavenowbanishedfromit。Thegrindoftheirwheelsandtheclashoftheirharshbellsimperfectlyfillthesilencethattheomnibuseshaveleft,andtheeyemissesthetumultuousperspectiveofformertimes。
TheywentoutandstoodforamomentbeforeGraceChurch,andlookeddownthestatelythoroughfare,andfounditnolongerimpressive,nolongercharacteristic。ItisstillBroadwayinname,butnowitislikeanyotherstreet。Youdonotnowtakeyourlifeinyourhandwhenyouattempttocrossit;theBroadwaypolicemanwhosupportedtheelbowoftimorousbeautyinthehollowofhiscotton-glovedpalmandguideditslittlefearfulbootsoverthecrossing,whilehearrestedthebillowyomnibusesoneithersidewithanimperiousglance,isgone,andallthatcertainprocessional,barbaricgayetyoftheplaceisgone。
"Palmyra,Baalbec,TimouroftheDesert,"saidMarch,voicingtheircommonfeelingofthechange。
Theyturnedandwentintothebeautifulchurch,andfoundthemselvesintimeforthematinservice。RaptfarfromNewYork,ifnotfromearth,inthedimrichnessofthepaintedlight,thehallowedmusictookthemwithsolemnecstasy;theaerial,aspiringGothicformsseemedtoliftthemheavenward。Theycameout,reluctant,intothedazzleandbustleofthestreet,withafeelingthattheyweretoogoodforit,whichtheyconfessedtoeachotherwithwhimsicalconsciousness。
"Butnomatterhowconsecratedwefeelnow,"hesaid,"wemustn"tforgetthatwewentintothechurchforpreciselythesamereasonthatwewenttotheViennaCaf?forbreakfast——togratifyanaestheticsense,torenewthefadedpleasureoftravelforamoment,togetbackintotheEuropeofouryouth。ItwasapurelyPaganimpulse,Isabel,andwe"dbetterownit。"
"Idon"tknow,"shereturned。"Ithinkwereduceourselvestothebarebonestoomuch。Iwishwedidn"talwaysrecognizethefactsaswedo。
SometimesIshouldliketoblinkthem。IshouldliketothinkIwasdevouterthanIam,andyoungerandprettier。"
"Betternot;youcouldn"tkeepitup。Honestyisthebestpolicyeveninsuchthings。"
"No;Idon"tlikeit,Basil。Ishouldratherwaittillthelastdayforsomeofmymotivestocometothetop。Iknowthey"realwaysmixed,butdoletmegivethemthebenefitofadoubtsometimes。"
"Well,well,haveityourownway,mydear。ButIprefernottolayupsomanydisagreeablesurprisesformyselfatthattime。"
Shewouldnotconsent。"IknowIamagooddealyoungerthanIwas。
IfeelquiteinthemoodofthatmorningwhenwewalkeddownBroadwayonourweddingjourney。Don"tyou?"
"Ohyes。ButIknowI"mnotyounger;I"monlyprettier。"
Shelaughedforpleasureinhisjoke,andalsoforunconsciousjoyinthegayNewYorkweather,inwhichtherewasno"arrierepensee"oftheeastwind。TheyhadcrossedBroadway,andwerewalkingovertoWashingtonSquare,intheregionofwhichtheynowhopedtoplacethemselves。The"primotenore"statueofGaribaldihadalreadytakenpossessionoftheplaceinthenameofLatinprogress,andtheymetItalianfaces,Frenchfaces,Spanishfaces,astheystrolledovertheasphaltwalks,underthethinningshadowsoftheautumn-strickensycamores。TheymetthefamiliarpicturesqueraggednessofSouthernEuropewiththeoldkindlyillusionthatsomehowitexistedfortheirappreciation,andthatitfoundadequatecompensationforpovertyinthis。MarchthoughthesufficientlyexpressedhistacitsympathyinsittingdownononeoftheironbencheswithhiswifeandlettingalittleNeapolitanputasuperfluousshineonhisboots,whiletheirdesultorycommentwanderedwithequalesteemtotheold-fashionedAmericanrespectabilitywhichkeepsthenorthsideofthesquareinvastmansionsofredbrick,andtheinternationalshabbinesswhichhasinvadedthesouthernborder,andbrokenitupintolodging-houses,shops,beer-gardens,andstudios。
Theynoticedthesignofanapartmenttoletonthenorthside,andassoonasthelittlebootblackcouldbeboughtofftheywentovertolookatit。Thejanitormetthematthedoorandexaminedthem。Thenhesaid,asifstillindoubt,"Ithastenrooms,andtherentistwenty-
eighthundreddollars。"
"Itwouldn"tdo,then,"Marchreplied,andlefthimtodividetheresponsibilitybetweenthepaucityoftheroomsandtheenormityoftherentashebestmight。Buttheirself-lovehadreceivedawound,andtheyquestionedeachotherwhatitwasintheirappearancemadehimdoubttheirabilitytopaysomuch。
"Ofcourse,wedon"tlooklikeNew-Yorkers,"sighedMrs。March,"andwe"vewalkedthroughtheSquare。ThatmightbeasifwehadwalkedalongtheParkStreetmallintheCommonbeforewecameoutonBeacon。Doyousupposehecouldhaveseenyougettingyourbootsblackedinthatway?"
"It"suselesstoask,"saidMarch。"ButInevercanrecoverfromthisblow。"
"Oh,pshaw!YouknowyouhatesuchthingsasbadlyasIdo。Itwasveryimpertinentofhim。"
"Letusgobackand"ecraserl"infame"bypayinghimayear"srentinadvanceandtakingimmediatepossession。Nothingelsecansoothemywoundedfeelings。Youwerenothavingyourbootsblacked:whyshouldn"thehavesupposedyouwereaNew-Yorker,andIacountrycousin?"
"Theyalwaysknow。Don"tyourememberMrs。Williams"sgoingtoaFifthAvenuemillinerinaWorthdress,andthewoman"saskingherinstantlywhathotelsheshouldsendherhatto?"
"Yes;thesethingsdriveonetodespair。Idon"twonderthebodiesofsomanygenteelstrangersarefoundinthewatersaroundNewYork。Shallwetrythesouthside,mydear?orhadwebettergobacktoourroomsandrestawhile?"
Mrs。Marchhadoutthevertebrate,andwasconsultingoneofitsglitteringribsandglancingupfromitatahousebeforewhichtheystood。"Yes,it"sthenumber;butdotheycallthisbeingreadyOctoberfirst?"Thelittleareainfrontofthebasementwasheapedwithamixtureofmortar,bricks,laths,andshavingsfromtheinterior;thebrownstonestepstothefrontdoorweresimilarlybestrewn;thedoorwayshowedthehalf-open,roughpinecarpenter"ssketchofanunfinishedhouse;thesashlesswindowsofeverystoryshowedtheactivityofworkmenwithin;theclatterofhammersandthehissofsawscameouttothemfromeveryopening。
"TheymaycallitOctoberfirst,"saidMarch,"becauseit"stoolatetocontradictthem。Butthey"dbetternotcallitDecemberfirstinmypresence;I"llletthemsayJanuaryfirst,atapinch。"
"Wewillgoinandlookatit,anyway,"saidhiswife;andheadmiredhow,whenshewasoncewithin,shebeganprovisionallytosettlethefamilyineachoftheseveralfloorswiththefemaleinstinctfordomiciliationwhichneverfailedher。Shehadthehelpofthelandlord,whowaspresenttourgeforwardtheworkmenapparently;helentahopefulfancytothesolutionofallherquestions。TogetherfromunderhisinfluenceMarchhadtorepresentthattheplacewasdampfromundriedplastering,andthatifshestayedshewouldprobablybedownwiththatNewYorkpneumoniawhichvisitingBostoniansarealwaysdyingof。Oncesafelyonthepavementoutside,sherealizedthattheapartmentwasnotonlyunfinished,butunfurnished,andhadneithersteamheatnorelevator。"ButIthoughtwehadbetterlookateverything,"sheexplained。
"Yes,butnottakeeverything。IfIhadn"tpulledyouawayfromtherebymainforceyou"dhavenotonlydiedofNewYorkpneumoniaonthespot,butyou"dhavehadusallsettledtherebeforeweknewwhatwewereabout。"
"Well,that"swhatIcan"thelp,Basil。It"stheonlywayIcanrealizewhetheritwilldoforus。Ihavetodramatizethewholething。"
Shegotadealofpleasureaswellasexcitementoutofthis,andhehadtoownthattheprocessofsettinguphousekeepinginsomanydifferentplaceswasnotonlyentertaining,buttended,throughassociationwiththeirfirstbeginningsinhousekeeping,torestoretheimageoftheirearlymarrieddaysandtomakethemyoungagain。
Itwentonallday,andcontinuedfarintothenight,untilitwastoolatetogotothetheatre,toolatetodoanythingbuttumbleintobedandsimultaneouslyfallasleep。Theygroanedovertheirreiterateddisappointments,buttheycouldnotdenythattheinterestwasunfailing,andthattheygotagreatdealoffunoutofitall。NothingcouldabateMrs。March"sfaithinheradvertisements。Oneofthemsenthertoaflatoftenroomswhichpromisedtobethesolutionofalltheirdifficulties;
itprovedtobeoveralivery-stable,aliquorstore,andamilliner"sshop,noneofthefirstfashion。AnotherledthemfarintooldGreenwichVillagetoanapartment-house,whichsherefusedtoenterbehindasmallgirlwithaloafofbreadunderonearmandaquartcanofmilkundertheother。
Intheirsearchtheywereobliged,asMarchcomplained,totheacquisitionofuselessinformationinadegreeunequalledintheirexperience。Theycametoexcelinthesadknowledgeofthelineatwhichrespectabilitydistinguishesitselffromshabbiness。Flatteringadvertisementstookthemtonumbersofhugeapartment-houseschieflydistinguishablefromtenement-housesbytheabsenceoffire-escapesontheirfacades,tillMrs。Marchrefusedtostopatanydoorwherethereweremorethansixbell-ratchetsandspeaking-tubesoneitherhand。
Beforethemiddleoftheafternoonshedecidedagainstratchetsaltogether,andconfinedherselftoknobs,neatlysetinthedoor-trim。
HerhusbandwasstillsunkinthesuperstitionthatyoucanliveanywhereyoulikeinNewYork,andhewouldhavepausedatsomeplaceswhereherquickereyecaughtthefatalsignof"Modes"intheground-floorwindows。
Shefoundthattherewasaneastandwestlinebeyondwhichtheycouldnotgoiftheywishedtokeeptheirself-respect,andthatwithintheregiontowhichtheyhadrestrictedthemselvestherewasachoiceofstreets。AtfirstalltheNewYorkstreetslookedtothemill-paved,dirty,andrepulsive;thegeneralinfamyimparteditselfintheircasualimpressiontostreetsinnowiseguilty。Buttheybegantonoticethatsomestreetswerequietandclean,and,thoughneversoquietandcleanasBostonstreets,thattheyworeanairofencouragingreform,andsuggestedafutureofgreaterandgreaterdomesticity。Wholeblocksofthesedowntowncross-streetsseemedtohavebeenredeemedfromdecay,andeveninthemidstofsqualoradwellinghereandtherehadbeenseized,paintedadullredastoitsbrick-work,andaglossyblackastoitswood-work,andwithabrightbrassbell-pullanddoor-knobandalargebrassplateforitskey-holeescutcheon,hadbeenendowedwithaneffectofpurityandpridewhichremoveditsshabbyneighborhoodfarfromit。
Someofthesehouseswerequitesmall,andimaginablywithintheirmeans;
but,asMarchsaid,somebodyseemedalwaystobelivingtherehimself,andthefactthatnoneofthemwastorentkeptMrs。Marchtruetoheridealofafiat。NothingpreventeditsrealizationsomuchasitsdifferencefromtheNewYorkidealofaflat,whichwasinflexiblysevenroomsandabath。Oneortworoomsmightbeatthefront,therestcrookedandcorneredbackwardthroughincreasingandthendecreasingdarknesstilltheyreachedalightbedroomorkitchenattherear。
Itmightbetheoneortheother,butitwasalwaystheseventhroomwiththebath;orif,assometimeshappened,itwastheeighth,itwassoafterhavingcountedthebathasone;inthiscasethejanitorsaidyoualwayscountedthebathasone。Iftheflatswereadvertisedashaving"alllightrooms,"heexplainedthatanyroomwithawindowgivingintotheopenairofacourtorshaftwascountedalightroom。
TheMarchestriedtomakeoutwhyitwasthattheseflatsweregomuchmorerepulsivethantheapartmentswhicheveryonelivedinabroad;buttheycouldonlydosouponthesuppositionthatintheirEuropeandaystheyweretooyoung,toohappy,toofullofthefuture,tonoticewhetherroomswereinsideoroutside,lightordark,bigorlittle,highorlow。
"Nowwe"reimprisonedinthepresent,"hesaid,"andwehavetomaketheworstofit。"
Intheirdespairhehadaninspiration,whichshedeclaredworthyofhim:
itwastotaketwosmallflats,offourorfiveroomsandabath,andliveinboth。Theytriedthisinagreatmanyplaces,buttheynevercouldgettwoflatsofthekindonthesamefloorwheretherewassteamheatandanelevator。Atoneplacetheyalmostdidit。Theyhadresignedthemselvestothehumilityoftheneighborhood,totheprevalenceofmodistesandlivery-stablemen(theyseemtoconsortmuchinNewYork),tothegarbageintheguttersandthelitterofpaperinthestreets,tothefalteringslatsinthesurroundingwindow-shuttersandthecrumbledbrownstonestepsandsills,whenitturnedoutthatoneoftheapartmentshadbeentakenbetweentwovisitstheymade。Thentheonlycombinationleftopentothemwasofaground-floorflattotherightandathird-floorflattotheleft。
Stilltheykeptthisinspirationinreserveforuseatthefirstopportunity。Inthemeantimetherewereseveralflatswhichtheythoughttheycouldalmostmakedo:notablyonewheretheycouldgetanextraservant"sroominthebasementfourflightsdown,andanotherwheretheycouldgetitintherooffiveflightsup。Atthefirstthejanitorwasrespectfulandenthusiastic;atthesecondhehadaneffectofironicalpessimism。Whentheytrembledonthevergeoftakinghisapartment,hepointedoutaspotinthekalsominingoftheparlorceiling,andgratuitouslysaid,Nowsuchathingasthatheshouldnotagreetoputinshapeunlesstheytooktheapartmentforatermofyears。
Theapartmentwasunfurnished,andtheyrecurredtothefactthattheywantedafurnishedapartment,andmadetheirescape。Thissavedtheminseveralotherextremities;butshortofextremitytheycouldnotkeeptheirdifferentrequirementsinmind,andwerealwaysabouttodecidewithoutregardtosomeoneofthem。
Theywenttoseveralplacestwicewithoutintending:oncetothatold-
fashionedhousewiththepleasantcoloredjanitor,andwanderedallovertheapartmentagainwithahauntingsenseoffamiliarity,andthenrecognizedthejanitorandlaughed;andtothathousewiththepatheticwidowandtheprettydaughterwhowishedtotakethemtoboard。Theystayedtoexcusetheirblunder,andeasilycamebythefactthatthemotherhadtakenthehousethatthegirlmighthaveahomewhileshewasinNewYorkstudyingart,andtheyhopedtopaytheirwaybytakingboarders。Herdaughterwasatherclassnow,themotherconcluded;andtheyencouragedhertobelievethatitcouldonlybeafewdaystilltherestofherschemewasrealized。
"Idaresaywecouldbeperfectlycomfortablethere,"Marchsuggestedwhentheyhadgotaway。"Nowifweweretrulyhumanewewouldmodifyourdesirestomeettheirneedsandendthissickeningsearch,wouldn"twe?"
"Yes,butwe"renottrulyhumane,"hiswifeanswered,"oratleastnotinthatsense。Youknowyouhateboarding;andifwewentthereIshouldhavethemonmysympathiesthewholetime。"
"Isee。Andthenyouwouldtakeitoutofme。"
"ThenIshouldtakeitoutofyou。Andifyouaregoingtobesoweak,Basil,andleteverylittlethingworkuponyouinthatway,you"dbetternotcometoNewYork。You"llseeenoughmiseryhere。"
"Well,don"ttakethatsuperiortonewithme,asifIwereachildthathaditsmindsetonanundesirabletoy,Isabel。"
"Ah,don"tyousupposeit"sbecauseyouaresuchachildinsomerespectsthatIlikeyou,dear?"shedemanded,withoutrelenting。
"ButIdon"tfindsomuchmiseryinNewYork。Idon"tsupposethere"sanymoresufferingheretothepopulationthanthereisinthecountry。
Andthey"resogayaboutitall。Ithinktheoutwardaspectoftheplaceandthehilarityoftheskyandairmustgetintothepeople"sblood。
Theweatherissimplyunapproachable;andIdon"tcareifitistheugliestplaceintheworld,asyousay。Isupposeitis。Itshrieksandyellswithuglinesshereandtherebutitneverlosesitsspirits。Thatwidowisfromthecountry。Whenshe"sbeenayearinNewYorkshe"llbeasgay——asgayasanLroad。"HecelebratedasatisfactiontheybothhadintheLroads。"Theykillthestreetsandavenues,butatleasttheypartiallyhidethem,andthatissomecomfort;andtheydotriumphovertheirprostrateformswithasavageexultationthatisintoxicating。
ThosebendsintheLthatyougetinthecornerofWashingtonSquare,orjustbelowtheCooperInstitute——they"rethegayestthingsintheworld。
Perfectlyatrocious,ofcourse,butincomparablypicturesque!Andthewholecityisso,"saidMarch,"orelsetheLwouldneverhavegotbuilthere。NewYorkmaybesplendidlygayorsqualidlygay;but,princeorpauper,it"sgayalways。"
"Yes,gayistheword,"sheadmitted,withasigh。"Butfrantic。
Ican"tgetusedtoit。Theyforgetdeath,Basil;theyforgetdeathinNewYork。"
"Well,Idon"tknowthatI"veeverfoundmuchadvantageinrememberingit。"
"Don"tsaysuchathing,dearest。"
Hecouldseethatshehadgottotheendofhernervousstrengthforthepresent,andheproposedthattheyshouldtaketheElevatedroadasfarasitwouldcarrythemintothecountry,andshakeofftheirnightmareofflat-huntingforanhourortwo;butherconsciencewouldnotlether。
SheconvictedhimoflevityequaltothatoftheNew-Yorkersinproposingsuchathing;andtheydraggedthroughtheday。Shewastootiredtocarefordinner,andinthenightshehadadreamfromwhichshewokeherselfwithacrythatrousedhim,too。Itwassomethingaboutthechildrenatfirst,whomtheyhadtalkedofwistfullybeforefallingasleep,andthenitwasofahideousthingwithtwosquareeyesandaseriesofsectionsgrowingdarkerandthenlighter,tillthetailofthemonstrousarticulatewasquiteluminousagain。Sheshudderedatthevaguedescriptionshewasabletogive;butheasked,"Diditoffertobiteyou?"
"No。Thatwasthemostfrightfulthingaboutit;ithadnomouth。"
Marchlaughed。"Why,mydear,itwasnothingbutaharmlessNewYorkflat——sevenroomsandabath。"
"Ireallybelieveitwas,"sheconsented,recognizinganarchitecturalresemblance,andshefellasleepagain,andwokerenewedfortheworkbeforethem。
IX。
Theirhouse-huntingnolongerhadnovelty,butitstillhadinterest;andtheyvariedtheirdaybytakingacoupe,byrenouncingadvertisements,andbyrevertingtoagents。Someoftheseinducedthemtoconsidertheideaoffurnishedhouses;andMrs。MarchlearnedtoleranceforFulkersonbyacceptingpermitstovisitflatsandhouseswhichhadnoneofthequalificationsshedesiredineither,andwereasfarbeyondhermeansastheywereoutoftheregiontowhichshehadgeographicallyrestrictedherself。Theylookedatthree-thousandandfour-thousanddollarapartments,andrejectedthemforonereasonoranotherwhichhadnothingtodowiththerent;thehighertherentwas,themorecriticaltheywereoftheslipperyinlaidfloorsandthearrangementoftherichlydecoratedrooms。Theyneverknewwhethertheyhaddeceivedthejanitorornot;astheycameinacoupe,theyhopedtheyhad。
TheydroveaccidentallythroughonestreetthatseemedgayerintheperspectivethananLroad。Thefire-escapes,withtheirlightironbalconiesandladdersofiron,decoratedtheloftyhousefronts;theroadwayandsidewalksanddoor-stepsswarmedwithchildren;women"sheadsseemedtoshowateverywindow。Inthebasements,overwhichflightsofhighstonestepsledtothetenements,weregreen-grocers"shopsaboundingincabbages,andprovisionstoresrunningchieflytobaconandsausages,andcobblers"andtinners"shops,andthelike,inproportiontothesmallneedsofapoorneighborhood。Ashbarrelslinedthesidewalks,andgarbageheapsfilledthegutters;teamsofalltradesstoodidlyabout;apeddlerofcheapfruiturgedhiscartthroughthestreet,andmixedhiscrywiththejoyousscreamsandshoutsofthechildrenandthescoldingandgossipingvoicesofthewomen;theburlybluebulkofapolicemandefineditselfatthecorner;adrunkardzigzaggeddownthesidewalktowardhim。Itwasnottheabodeoftheextremestpoverty,butofapovertyashopelessasanyintheworld,transmittingitselffromgenerationtogeneration,andestablishingconditionsofpermanencytowhichhumanlifeadjustsitselfasitdoestothoseofsomeincurabledisease,likeleprosy。
ThetimehadbeenwhentheMarcheswouldhavetakenapurelyaestheticviewofthefactsastheyglimpsedtheminthisstreetoftenement-
houses;whentheywouldhavecontentedthemselveswithsayingthatitwasaspicturesqueasastreetinNaplesorFlorence,andwithwonderingwhynobodycametopaintit;theywouldhavethoughttheyweresufficientlyseriousaboutitinblamingtheartistsfortheirfailuretoappreciateit,andgoingabroadforthepicturesquewhentheyhadithereundertheirnoses。Itwastothenosethatthestreetmadeoneofitsstrongestappeals,andMrs。Marchpulledupherwindowofthecoupe。
"Whydoeshetakeusthroughsuchadisgustingstreet?"shedemanded,withanexasperationofwhichherhusbanddivinedtheorigin。
"Thisdrivermaybeaphilanthropistindisguise,"heanswered,withdreamyirony,"andmaywantustothinkaboutthepeoplewhoarenotmerelycarriedthroughthisstreetinacoupe,buthavetospendtheirwholelivesinit,winterandsummer,withnohopesofdrivingoutofit,exceptinahearse。Imustsaytheydon"tseemtomindit。Ihaven"tseenajolliercrowdanywhereinNewYork。Theyseemtohaveforgottendeathalittlemorecompletelythananyoftheirfellow-citizens,Isabel。
AndIwonderwhattheythinkofus,makingthisgorgeousprogressthroughtheirmidst。Isupposetheythinkwe"rerich,andhateus——iftheyhaterichpeople;theydon"tlookasiftheyhatedanybody。Shouldwebeaspatientastheyarewiththeirdiscomfort?Idon"tbelievethere"ssteamheatoranelevatorinthewholeblock。Sevenroomsandabathwouldbemorethanthelargestandgenteelestfamilywouldknowwhattodowith。
Theywouldn"tknowwhattodowiththebath,anyway。"
Hismonologueseemedtointeresthiswifeapartfromthesatiricalpointithadforthemselves。"YououghttogetMr。FulkersontoletyouworksomeoftheseNewYorksightsupforEveryOtherWeek,Basil;youcoulddothemverynicely。"
"Yes;I"vethoughtofthat。Butdon"tlet"sleavethepersonalground。
Doesn"titmakeyoufeelrathersmallandotherwiseunworthywhenyouseethekindofstreetthesefellow-beingsofyourslivein,andthenthinkhowparticularyouareaboutlocalityandthenumberofbellpulls?
Idon"tseeevenratchetsandspeaking-tubesatthesedoors。"Hecranedhisneckoutofthewindowforabetterlook,andthechildrenofdiscomfortcheeredhim,outofsheergoodfeelingandhighspirits。
"Ididn"tknowIwassopopular。Perhapsit"sarecognitionofmyhumanesentiments。"
"Oh,it"sveryeasytohavehumanesentiments,andtosatirizeourselvesforwantingeightroomsandabathinagoodneighborhood,whenweseehowthesewretchedcreatureslive,"saidhiswife。"Butifwesharedallwehavewiththem,andthensettleddownamongthem,whatgoodwoulditdo?"
"Nottheleastintheworld。Itmighthelpusforthemoment,butitwouldn"tkeepthewolffromtheirdoorsforaweek;andthentheywouldgoonjustasbefore,onlytheywouldn"tbeonsuchgoodtermswiththewolf。Theonlywayforthemistokeepupanunbrokenintimacywiththewolf;thentheycanmanagehimsomehow。Idon"tknowhow,andI"mafraidIdon"twantto。Wouldn"tyouliketohavethisfellowdriveusroundamongthehallsofpridesomewhereforalittlewhile?FifthAvenueorMadison,up-town?"