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PREFATORYNOTE
Thefollowingstory,thefirstpublishedbytheauthor,waswrittennineteenyearsago,atatimewhenhewasfeelinghiswaytoamethod。Theprinciplesobservedinitscompositionare,nodoubt,tooexclusivelythoseinwhichmystery,entanglement,surprise,andmoralobliquityaredependedonforexcitinginterest;butsomeofthescenes,andatleastoneofthecharacters,havebeendeemednotunworthyofalittlelongerpreservation;andastheycouldhardlybereproducedinafragmentaryformthenovelisreissuedcomplete——
themorereadilythatithasforsomeconsiderabletimebeenreprintedandwidelycirculatedinAmerica。
January1889。
TotheforegoingnoteIhaveonlytoaddthat,inthepresenteditionof"DesperateRemedies,"someWessextownsandotherplacesthatarecommontothescenesofseveralofthesestorieshavebeencalledforthefirsttimebythenamesunderwhichtheyappearelsewhere,forthesatisfactionofanyreaderwhomaycareforconsistencyinsuchmatters。
Thisistheonlymaterialchange;for,asithappenedthatcertaincharacteristicswhichprovokedmostdiscussioninmylateststorywerepresentinthismyfirst——publishedin1871,whentherewasnoFrenchnameforthemithasseemedbesttoletthemstandunaltered。
T。H。
February1896。
I。THEEVENTSOFTHIRTYYEARS
1。DECEMBERANDJANUARY,1835-36
InthelongandintricatelyinwroughtchainofcircumstancewhichrendersworthyofrecordsomeexperiencesofCythereaGraye,EdwardSpringrove,andothers,thefirsteventdirectlyinfluencingtheissuewasaChristmasvisit。
Intheabove-mentionedyear,1835,AmbroseGraye,ayoungarchitectwhohadjustbegunthepracticeofhisprofessioninthemidlandtownofHocbridge,tothenorthofChristminster,wenttoLondontospendtheChristmasholidayswithafriendwholivedinBloomsbury。
TheyhadgoneuptoCambridgeinthesameyear,and,aftergraduatingtogether,Huntway,thefriend,hadtakenorders。
Grayewashandsome,frank,andgentle。Hehadaqualityofthoughtwhich,exercisedonhomeliness,washumour;onnature,picturesqueness;onabstractions,poetry。Being,asarule,broadcast,itwasallthree。
Ofthewickednessoftheworldhewastooforgetful。Todiscoverevilinanewfriendistomostpeopleonlyanadditionalexperience:tohimitwaseverasurprise。
WhileinLondonhebecameacquaintedwitharetiredofficerintheNavynamedBradleigh,who,withhiswifeandtheirdaughter,livedinastreetnotfarfromRussellSquare。Thoughtheywereinnomorethancomfortablecircumstances,thecaptain"swifecameofanancientfamilywhosegenealogicaltreewasinterlacedwithsomeofthemostillustriousandwell-knowninthekingdom。
Theyounglady,theirdaughter,seemedtoGrayebyfarthemostbeautifulandqueenlybeinghehadeverbeheld。Shewasaboutnineteenortwenty,andhernamewasCytherea。Intruthshewasnotsoveryunlikecountrygirlsofthattypeofbeauty,exceptinonerespect。Shewasperfectinhermannerandbearing,andtheywerenot。Ameredistinguishingpeculiarity,bycatchingtheeye,isoftenreadasthepervadingcharacteristic,andsheappearedtohimnolessthanperfectionthroughout——transcendingherruralrivalsinverynature。Grayedidathingtheblissfulnessofwhichwasonlyeclipsedbyitshazardousness。Helovedheratfirstsight。
HisintroductionshadledhimintocontactwithCythereaandherparentstwoorthreetimesonthefirstweekofhisarrivalinLondon,andaccidentandalover"scontrivancebroughtthemtogetherasfrequentlytheweekfollowing。TheparentslikedyoungGraye,andhavingfewfriends(fortheirequalsinbloodweretheirsuperiorsinposition),hewasreceivedonverygenerousterms。HispassionforCythereagrewnotonlystrong,butineffablyexalted:
she,withoutpositivelyencouraginghim,tacitlyassentedtohisschemesforbeingnearher。Herfatherandmotherseemedtohavelostallconfidenceinnobilityofbirth,withoutmoneytogiveeffecttoitspresence,andlookeduponthebuddingconsequenceoftheyoungpeople"sreciprocalglanceswithplacidity,ifnotactualfavour。
Graye"swholeimpassioneddreamterminatedinasadandunaccountableepisode。Afterpassingthroughthreeweeksofsweetexperience,hehadarrivedatthelaststage——akindofmoralGaza——
beforeplungingintoanemotionaldesert。ThesecondweekinJanuaryhadcomeround,anditwasnecessaryfortheyoungarchitecttoleavetown。
Throughouthisacquaintanceshipwiththeladyofhishearttherehadbeenthismarkedpeculiarityinherlove:shehaddelightedinhispresenceasasweetheartshoulddo,yetfromfirsttolastshehadrepressedallrecognitionofthetruenatureofthethreadwhichdrewthemtogether,blindingherselftoitsmeaningandonlynaturaltendency,andappearingtodreadhisannouncementofthem。Thepresentseemedenoughforherwithoutcumulativehope:usually,evenifloveisinitselfanend,itmustberegardedasabeginningtobeenjoyed。
Inspiteofevasionsasanobstacle,andinconsequenceofthemasaspur,hewouldputthematteroffnolonger。Itwasevening。Hetookherintoalittleconservatoryonthelanding,andthereamongtheevergreens,bythelightofafewtinylamps,infinitelyenhancingthefreshnessandbeautyoftheleaves,hemadethedeclarationofaloveasfreshandbeautifulasthey。
"Mylove——mydarling,bemywife!"
Sheseemedlikeonejustawakened。"Ah——wemustpartnow!"shefaltered,inavoiceofanguish。"Iwillwritetoyou。"Sheloosenedherhandandrushedaway。
InawildfeverGrayewenthomeandwatchedforthenextmorning。
Whoshallexpresshismiseryandwonderwhenanotecontainingthesewordswasputintohishand?
"Good-bye;good-byeforever。Asrecognizedloverssomethingdividesuseternally。Forgiveme——Ishouldhavetoldyoubefore;
butyourlovewassweet!Nevermentionme。"
Thatveryday,andasitseemed,toputanendtoapainfulconditionofthings,daughterandparentsleftLondontopayoffapromisedvisittoarelativeinawesterncounty。Nomessageorletterofentreatycouldwringfromheranyexplanation。Shebeggedhimnottofollowher,andthemostbewilderingpointwasthatherfatherandmotherappeared,fromthetoneofaletterGrayereceivedfromthem,asvexedandsadasheatthissuddenrenunciation。Onethingwasplain:withoutadmittingherreasonasvalid,theyknewwhatthatreasonwas,anddidnotintendtorevealit。
AweekfromthatdayAmbroseGrayelefthisfriendHuntway"shouseandsawnomoreoftheLovehemourned。FromtimetotimehisfriendansweredanyinquiryGrayemadebyletterrespectingher。
Butverypoorfoodtoaloverisintelligenceofamistressfilteredthroughafriend。Huntwaycouldtellnothingdefinitely。HesaidhebelievedtherehadbeensomepriorflirtationbetweenCythereaandhercousin,anofficeroftheline,twoorthreeyearsbeforeGrayemether,whichhadsuddenlybeenterminatedbythecousin"sdepartureforIndia,andtheyounglady"stravellingontheContinentwithherparentsthewholeoftheensuingsummer,onaccountofdelicatehealth。EventuallyHuntwaysaidthatcircumstanceshadrenderedGraye"sattachmentmorehopelessstill。
Cytherea"smotherhadunexpectedlyinheritedalargefortuneandestatesinthewestofEnglandbytherapidfallofsomeinterveninglives。ThishadcausedtheirremovalfromthesmallhouseinBloomsbury,and,asitappeared,arenunciationoftheiroldfriendsinthatquarter。
YoungGrayeconcludedthathisCythereahadforgottenhimandhislove。Buthecouldnotforgether。
2。FROM1843TO1861
Eightyearslater,feelinglonelyanddepressed——amanwithoutrelatives,withmanyacquaintancesbutnofriends——AmbroseGrayemetayoungladyofadifferentkind,fairlyendowedwithmoneyandgoodgifts。AstocaringverydeeplyforanotherwomanafterthelossofCytherea,itwasanabsoluteimpossibilitywithhim。Withall,thebeautifulthingsoftheearthbecomemoredearastheyeludepursuit;butwithsomenaturesutterelusionistheonespecialeventwhichwillmakeapassinglovepermanentforever。
ThissecondyoungladyandGrayeweremarried。Thathedidnot,firstorlast,lovehiswifeasheshouldhavedone,wasknowntoall;butfewknewthathisunmanageableheartcouldneverbeweanedfromuselessrepiningatthelossofitsfirstidol。
Hischaractertosomeextentdeteriorated,asemotionalconstitutionswillunderthelongsenseofdisappointmentathavingmissedtheirimagineddestiny。Andthus,thoughnaturallyofagentleandpleasantdisposition,hegrewtobenotsotenderlyregardedbyhisacquaintancesasitisthelotofsomeofthosepersonstobe。Thewinningandsanguinereceptivityofhisearlylifedevelopedbydegreesamoodynervousness,andwhennotpicturingprospectsdrawnfrombaselesshopehewasthevictimofindescribabledepression。Thepracticalissueofsuchaconditionwasimprovidence,originallyalmostanunconsciousimprovidence,foreverydebtincurredhadbeenmentallypaidoffwithareligiousexactnessfromthetreasuresofexpectationbeforementioned。Butasyearsrevolved,thesamecoursewascontinuedfromthelackofspiritsufficientforshiftingoutofanoldgroovewhenithasbeenfoundtoleadtodisaster。
Intheyear1861hiswifedied,leavinghimawidowerwithtwochildren。Theelder,asonnamedOwen,nowjustturnedseventeen,wastakenfromschool,andinitiatedaspupiltotheprofessionofarchitectinhisfather"soffice。Theremainingchildwasadaughter,andOwen"sjuniorbyayear。
HerchristiannamewasCytherea,anditiseasytoguesswhy。
3。OCTOBERTHETWELFTH,1863
Wepassovertwoyearsinordertoreachthenextcardinaleventofthesepersons"lives。ThesceneisstilltheGrayes"nativetownofHocbridge,butasitappearedonaMondayafternooninthemonthofOctober。
Theweatherwassunnyanddry,buttheancientboroughwastobeseenwearingoneofitsleastattractiveaspects。Firstonaccountofthetime。Itwasthatstagnanthourofthetwenty-fourwhenthepracticalgarishnessofDay,havingescapedfromthefreshlongshadowsandenliveningnewnessofthemorning,hasnotyetmadeanyperceptibleadvancetowardsacquiringthosemellowandsoothingtoneswhichgraceitsdecline。Next,itwasthatstageintheprogressoftheweekwhenbusiness——which,carriedonunderthegablesofanoldcountryplace,isnotdevoidofaromanticsparkle——
waswell-nighextinguished。Lastly,thetownwasintentionallybentuponbeingattractivebyexhibitingtoaninfluxofvisitorsthelocaltalentfordramaticrecitation,andprovincialtownstryingtobelivelyarethedullestofdullthings。
Littletownsarelikelittlechildreninthisrespect,thattheyinterestmostwhentheyareenactingnativepeculiaritiesunconsciousofbeholders。Discoveringthemselvestobewatchedtheyattempttobeentertainingbyputtingonanantic,andproducedisagreeablecaricatureswhichspoilthem。
Theweather-stainedclock-faceinthelowchurchtowerstandingattheintersectionofthethreechiefstreetswasexpressinghalf-pasttwototheTownHallopposite,wherethemuchtalked-ofreadingfromShakespearewasabouttobegin。Thedoorswereopen,andthosepersonswhohadalreadyassembledwithinthebuildingwerenoticingtheentranceofthenew-comers——silentlycriticizingtheirdress——
questioningthegenuinenessoftheirteethandhair——estimatingtheirprivatemeans。
Amongtheselateronescameanexceptionalyoungmaidenwhoglowedamidthedulnesslikeasinglebright-redpoppyinafieldofbrownstubble。Sheworeanelegantdarkjacket,lavenderdress,hatwithgreystringsandtrimmings,andglovesofacolourtoharmonize。
Shelightlywalkedupthesidepassageoftheroom,castaslightglancearound,andenteredtheseatpointedouttoher。
TheyounggirlwasCythereaGraye;heragewasnowabouteighteen。
Duringherentry,andatvarioustimeswhilstsittinginherseatandlisteningtothereaderontheplatform,herpersonalappearanceformedaninterestingsubjectofstudyforseveralneighbouringeyes。
Herfacewasexceedinglyattractive,thoughartisticallylessperfectthanherfigure,whichapproachedunusuallyneartothestandardoffaultlessness。Buteventhisfeatureofhersyieldedthepalmtothegracefulnessofhermovement,whichwasfascinatinganddelightfultoanextremedegree。
Indeed,motionwasherspeciality,whethershownonitsmostextendedscaleofbodilyprogression,orminutely,asintheupliftingofhereyelids,thebendingofherfingers,thepoutingofherlip。Thecarriageofherhead——motionwithinmotion——aglideuponaglide——wasasdelicateasthatofamagneticneedle。Andthisflexibilityandelasticityhadneverbeentaughtherbyrule,norevenbeenacquiredbyobservation,but,nullocultu,hadnaturallydevelopeditselfwithheryears。Inchildhood,astoneorstalkintheway,whichhadbeentheinevitableoccasionofafalltoherplaymates,hadusuallylefthersafeanduprightonherfeetafterthenarrowestescapebyoscillationsandwhirlsforthepreservationofherbalance。AtmixedChristmasparties,whenshenumberedbuttwelveorthirteenyears,andwasheartilydespisedonthataccountbyladswhodeemedthemselvesmen,heraptlightnessinthedancecoveredthisincompletenessinherwomanhood,andcompelledtheself-sameyouthsinspiteofresolutionstoseizeuponherchildishfigureasapartnerwhomtheycouldnotaffordtocontemn。Andinlateryears,whentheinstinctsofhersexhadshownherthispointasthebestandrarestfeatureinherexternalself,shewasnotfoundwantinginattentiontothecultivationoffinishinitsdetails。
Herhairrestedgailyuponhershouldersincurlsandwasofashiningcornyellowinthehighlights,deepeningtoadefinitenut-
brownaseachcurlwoundroundintotheshade。Shehadeyesofasapphirehue,thoughratherdarkerthanthegemordinarilyappears;
theypossessedtheaffectionateandliquidsparkleofloyaltyandgoodfaithasdistinguishablefromthatharderbrightnesswhichseemstoexpressfaithfulnessonlytotheobjectconfrontingthem。
Buttoattempttogainaviewofher——orindeedofanyfascinatingwoman——fromameasuredcategory,isasdifficultastoappreciatetheeffectofalandscapebyexploringitatnightwithalantern——
orofafullchordofmusicbypipingthenotesinsuccession。
Neverthelessitmayreadilybebelievedfromthedescriptionhereventured,thatamongthemanywinningphasesofheraspect,thesewereparticularlystriking:——
Duringpleasantdoubt,whenhereyesbrightenedstealthilyandsmiled(aseyeswillsmile)asdistinctlyasherlips,andinthespaceofasingleinstantexpressedclearlythewholeroundofdegreesofexpectancywhichlieoverthewideexpansebetweenYeaandNay。
Duringthetellingofasecret,whichwasinvoluntarilyaccompaniedbyasuddenminutestart,andecstaticpressureofthelistener"sarm,side,orneck,asthepositionanddegreeofintimacydictated。
Whenanxiouslyregardingonewhopossessedheraffections。
Shesuddenlyassumedthelast-mentionedbearingintheprogressofthepresententertainment。Herglancewasdirectedoutofthewindow。
Whytheparticularsofayounglady"spresenceataverymediocreperformancewerepreventedfromdroppingintotheoblivionwhichtheirintrinsicinsignificancewouldnaturallyhaveinvolved——whytheywererememberedandindividualizedbyherselfandothersthroughafteryears——wassimplythatsheunknowinglystood,asitwere,upontheextremeposterioredgeofatractinherlife,inwhichtherealmeaningofTakingThoughthadneverbeenknown。Itwasthelasthourofexperiencesheeverenjoyedwithamindentirelyfreefromaknowledgeofthatlabyrinthintowhichshesteppedimmediatelyafterwards——tocontinueaperplexedcoursealongitsmazesforthegreaterportionoftwenty-ninesubsequentmonths。
TheTownHall,inwhichCythereasat,wasabuildingofbrownstone,andthroughoneofthewindowscouldbeseenfromtheinterioroftheroomthehousetopsandchimneysoftheadjacentstreet,andalsotheupperpartofaneighbouringchurchspire,nowincourseofcompletionunderthesuperintendenceofMissGraye"sfather,thearchitecttothework。
ThatthetopofthisspireshouldbevisiblefromherpositionintheroomwasafactwhichCytherea"sidlingeyeshaddiscoveredwithsomeinterest,andshewasnowengagedinwatchingthescenethatwasbeingenactedaboutitsairysummit。Roundtheconicalstoneworkroseacageofscaffoldingagainstthebluesky,anduponthisstoodfivemen——fourinclothesaswhiteasthenewerectionclosebeneaththeirhands,thefifthintheordinarydarksuitofagentleman。
Thefourworking-meninwhitewerethreemasonsandamason"slabourer。Thefifthmanwasthearchitect,Mr。Graye。Hehadbeengivingdirectionsasitseemed,andretiringasfarasthenarrowfootwayallowed,stoodperfectlystill。
ThepicturethuspresentedtoaspectatorintheTownHallwascuriousandstriking。Itwasanilluminatedminiature,framedinbythedarkmarginofthewindow,thekeen-edgedshadinessofwhichemphasizedbycontrastthesoftnessoftheobjectsenclosed。
Theheightofthespirewasaboutonehundredandtwentyfeet,andthefivemenengagedthereonseemedentirelyremovedfromthesphereandexperiencesofordinaryhumanbeings。Theyappearedlittlelargerthanpigeons,andmadetheirtinymovementswithasoft,spirit-likesilentness。Oneideaaboveallotherswasconveyedtothemindofapersononthegroundbytheiraspect,namely,concentrationofpurpose:thattheywereindifferentto——evenunconsciousof——thedistractedworldbeneaththem,andallthatmoveduponit。Theyneverlookedoffthescaffolding。
Thenoneofthemturned;itwasMr。Graye。Againhestoodmotionless,withattentiontotheoperationsoftheothers。Heappearedtobelostinreflection,andhaddirectedhisfacetowardsanewstonetheywerelifting。
"Whydoeshestandlikethat?"theyoungladythoughtatlength——uptothatmomentaslistlessandcarelessasoneoftheancientTarentines,who,onsuchanafternoonasthis,watchedfromtheTheatretheentryintotheirHarbourofapowerthatoverturnedtheState。
Shemovedherselfuneasily。"Iwishhewouldcomedown,"shewhispered,stillgazingattheskybackedpicture。"Itissodangeroustobeabsent-mindedupthere。"
Whenshehaddonemurmuringthewordsherfatherindecisivelylaidholdofoneofthescaffold-poles,asiftotestitsstrength,thenletitgoandsteppedback。Instepping,hisfootslipped。Aninstantofdoublingforwardandsideways,andhereeledoffintotheair,immediatelydisappearingdownwards。
Hisagonizeddaughterrosetoherfeetbyaconvulsivemovement。
Herlipsparted,andshegaspedforbreath。Shecouldutternosound。Onebyonethepeopleabouther,unconsciousofwhathadhappened,turnedtheirheads,andinquiryandalarmbecamevisibleupontheirfacesatthesightofthepoorchild。Amomentlonger,andshefelltothefloor,ThenextimpressionofwhichCythereahadanyconsciousnesswasofbeingcarriedfromastrangevehicleacrossthepavementtothestepsofherownhousebyherbrotherandanolderman。
Recollectionofwhathadpassedevolveditselfaninstantlater,andjustastheyenteredthedoor——throughwhichanotherandsadderburdenhadbeencarriedbutafewinstantsbefore——hereyescaughtsightofthesouth-westernsky,and,withoutheeding,sawwhitesunlightshininginshaft-likelinesfromariftinaslatycloud。
Emotionswillattachthemselvestoscenesthataresimultaneous——
howeverforeigninessencethesescenesmaybe——aschemicalwaterswillcrystallizeontwigsandwires。EvenafterthattimeanymentalagonybroughtlessvividlytoCytherea"smindthescenefromtheTownHallwindowsthansunlightstreaminginshaft-likelines。
4。OCTOBERTHENINETEENTH
Whendeathentersahouse,anelementofsadnessandanelementofhorroraccompanyit。Sadness,fromthedeathitself:horror,fromthecloudsofblacknesswedesignedlylabourtointroduce。
Thefuneralhadtakenplace。Depressed,yetresolvedinhisdemeanour,OwenGrayesatbeforehisfather"sprivateescritoire,engagedinturningoutandunfoldingaheterogeneouscollectionofpapers——forbiddingandinharmonioustotheeyeatalltimes——mostofalltooneundertheinfluenceofagreatgrief。Laminaeofwhitepapertiedwithtwinewereindiscriminatelyintermixedwithotherwhitepapersboundedbyblackedges——thesewithbluefoolscapwrappedroundwithcruderedtape。
Thebulkoftheseletters,bills,andotherdocumentsweresubmittedtoacarefulexamination,bywhichtheappendedparticularswereascertained:——
First,thattheirfather"sincomefromprofessionalsourceshadbeenverysmall,amountingtonotmorethanhalftheirexpenditure;
andthathisownandhiswife"sproperty,uponwhichhehadreliedforthebalance,hadbeensunkandlostinunwiseloanstounscrupulousmen,whohadtradedupontheirfather"stooopen-
heartedtrustfulness。
Second,thatfindinghismistake,hehadendeavouredtoregainhisstandingbytheillusorypathofspeculation。Themostnotableinstanceofthiswasthefollowing。Hehadbeeninduced,whenatPlymouthintheautumnofthepreviousyear,toventureallhissparecapitalonthebottomrysecurityofanItalianbrigwhichhadputintotheharbourindistress。Theprofitwastobeconsiderable,sowastherisk。Thereturnedouttobenosecuritywhatever。Thecircumstancesofthecasetendereditthemostunfortunatespeculationthatamanlikehimself——ignorantofallsuchmatters——couldpossiblyengagein。Thevesselwentdown,andallMr。Graye"smoneywithit。
Third,thatthesefailureshadlefthimburdenedwithdebtsheknewnothowtomeet;sothatatthetimeofhisdeatheventhefewpoundslyingtohisaccountatthebankwerehisonlyinname。
Fourth,thatthelossofhiswifetwoyearsearlierhadawakenedhimtoakeensenseofhisblindness,andofhisdutybyhischildren。Hehadthenresolvedtoreinstatebyunflaggingzealinthepursuitofhisprofession,andbynospeculation,atleastaportionofthelittlefortunehehadletgo。
Cythereawasfrequentlyatherbrother"selbowduringtheseexaminations。Sheoftenremarkedsadly——
"Poorpapafailedtofulfilhisgoodintentionforwantoftime,didn"the,Owen?Andtherewasanexcuseforhispast,thoughheneverwouldclaimit。Ineverforgetthatoriginaldishearteningblow,andhowthatfromitsprangalltheillsofhislife——
everythingconnectedwithhisgloom,andthelassitudeinbusinessweusedsooftentoseeabouthim。"
"Irememberwhathesaidonce,"returnedthebrother,"whenIsatuplatewithhim。Hesaid,“Owen,don"tlovetooblindly:blindlyyouwillloveifyouloveatall,butalittlecareisstillpossibletoawell-disciplinedheart。Maythatheartbeyoursasitwasnotmine,“fathersaid。“Cultivatetheartofrenunciation。“AndIamgoingto,Cytherea。"
"Andoncemammasaidthatanexcellentwomanwaspapa"sruin,becausehedidnotknowthewaytogiveherupwhenhehadlosther。
Iwonderwheresheisnow,Owen?Weweretoldnottotrytofindoutanythingabouther。Papanevertoldushername,didhe?"
"Thatwasbyherownrequest,Ibelieve。Butnevermindher;shewasnotourmother。"
TheloveaffairwhichhadbeenAmbroseGraye"sdishearteningblowwaspreciselyofthatnaturewhichladstakelittleaccountof,butgirlsponderintheirhearts。
5。FROMOCTOBERTHENINETEENTHTOJULYTHENINTH
ThusAmbroseGraye"sgoodintentionswithregardtothereintegrationofhispropertyhadscarcelytakentangibleformwhenhissuddendeathputthemforeveroutofhispower。
Heavybills,showingtheextentofhisobligations,tumbledinimmediatelyupontheheelsofthefuneralfromquarterspreviouslyunheardandunthoughtof。Thuspressed,abillwasfiledinChancerytohavetheassets,suchastheywere,administeredbytheCourt。
"Whatwillbecomeofusnow?"thoughtOwencontinually。
Thereisinusanunquenchableexpectation,whichatthegloomiesttimepersistsininferringthatbecauseweareOURSELVES,theremustbeaspecialfutureinstoreforus,thoughournatureandantecedentstotheremotestparticularhavebeencommontothousands。ThustoCythereaandOwenGrayethequestionhowtheirliveswouldendseemedthedeepestofpossibleenigmas。Tootherswhoknewtheirpositionequallywellwiththemselvesthequestionwastheeasiestthatcouldbeasked——"Likethoseofotherpeoplesimilarlycircumstanced。"
ThenOwenheldaconsultationwithhissistertocometosomedecisionontheirfuturecourse,andamonthwaspassedinwaitingforanswerstoletters,andintheexaminationofschemesmoreorlessfutile。Suddenhopesthatwererainbowstothesightprovedbutmiststothetouch。Inthemeantime,unpleasantremarks,disguisethemassomewell-meaningpeoplemight,werefloatingaroundthemeveryday。Theundoubtedtruth,thattheywerethechildrenofadreamerwholetslipawayeveryfarthingofhismoneyandranintodebtwithhisneighbours——thatthedaughterhadbeenbroughtuptonoprofession——thatthesonwhohad,hadmadenoprogressinit,andmightcometothedogs——couldnotfromthenatureofthingsbewrappedupinsilenceinorderthatitmightnothurttheirfeelings;andasamatteroffact,itgreetedtheirearsinsomeformorotherwherevertheywent。Theirfewacquaintancespassedthemhurriedly。Ancientpot-wallopers,andthrivingshopkeepers,intheirintervalsofleisure,stoodattheirshop-
doors——theirtoeshangingovertheedgeofthestep,andtheirobesewaistshangingovertheirtoes——andindiscourseswithfriendsonthepavement,formulatedthecourseoftheimprovident,andreducedthechildren"sprospectstoashadow-likeattenuation。Thesonsofthesemen(whoworebreastpinsofasarcastickind,andsmokedhumorouspipes)staredatCythereawithastareunmitigatedbyanyoftherespectthathadformerlysoftenedit。
Nowitisanoticeablefactthatwedonotmuchmindwhatmenthinkofus,orwhathumiliatingsecrettheydiscoverofourmeans,parentage,orobject,providedthateachthinksandactsthereuponinisolation。Itistheexchangeofideasaboutusthatwedreadmost;andthepossessionbyahundredacquaintances,severallyinsulated,oftheknowledgeofourskeleton-closet"swhereabouts,isnotsodistressingtothenervesasachatoveritbyapartyofhalf-a-dozen——exclusivedepositariesthoughthesemaybe。
Perhaps,thoughHocbridgewatchedandwhispered,itsanimuswouldhavebeenlittlemorethanatrifletopersonsinthrivingcircumstances。Butunfortunately,poverty,whilstitisnew,andbeforetheskinhashadtimetothicken,makespeoplesusceptibleinverselytotheiropportunitiesforshieldingthemselves。InOwenwasfound,inplaceofhisfather"simpressibility,alargershareofhisfather"spride,andasquarenessofideawhich,ifcoupledwithalittlemoreblindness,wouldhaveamountedtopositiveprejudice。Tohimhumanity,sofarashehadthoughtofitatall,wasratherdividedintodistinctclassesthanblendedfromextremetoextreme。Hencebyasequenceofideaswhichmightbetracedifitwereworthwhile,heeitherdetestedorrespectedopinion,andinstinctivelysoughttoescapeacoldshadethatmeresensitivenesswouldhaveendured。Hecouldhavesubmittedtoseparation,sickness,exile,drudgery,hungerandthirst,withstoicalindifference,butsuperciliousnesswastooincisive。
Afterlivingonforninemonthsinattemptstomakeanincomeashisfather"ssuccessorintheprofession——attemptswhichwereutterlyfruitlessbyreasonofhisinexperience——Grayecametoasimpleandsweepingresolution。TheywouldprivatelyleavethatpartofEngland,dropfromthesightofacquaintances,gossips,harshcritics,andbittercreditorsofwhosemisfortunehewasnotthecause,andescapethepositionwhichgalledhimbytheonlyroadtheirgreatpovertyleftopentothem——thatofhisobtainingsomeemploymentinadistantplacebyfollowinghisprofessionasahumbleunder-draughtsman。
Hethoughtoverhiscapabilitieswiththesensationsofasoldiergrindinghisswordattheopeningofacampaign。Whatwithlackofemployment,owingtothedecreaseofhislatefather"spractice,andtheabsenceofdirectanduncompromisingpressuretowardsmonetaryresultsfromapupil"slabour(whichseemstobealwaysthecasewhenaprofessionalman"spupilisalsohisson),Owen"sprogressintheartandscienceofarchitecturehadbeenveryinsignificantindeed。Thoughanythingbutanidleyoungman,hehadhardlyreachedtheageatwhichindustriousmenwholackanexternalwhiptosendthemonintheworld,areinducedbytheirowncommonsensetowhiponthemselves。Hencehisknowledgeofplans,elevations,sections,andspecifications,wasnotgreaterattheendoftwoyearsofprobationthanmighteasilyhavebeenacquiredinsixmonthsbyayouthofaverageability——himself,forinstance——amidabustlingLondonpractice。
Butatanyratehecouldmakehimselfhandytooneoftheprofession——somemaninaremotetown——andtherefulfilhisindentures。Atangibleinducementlayinthisdirectionofsurvey。
Hehadaslightconceptionofsuchaman——aMr。Gradfield——whowasinpracticeinBudmouthRegis,aseaporttownandwatering-placeinthesouthofEngland。
Aftersomedoubts,Grayeventuredtowritetothisgentleman,askingthenecessaryquestion,shortlyalludingtohisfather"sdeath,andstatingthathistermofapprenticeshiphadonlyhalfexpired。Hewouldbegladtocompletehisarticlesataverylowsalaryforthewholeremainingtwoyears,providedpaymentcouldbeginatonce。
TheanswerfromMr。GradfieldstatedthathewasnotinwantofapupilwhowouldservetheremainderofhistimeonthetermsMr。
Grayementioned。Buthewouldjustaddoneremark。Hechancedtobeinwantofsomeyoungmaninhisoffice——forashorttimeonly,probablyabouttwomonths——totracedrawings,andattendtoothersubsidiaryworkofthekind。IfMr。Grayedidnotobjecttooccupysuchaninferiorpositionasthesedutieswouldentail,andtoacceptweeklywageswhichtoonewithhisexpectationswouldbeconsideredmerelynominal,thepostwouldgivehimanopportunityforlearningafewmoredetailsoftheprofession。
"Itisabeginning,and,aboveall,anabiding-place,awayfromtheshadowofthecloudwhichhangsoverushere——Iwillgo,"saidOwen。
Cytherea"splanforherfuture,anintenselysimpleone,owingtotheevengreaternarrownessofherresources,wasalreadymarkedout。Oneadvantagehadaccruedtoherthroughhermother"spossessionofafairshareofpersonalproperty,andperhapsonlyone。Shehadbeencarefullyeducated。Uponthisconsiderationherplanwasbased。Shewastotakeupherabodeinherbrother"slodgingatBudmouth,whenshewouldimmediatelyadvertiseforasituationasgoverness,havingobtainedtheconsentofalawyeratAldbrickhamwhowaswindingupherfather"saffairs,andwhoknewthehistoryofherposition,toallowhimselftobereferredtointhematterofherpastlifeandrespectability。
Earlyonemorningtheydepartedfromtheirnativetown,leavingbehindthemscarcelyatraceoftheirfootsteps。
Thenthetownpitiedtheirwantofwisdomintakingsuchastep。
"Rashness;theywouldhavemadeabetterincomeinHocbridge,wheretheyareknown!Thereisnodoubtthattheywould。"
ButwhatisWisdomreally?Asteadyhandlingofanymeanstobringaboutanyendnecessarytohappiness。
Yetwhetherone"sendbetheusualend——awealthypositioninlife——
orno,thenameofwisdomisseldomappliedbuttothemeanstothatusualend。
II。THEEVENTSOFAFORTNIGHT
1。THENINTHOFJULY
Thedayoftheirdeparturewasoneofthemostglowingthattheclimaxofalongseriesofsummerheatscouldevolve。Thewideexpanseoflandscapequiveredupanddownliketheflameofataper,astheysteamedalongthroughthemidstofit。Placidflocksofsheeprecliningundertreesalittlewayoffappearedofapalebluecolour。Cloverfieldswerelividwiththebrightnessofthesunupontheirdeepredflowers。Allwaggonsandcartsweremovedtotheshadebytheircarefulowners,rain-waterbuttsfelltopieces;
well-bucketswereloweredinsidethecoversofthewell-hole,topreservethemfromthefateofthebutts,andgenerally,waterseemedscarcerinthecountrythanthebeerandciderofthepeasantrywhotoiledoridledthere。
Toseepersonslookingwithchildren"seyesatanyordinaryscenery,isaproofthattheypossessthecharmingfacultyofdrawingnewsensationsfromanoldexperience——ahealthysign,rareinthesefeverishdays——themarkofanimperishablebrightnessofnature。
Bothbrotherandsistercoulddothis;Cythereamorenoticeably。
Theywatchedtheundulatingcorn-lands,monotonoustoalltheircompanions;thestonyandclayeyprospectsucceedingthose,withitsangularandabrupthills。Boggymoorscamenext,nowwitheredanddry——thespotsuponwhichpoolsusuallyspreadtheirwatersshowingthemselvesascirclesofsmoothbaresoil,over-runbyanet-workofinnumerablelittlefissures。Thenaroseplantationsoffirs,abruptlyterminatingbesidemeadowscleanlymown,inwhichhigh-
hipped,rich-colouredcows,withbackshorizontalandstraightastheridgeofahouse,stoodmotionlessorlazilyfed。Glimpsesoftheseanowinterestedthem,whichbecamemoreandmorefrequenttillthetrainfinallydrewupbesidetheplatformatBudmouth。
"Thewholetownislookingoutforus,"hadbeenGraye"simpressionthroughouttheday。HecalleduponMr。Gradfield——theonlymanwhohadbeendirectlyinformedofhiscoming——andfoundthatMr。
Gradfieldhadforgottenit。
However,arrangementsweremadewiththisgentleman——astout,active,grey-beardedburgherofsixty——bywhichOwenwastocommenceworkinhisofficethefollowingweek。
ThesamedayCythereadrewupandsentofftheadvertisementappended:——
"AYOUNGLADYisdesirousofmeetingwithanENGAGEMENTasGOVERNESS
orCOMPANION。SheiscompetenttoteachEnglish,French,andMusic。
Satisfactoryreferences——Address,C。G。,Post-Office,Budmouth。"
Itseemedamorematerialexistencethanherownthatshesawthusdelineatedonthepaper。"Thatcan"tbemyself;howoddIlook!"
shesaid,andsmiled。
2。JULYTHEELEVENTH
OntheMondaysubsequenttotheirarrivalinBudmouth,OwenGrayeattendedatMr。Gradfield"sofficetoenteruponhisduties,andhissisterwasleftintheirlodgingsaloneforthefirsttime。
Despitethesadoccurrencesoftheprecedingautumn,anunwontedcheerfulnesspervadedherspiritthroughouttheday。Changeofscene——andthattountravelledeyes——conjoinedwiththesensationoffreedomfromsupervision,revivedthesparkleofawarmyoungnaturereadyenoughtotakeadvantageofanyadventitiousrestoratives。
Point-blankgrieftendsrathertosealuphappinessforatimethantoproducethatattritionwhichresultsfromgriefsofanticipationthatmoveonwardwiththedays:thesemaybesaidtofurrowawaythecapacityforpleasure。
Herexpectationsfromtheadvertisementbegantobeextravagant。A
thrivingfamily,whohadalwayssadlyneededher,wasalreadydefinitelypicturedinherfancy,which,initsexuberance,ledherontopicturingitsindividualmembers,theirpossiblepeculiarities,virtues,andvices,andobliteratedforatimetherecollectionthatshewouldbeseparatedfromherbrother。
Thusmusing,asshewaitedforhisreturnintheevening,hereyesfellonherlefthand。Thecontemplationofherownleftfourthfingerbysymbol-lovinggirlhoodofthisageis,itseems,veryfrequently,ifnotalways,followedbyapeculiartrainofromanticideas。Cytherea"sthoughts,stillplayingaboutherfuture,becamedirectedintothisromanticgroove。Sheleantbackinherchair,andtakingholdofthefourthfinger,whichhadattractedherattention,shelifteditwiththetipsoftheothers,andlookedatthesmoothandtaperingmemberforalongtime。
Shewhisperedidly,"Iwonderwhoandwhathewillbe?
"Ifhe"sagentlemanoffashion,hewilltakemyfingerso,justwiththetipsofhisown,andwithsomeflutteringoftheheart,andtheleasttremblingofhislip,sliptheringsolightlyonthatI
shallhardlyknowitisthere——lookingdelightfullyintomyeyesallthetime。
"Ifhe"sabold,dashingsoldier,Iexpecthewillproudlyturnround,taketheringasifitequalledherMajesty"scrowninvalue,anddesperatelysetitonmyfingerthus。Hewillfixhiseyesunflinchinglyuponwhatheisdoing——justasifhestoodinbattlebeforetheenemy(though,inreality,veryfondofme,ofcourse),andblushasmuchasIshall。
"Ifhe"sasailor,hewilltakemyfingerandtheringinthisway,anddeckitoutwithahousewifelytouchandatendernessofexpressionabouthismouth,assailorsdo:kissit,perhaps,withasimpleair,asifwewerechildrenplayinganidlegame,andnotattheveryheightofobservationandenvybyagreatcrowdsaying,“Ah!theyarehappynow!”
"Ifheshouldberatherapoorman——noble-mindedandaffectionate,butstillpoor——"
Owen"sfootstepsrapidlyascendingthestairs,interruptedthisfancy-freemeditation。Reproachingherself,evenangrywithherselfforallowinghermindtostrayuponsuchsubjectsinthefaceoftheirpresentdesperatecondition,sherosetomeethim,andmaketea。
Cytherea"sinteresttoknowhowherbrotherhadbeenreceivedatMr。
Gradfield"sbrokeforthintowordsatonce。Almostbeforetheyhadsatdowntotable,shebegancross-examininghimintheregularsisterlyway。
"Well,Owen,howhasitbeenwithyouto-day?Whatistheplacelike——doyouthinkyouwilllikeMrGradfield?"
"Oyes。Buthehasnotbeenthereto-day;Ihaveonlyhadtheheaddraughtsmanwithme。"
Youngwomenhaveahabit,notnoticeableinmen,ofputtingonatamoment"snoticethedramaofwhosoever"slifetheychoose。
Cytherea"sinterestwastransferredfromMr。Gradfieldtohisrepresentative。
"Whatsortofamanishe?"
"Heseemsaverynicefellowindeed;thoughofcourseIcanhardlytelltoacertaintyasyet。ButIthinkhe"saveryworthyfellow;
there"snononsenseinhim,andthoughheisnotapublicschoolmanhehasreadwidely,andhasasharpappreciationofwhat"sgoodinbooksandart。Infact,hisknowledgeisn"tnearlysoexclusiveasmostprofessionalmen"s。"
"That"sagreatdealtosayofanarchitect,forofallprofessionalmentheyare,asarule,themostprofessional。"
"Yes;perhapstheyare。Thismanisratherofamelancholyturnofmind,Ithink。"
"Hasthemanagingclerkanyfamily?"shemildlyasked,afterawhile,pouringoutsomemoretea。
"Family;no!"
"Well,dearOwen,howshouldIknow?"
"Why,ofcourseheisn"tmarried。Buttherehappenedtobeaconversationaboutwomengoingonintheoffice,andIheardhimsaywhatheshouldwishhiswifetobelike。"
"Whatwouldhewishhiswifetobelike?"shesaid,withgreatapparentlackofinterest。
"O,hesaysshemustbegirlishandartless:yethewouldbelothtodowithoutadashofwomanlysubtlety,"tissopiquant。Yes,hesaid,thatmustbeinher;shemusthavewomanlycleverness。“AndyetIshouldlikehertoblushifonlyacock-sparrowweretolookatherhard,“hesaid,“whichbringsmebacktothegirlagain:andsoIflitbackwardsandforwards。Imusthavewhatcomes,I
suppose,“hesaid,“andwhatevershemaybe,thankGodshe"snoworse。However,ifhemightgiveafinalhinttoProvidence,“hesaid,“achildamongpleasures,andawomanamongpainswastheroughoutlineofhisrequirement。“"
"Didhesaythat?Whatamusingcreaturehemustbe。"
"Hedid,indeed。"
3。FROMTHETWELFTHTOTHEFIFTEENTHOFJULY
Asiswellknown,ideasaresoelasticinahumanbrain,thattheyhavenoconstantmeasurewhichmaybecalledtheiractualbulk。Anyimportantideamaybecompressedtoamoleculebyanunwontedcrowdingofothers;andanysmallideawillexpandtowhateverlengthandbreadthofvacuumthemindmaybeabletomakeovertoit。Cytherea"sworldwastolerablyvacantatthistime,andtheyoungarchitecturaldesigner"simagebecameverypervasive。Thenexteveningthissubjectwasagainrenewed。
"HisnameisSpringrove,"saidOwen,inreplytoher。"Heisathoroughartist,butamanofratherhumbleorigin,itseems,whohasmadehimselfsofar。Ithinkheisthesonofafarmer,orsomethingofthekind。"
"Well,he"snonetheworseforthat,Isuppose。"
"Nonetheworse。Aswecomedownthehill,weshallbecontinuallymeetingpeoplegoingup。"ButOwenhadfeltthatSpringrovewasalittletheworsenevertheless。
"Ofcoursehe"sratheroldbythistime。"
"Ono。He"saboutsix-and-twenty——notmore。"
"Ah,Isee……Whatishelike,Owen?"
"Ican"texactlytellyouhisappearance:"tisalwayssuchadifficultthingtodo。"
"Amanyouwoulddescribeasshort?Mostmenarethoseweshoulddescribeasshort,Ifancy。"
"Ishouldcallhim,Ithink,ofthemiddleheight;butasIonlyseehimsittingintheoffice,ofcourseIamnotcertainabouthisformandfigure。"
"Iwishyouwere,then。"
"Perhapsyoudo。ButIamnot,yousee。"
"Ofcoursenot,youarealwayssoprovoking。Owen,Isawamaninthestreetto-daywhomIfanciedwashe——andyet,Idon"tseehowitcouldbe,either。Hehadlightbrownhair,asnubnose,veryroundface,andapeculiarhabitofreducinghiseyestostraightlineswhenhelookednarrowlyatanything。"
"Ono。Thatwasnothe,Cytherea。"
"Notabitlikehiminallprobability。"
"Notabit。Hehasdarkhair——almostaGreciannose,regularteeth,andanintellectualface,asnearlyasIcanrecalltomind。"
"Ah,therenow,Owen,youHAVEdescribedhim!ButIsupposehe"snotgenerallycalledpleasing,or——"
"Handsome?"
"Iscarcelymeantthat。Butsinceyouhavesaidit,ishehandsome?"
"Rather。"
"Histoutensembleisstriking?"
"Yes——Ono,no——Iforgot:itisnot。Heisratheruntidyinhiswaistcoat,andneck-ties,andhair。"
"Howvexing!……itmustbetohimself,poorthing。"
"He"sathoroughbookworm——despisesthepap-and-daisyschoolofverse——knowsShakespearetotheverydregsofthefoot-notes。
Indeed,he"sapoethimselfinasmallway。"
"Howdelicious!"shesaid。"Ihaveneverknownapoet。"
"Andyoudon"tknowhim,"saidOwendryly。
Shereddened。"OfcourseIdon"t。Iknowthat。"
"Haveyoureceivedanyanswertoyouradvertisement?"heinquired。
"Ah——no!"shesaid,andtheforgottendisappointmentwhichhadshoweditselfinherfaceatdifferenttimesduringtheday,becamevisibleagain。
Anotherdaypassedaway。OnThursday,withoutinquiry,shelearntmoreoftheheaddraughtsman。HeandGrayehadbecomeveryfriendly,andhehadbeentemptedtoshowherbrotheracopyofsomepoemsofhis——someseriousandsad——somehumorous——whichhadappearedinthepoets"cornerofamagazinefromtimetotime。OwenshowedthemnowtoCytherea,whoinstantlybegantoreadthemcarefullyandtothinkthemverybeautiful。
"Yes——Springrove"snofool,"saidOwensententiously。
"Nofool!——Ishouldthinkheisn"t,indeed,"saidCytherea,lookingupfromthepaperinquiteanexcitement:"towritesuchversesasthese!"
"Whatlogicareyouchopping,Cytherea?Well,Idon"tmeanonaccountoftheverses,becauseIhaven"treadthem;butforwhathesaidwhenthefellowsweretalkingaboutfallinginlove。"
"Whichyouwilltellme?"
"Hesaysthatyourtrueloverbreathlesslyfindshimselfengagedtoasweetheart,likeamanwhohascaughtsomethinginthedark。Hedoesn"tknowwhetheritisabatorabird,andtakesittothelightwhenheiscooltolearnwhatitis。Helookstoseeifsheistherightage,butrightageorwrongage,hemustconsiderheraprize。Sometimelaterheponderswhethersheistherightkindofprizeforhim。Rightkindorwrongkind——hehascalledherhis,andmustabidebyit。Afteratimeheaskshimself,“Hasshethetemper,hair,andeyesImeanttohave,andwasfirmlyresolvednottodowithout?”Hefindsitisallwrong,andthencomesthetussle——"
"Dotheymarryandlivehappily?"
"Who?O,thesupposedpair。Ithinkhesaid——well,Ireallyforgetwhathesaid。"
"ThatISstupidofyou!"saidtheyoungladywithdismay。
"Yes。"
"Buthe"sasatirist——Idon"tthinkIcareabouthimnow。"
"Thereyouarejustwrong。Heisnot。Heis,asIbelieve,animpulsivefellowwhohasbeenmadetopaythepenaltyofhisrashnessinsomeloveaffair。"
ThusendedthedialogueofThursday,butCythereareadtheversesagaininprivate。OnFridayherbrotherremarkedthatSpringrovehadinformedhimhewasgoingtoleaveMr。Gradfield"sinafortnighttopushhisfortunesinLondon。
AnindescribablefeelingofsadnessshotthroughCytherea"sheart。
Whyshouldshebesadatsuchanannouncementasthat,shethought,concerningamanshehadneverseen,whenherspiritswereelasticenoughtoreboundafterhardblowsfromdeepandrealtroublesasifshehadscarcelyknownthem?Thoughshecouldnotanswerthisquestion,sheknewonething,shewassaddenedbyOwen"snews。
4。JULYTHETWENTY-FIRST
AverypopularlocalexcursionbysteamboattoLulsteadCovewasannouncedthroughthestreetsofBudmouthoneThursdaymorningbytheweak-voicedtown-crier,tostartatsixo"clockthesameday。
Theweatherwaslovely,andtheopportunitybeingthefirstofthekindofferedtothem,OwenandCythereawentwiththerest。
TheyhadreachedtheCove,andhadwalkedlandwardfornearlyanhouroverthehillwhichrosebesidethestrand,whenGrayerecollectedthattwoorthreemilesyetfurtherinlandfromthisspotwasaninterestingmediaevalruin。Hewasalreadyfamiliarwithitscharacteristicsthroughthemediumofanarchaeologicalwork,andnowfindinghimselfsoclosetothereality,feltinclinedtoverifysometheoryhehadformedrespectingit。Concludingthattherewouldbejustsufficienttimeforhimtogothereandreturnbeforetheboathadlefttheshore,hepartedfromCythereaonthehill,struckdownwards,andthenupaheatheryvalley。
Sheremainedonthesummitwherehehadlefthertillthetimeofhisexpectedreturn,scanningthedetailsoftheprospectaround。
PlacidlyspreadoutbeforeheronthesouthwastheopenChannel,reflectingablueintenserbymanyshadesthanthatoftheskyoverhead,anddottedintheforegroundbyhalf-a-dozensmallcraftofcontrastingrig,theirsailsgraduatinginhuefromextremewhitenesstoreddishbrown,thevaryingactualcoloursvariedagaininadoubledegreebytheraysofthedecliningsun。
Presentlythedistantbellfromtheboatwasheard,warningthepassengerstoembark。Thiswasfollowedbyalivelyairfromtheharpsandviolinsonboard,theirtones,astheyarose,becomingintermingledwith,thoughnotmarredby,thebrushofthewaveswhentheircrestsrolledover——atthepointwherethecheckoftheshallowswasfirstfelt——andthenthinnedawayuptheslopeofpebblesandsand。
Sheturnedherfacelandwardandstrainedhereyestodiscern,ifpossible,somesignofOwen"sreturn。Nothingwasvisiblesavethestrikinglybrilliant,stilllandscape。Thewideconcavewhichlayatthebackofthehillinthisdirectionwasblazingwiththewesternlight,addinganorangetinttothevividpurpleoftheheather,nowattheveryclimaxofbloom,andfreefromtheslightesttouchoftheinvidiousbrownthatsosooncreepsintoitsshades。Thelightsointensifiedthecoloursthattheyseemedtostandabovethesurfaceoftheearthandfloatinmid-airlikeanexhalationofred。Intheminorvalleys,betweenthehillocksandridgeswhichdiversifiedthecontourofthebasin,butdidnotdisturbitsgeneralsweep,shemarkedbrakesoftall,heavy-stemmedferns,fiveorsixfeethigh,inabrilliantlight-greendress——abroadribandofthemwiththepathintheirmidstwindinglikeastreamalongthelittleravinethatreachedtothefootofthehill,anddeliveredupthepathtoitsgrassyarea。Amongthefernsgrewhollybushesdeeperintintthananyshadowaboutthem,whilstthewholesurfaceofthescenewasdimpledwithsmallconicalpits,andhereandtherewereroundponds,nowdry,andhalfovergrownwithrushes。
Thelastbellofthesteamerrang。Cythereahadforgottenherself,andwhatshewaslookingfor。InafeverofdistresslestOwenshouldbeleftbehind,shegatheredupinherhandthecornersofherhandkerchief,containingspecimensoftheshells,plants,andfossilswhichthelocalityproduced,startedofftothesands,andmingledwiththeknotsofvisitorstherecongregatedfromotherinterestingpointsaround;fromtheinn,thecottages,andhiredconveyancesthathadreturnedfromshortdrivesinland。Theyallwentaboardbytheprimitiveplanofanarrowplankontwowheels——
thewomenbeingassistedbyarope。Cytherealingeredtilltheverylast,reluctanttofollow,andlookingalternatelyattheboatandthevalleybehind。HerdelayprovokedaremarkfromCaptainJacobs,athicksetmanofhybridstains,resultingfromthemixedeffectsoffireandwater,peculiartosailorswhereenginesarethepropellingpower。
"Nowthen,missy,ifyouplease。Iamsorrytotell"eeourtime"sup。Whoareyoulookingfor,miss?"
"Mybrother——hehaswalkedashortdistanceinland;hemustbeheredirectly。Couldyouwaitforhim——justaminute?"
"Really,Iamafraidnot,m"m。"Cytherealookedatthestout,round-facedman,andatthevessel,withalightinhereyessoexpressiveofherownopinionbeingthesame,onreflection,ashis,andwithsuchresignation,too,that,fromaninstinctivefeelingofprideatbeingabletoprovehimselfmorehumanethanhewasthoughttobe——worksofsupererogationaretheonlysacrificesthatenticeinthisway——andthatataverysmallcost,hedelayedtheboattillsomeamongthepassengersbegantomurmur。
"There,nevermind,"saidCythereadecisively。"Goonwithoutme——I
shallwaitforhim。"
"Well,"tisaveryawkwardthingtoleaveyouhereallalone,"saidthecaptain。"Icertainlyadviseyounottowait。"
"He"sgoneacrosstotherailwaystation,forcertain,"saidanotherpassenger。
"No——hereheis!"Cythereasaid,regarding,asshespoke,thehalfhiddenfigureofamanwhowasseenadvancingataheadlongpacedowntheravinewhichlaybetweentheheathandtheshore。
"Hecan"tgethereinlessthanfiveminutes,"apassengersaid。
"Peopleshouldknowwhattheyareabout,andkeeptime。Really,if——
"
"Yousee,sir,"saidthecaptain,inanapologeticundertone,"since"tisherbrother,andshe"sallalone,"tisonlynatertowaitaminute,nowhe"sinsight。Suppose,now,youwereayoungwoman,asmightbe,andhadabrother,likethisone,andyoustoodofaneveninguponthisherewildlonelyshore,likeher,whyyou"dwantustowait,too,wouldn"tyou,sir?Ithinkyouwould。"
Thepersonsohastilyapproachinghadbeenlosttoviewduringthisremarkbyreasonofahollowintheground,andtheprojectingcliffimmediatelyathandcoveredthepathinitsrise。Hisfootstepswerenowheardstrikingsharplyupontheflintyroadatadistanceofabouttwentyorthirtyyards,butstillbehindtheescarpment。
Tosavetime,Cythereapreparedtoascendtheplank。
"Letmegiveyoumyhand,miss,"saidCaptainJacobs。
"No——pleasedon"ttouchme,"saidshe,ascendingcautiouslybyslidingonefootforwardtwoorthreeinches,bringinguptheotherbehindit,andsoonalternately——herlipscompressedbyconcentrationonthefeat,hereyesgluedtotheplank,herhandtotherope,andherimmediatethoughttothefactofthedistressingnarrownessofherfooting。Stepsnowshookthelowerendoftheboard,andinaninstantwereuptoherheelswithabound。
"O,Owen,Iamsogladyouarecome!"shesaidwithoutturning。
"Don"t,don"tshaketheplankortouchme,whateveryoudo……
There,Iamup。Wherehaveyoubeensolong?"shecontinued,inalowertone,turningroundtohimasshereachedthetop。
Raisinghereyesfromherfeet,which,standingonthefirmdeck,demandedherattentionnolonger,sheacquiredperceptionsofthenew-comerinthefollowingorder:unknowntrousers;unknownwaistcoat;unknownface。Themanwasnotherbrother,butatotalstranger。
Offwenttheplank;thepaddlesstarted,stopped,backed,patteredinconfusion,thenrevolveddecisively,andtheboatpassedoutintodeepwater。
Oneortwopersonshadsaid,"Howd"yedo,Mr。Springrove?"andlookedatCytherea,toseehowsheboreherdisappointment。Herearshadbutjustcaughtthenameoftheheaddraughtsman,whenshesawhimadvancingdirectlytoaddressher。
"MissGraye,Ibelieve?"hesaid,liftinghishat。
"Yes,"saidCytherea,colouring,andtryingnottolookguiltyofasurreptitiousknowledgeofhim。
"IamMr。Springrove。IpassedCorvsgateCastleaboutanhourago,andsoonafterwardsmetyourbrothergoingthatway。Hehadbeendeceivedinthedistance,andwasabouttoturnwithoutseeingtheruin,onaccountofalamenessthathadcomeoninhislegorfoot。
Iproposedthatheshouldgoon,sincehehadgotsonear;andafterwards,insteadofwalkingbacktotheboat,getacrosstoAngleburyStation——ashorterwalkforhim——wherehecouldcatchthelatetrain,andgodirectlyhome。Icouldletyouknowwhathehaddone,andallayanyuneasiness。"
"Isthelamenessserious,doyouknow?"
"Ono;simplyfromover-walkinghimself。Still,itwasjustaswelltoridehome。"
RelievedfromherapprehensionsonOwen"sscore,shewasableslightlytoexaminetheappearanceofherinformant——EdwardSpringrove——whonowremovedhishatforawhile,tocoolhimself。
Hewasratheraboveherbrother"sheight。Althoughtheupperpartofhisfaceandheadwashandsomelyformed,andboundedbylinesofsufficientlymasculineregularity,hisbrowsweresomewhattoosoftlyarched,andfinelypencilledforoneofhissex;withoutprejudice,however,tothebeliefwhichthesumtotalofhisfeaturesinspired——thatthoughtheydidnotprovethatthemanwhothoughtinsidethemwoulddomuchintheworld,menwhohaddonemostofallhadhadnobetterones。Acrosshisforehead,otherwiseperfectlysmooth,ranonethinline,thehealthyfreshnessofhisremainingfeaturesexpressingthatithadcomethereprematurely。
Thoughsomeyearsshortoftheageatwhichtheclearspiritbidsgood-byetothelastinfirmityofnoblemind,andtakestohouse-
huntingandinvestments,hehadreachedtheperiodinayoungman"slifewhenepisodicperiods,withahopefulbirthandadisappointingdeath,havebeguntoaccumulate,andtobearafruitofgeneralities;hisglancesometimesseemingtostate,"Ihavealreadythoughtouttheissueofsuchconditionsastheseweareexperiencing。"Atothertimesheworeanabstractedlook:"Iseemtohavelivedthroughthismomentbefore。"
Hewascarelesslydressedindarkgrey,wearingarolled-upblackkerchiefasaneck-cloth;theknotofwhichwasdisarranged,andstoodobliquely——adepositofwhitedusthavinglodgedinthecreases。
"Iamsorryforyourdisappointment,"hecontinued,glancingintoherface。Theireyeshavingmet,became,asitwere,mutuallylockedtogether,andthesingleinstantonlywhichgoodbreedingallowsasthelengthofsuchalook,becametrebled:aclearpenetratingrayofintelligencehadshotfromeachintoeach,givingbirthtooneofthoseunaccountablesensationswhichcarryhometotheheartbeforethehandhasbeentouchedorthemerestcomplimentpassed,bysomethingstrongerthanmathematicalproof,theconviction,"Atiehasbeguntouniteus。"
Bothfacesalsounconsciouslystatedthattheirownershadbeenmuchineachother"sthoughtsoflate。OwenhadtalkedtotheyoungarchitectofhissisterasfreelyastoCythereaoftheyoungarchitect。
Aconversationbegan,whichwasnonethelessinterestingtothepartiesengagedbecauseitconsistedonlyofthemosttrivialandcommonplaceremarks。Thenthebandofharpsandviolinsstruckupalivelymelody,andthedeckwasclearedfordancing;thesundippingbeneaththehorizonduringtheproceeding,andthemoonshowingherselfattheirstern。Theseawassocalm,thatthesofthissproducedbytheburstingoftheinnumerablebubblesoffoambehindthepaddlescouldbedistinctlyheard。Thepassengerswhodidnotdance,includingCythereaandSpringrove,lapsedintosilence,leaningagainstthepaddle-boxes,orstandingaloof——noticingthetremblingofthedecktothestepsofthedance——watchingthewavesfromthepaddlesastheyslidthinlyandeasilyundereachother"sedges。
NighthadquiteclosedinbythetimetheyreachedBudmouthharbour,sparklingwithitswhite,red,andgreenlightsinoppositiontotheshimmeringpathofthemoon"sreflectionontheotherside,whichreachedawaytothehorizontillthefleckedripplesreducedthemselvestosparklesasfineasgolddust。
"Iwillwalktothestationandfindouttheexacttimethetrainarrives,"saidSpringrove,rathereagerly,whentheyhadlanded。
Shethankedhimmuch。
"Perhapswemightwalktogether,"hesuggestedhesitatingly。Shelookedasifshedidnotquiteknow,andhesettledthequestionbyshowingtheway。
Theyfound,onarrivingthere,thatonthefirstdayofthatmonththeparticulartrainselectedforGraye"sreturnhadceasedtostopatAngleburystation。
"IamverysorryImisledhim,"saidSpringrove。
"O,Iamnotalarmedatall,"repliedCytherea。
"Well,it"ssuretobeallright——hewillsleepthere,andcomebythefirstinthemorning。Butwhatwillyoudo,alone?"
"Iamquiteeasyonthatpoint;thelandladyisveryfriendly。I
mustgoindoorsnow。Good-night,Mr。Springrove。"
"Letmegoroundtoyourdoorwithyou?"hepleaded。
"No,thankyou;welivecloseby。"
Helookedatherasawaiterlooksatthechangehebringsback。
Butshewasinexorable。
"Don"t——forgetme,"hemurmured。Shedidnotanswer。
"Letmeseeyousometimes,"hesaid。
"Perhapsyouneverwillagain——Iamgoingaway,"sherepliedinlingeringtones;andturningintoCrossStreet,ranindoorsandupstairs。
Thesuddenwithdrawalofwhatwassuperfluousatfirst,isoftenfeltasanessentialloss。Itwasfeltnowwithregardtothemaiden。More,too,afterameetingsopleasantandsoenkindling,shehadseemedtoimplythattheywouldnevercometogetheragain。
Theyoungmansoftlyfollowedher,stoodoppositethehouseandwatchedhercomeintotheupperroomwiththelight。Presentlyhisgazewascutshortbyherapproachingthewindowandpullingdowntheblind——EdwarddwellinguponhervanishingfigurewithahopelesssenseoflossakintothatwhichAdamissaidbylogicianstohavefeltwhenhefirstsawthesunset,andthought,inhisinexperience,thatitwouldreturnnomore。
Hewaitedtillhershadowhadtwicecrossedthewindow,when,findingthecharmingoutlinewasnottobeexpectedagain,heleftthestreet,crossedtheharbour-bridge,andenteredhisownsolitarychamberontheotherside,vaguelythinkingashewent(forundefinedreasons),"OnehopeistoolikedespairForprudencetosmother。"