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My Bondage and My Freedom
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第3章

Slavesaregenerallyexpectedtosingaswellastowork。A

silentslaveisnotlikedbymastersoroverseers。_“Makeanoise,““makeanoise,“_and_“bearahand,“_arethewordsusuallyaddressedtotheslaveswhenthereissilenceamongstthem。Thismayaccountforthealmostconstantsinging<76>heardinthesouthernstates。Therewas,generally,moreorlesssingingamongtheteamsters,asitwasonemeansoflettingtheoverseerknowwheretheywere,andthattheyweremovingonwiththework。But,onallowanceday,thosewhovisitedthegreathousefarmwerepeculiarlyexcitedandnoisy。Whileontheirway,theywouldmakethedenseoldwoods,formilesaround,reverberatewiththeirwildnotes。Thesewerenotalwaysmerrybecausetheywerewild。Onthecontrary,theyweremostlyofaplaintivecast,andtoldataleofgriefandsorrow。Inthemostboisterousoutburstsofrapturoussentiment,therewaseveratingeofdeepmelancholy。IhaveneverheardanysongslikethoseanywheresinceIleftslavery,exceptwheninIreland。

ThereIheardthesame_wailingnotes_,andwasmuchaffectedbythem。Itwasduringthefamineof1845-6。Inallthesongsoftheslaves,therewaseversomeexpressioninpraiseofthegreathousefarm;somethingwhichwouldflattertheprideoftheowner,and,possibly,drawafavorableglancefromhim。

_Iamgoingawaytothegreathousefarm,Oyea!Oyea!Oyea!

Myoldmasterisagoodoldmaster,Oyea!Oyea!Oyea!_

Thistheywouldsing,withotherwordsoftheirownimprovising——

jargontoothers,butfullofmeaningtothemselves。Ihavesometimesthought,thatthemerehearingofthosesongswoulddomoretoimpresstrulyspiritual-mindedmenandwomenwiththesoul-crushinganddeath-dealingcharacterofslavery,thanthereadingofwholevolumesofitsmerephysicalcruelties。Theyspeaktotheheartandtothesoulofthethoughtful。Icannotbetterexpressmysenseofthemnow,thantenyearsago,when,insketchingmylife,Ithusspokeofthisfeatureofmyplantationexperience:

Ididnot,whenaslave,understandthedeepmeaningsofthoserude,andapparentlyincoherentsongs。Iwasmyselfwithinthecircle,sothatIneithersaworheardasthosewithoutmightseeandhear。Theytoldatalewhichwas<77SINGINGOFSLAVES——AN

EXPLANATION>thenaltogetherbeyondmyfeeblecomprehension;theyweretones,loud,longanddeep,breathingtheprayerandcomplaintofsoulsboilingoverwiththebitterestanguish。

Everytonewasatestimonyagainstslavery,andaprayertoGodfordeliverancefromchains。Thehearingofthosewildnotesalwaysdepressedmyspirits,andfilledmyheartwithineffablesadness。Themererecurrence,evennow,afflictsmyspirit,andwhileIamwritingtheselines,mytearsarefalling。TothosesongsItracemyfirstglimmeringconceptionsofthedehumanizingcharacterofslavery。Icannevergetridofthatconception。

Thosesongsstillfollowme,todeepenmyhatredofslavery,andquickenmysympathiesformybrethreninbonds。Ifanyonewishestobeimpressedwithasenseofthesoul-killingpowerofslavery,lethimgotoCol。Lloyd"splantation,and,onallowanceday,placehimselfinthedeep,pinewoods,andtherelethim,insilence,thoughtfullyanalyzethesoundsthatshallpassthroughthechambersofhissoul,andifheisnotthusimpressed,itwillonlybebecause“thereisnofleshinhisobdurateheart。“

Theremarkisnotunfrequentlymade,thatslavesarethemostcontendedandhappylaborersintheworld。Theydanceandsing,andmakeallmannerofjoyfulnoises——sotheydo;butitisagreatmistaketosupposethemhappybecausetheysing。Thesongsoftheslaverepresentthesorrows,ratherthanthejoys,ofhisheart;andheisrelievedbythem,onlyasanachingheartisrelievedbyitstears。Suchistheconstitutionofthehumanmind,that,whenpressedtoextremes,itoftenavailsitselfofthemostoppositemethods。Extremesmeetinmindasinmatter。

Whentheslavesonboardofthe“Pearl“wereovertaken,arrested,andcarriedtoprison——theirhopesforfreedomblasted——astheymarchedinchainstheysang,andfound(asEmilyEdmunsontellsus)amelancholyreliefinsinging。Thesingingofamancastawayonadesolateisland,mightbeasappropriatelyconsideredanevidenceofhiscontentmentandhappiness,asthesingingofaslave。Sorrowanddesolationhavetheirsongs,aswellasjoyandpeace。Slavessingmoreto_make_themselveshappy,thantoexpresstheirhappiness。

Itistheboastofslaveholders,thattheirslavesenjoymoreofthephysicalcomfortsoflifethanthepeasantryofanycountryintheworld。Myexperiencecontradictsthis。ThemenandthewomenslavesonCol。Lloyd"sfarm,received,astheirmonthly<78>allowanceoffood,eightpoundsofpickledpork,ortheirequivalentinfish。Theporkwasoftentainted,andthefishwasofthepoorestquality——herrings,whichwouldbringverylittleifofferedforsaleinanynorthernmarket。Withtheirporkorfish,theyhadonebushelofIndianmeal——unbolted——ofwhichquitefifteenpercentwasfitonlytofeedpigs。Withthis,onepintofsaltwasgiven;andthiswastheentiremonthlyallowanceofafullgrownslave,workingconstantlyintheopenfield,frommorninguntilnight,everydayinthemonthexceptSunday,andlivingonafractionmorethanaquarterofapoundofmeatperday,andlessthanapeckofcorn-mealperweek。Thereisnokindofworkthatamancandowhichrequiresabettersupplyoffoodtopreventphysicalexhaustion,thanthefield-workofaslave。Somuchfortheslave"sallowanceoffood;nowforhisraiment。Theyearlyallowanceofclothingfortheslavesonthisplantation,consistedoftwotow-linenshirts——suchlinenasthecoarsestcrashtowelsaremadeof;onepairoftrowsersofthesamematerial,forsummer,andapairoftrowsersandajacketofwoolen,mostslazilyputtogether,forwinter;onepairofyarnstockings,andonepairofshoesofthecoarsestdescription。

Theslave"sentireapparelcouldnothavecostmorethaneightdollarsperyear。Theallowanceoffoodandclothingforthelittlechildren,wascommittedtotheirmothers,ortotheolderslavewomenhavingthecareofthem。Childrenwhowereunabletoworkinthefield,hadneithershoes,stockings,jacketsnortrowsersgiventhem。Theirclothingconsistedoftwocoarsetow-

linenshirts——alreadydescribed——peryear;andwhenthesefailedthem,astheyoftendid,theywentnakeduntilthenextallowanceday。Flocksoflittlechildrenfromfivetotenyearsold,mightbeseenonCol。Lloyd"splantation,asdestituteofclothingasanylittleheathenonthewestcoastofAfrica;andthis,notmerelyduringthesummermonths,butduringthefrostyweatherofMarch。Thelittlegirlswerenobetteroffthantheboys;allwerenearlyinastateofnudity。

<79THESLAVES"FOODANDCLOTHING>

Astobedstosleepon,theywereknowntononeofthefieldhands;nothingbutacoarseblanket——notsogoodasthoseusedinthenorthtocoverhorses——wasgiventhem,andthisonlytothemenandwomen。Thechildrenstuckthemselvesinholesandcorners,aboutthequarters;ofteninthecornerofthehugechimneys,withtheirfeetintheashestokeepthemwarm。Thewantofbeds,however,wasnotconsideredaverygreatprivation。

Timetosleepwasoffargreaterimportance,for,whentheday"sworkisdone,mostoftheslaveshavetheirwashing,mendingandcookingtodo;and,havingfewornoneoftheordinaryfacilitiesfordoingsuchthings,verymanyoftheirsleepinghoursareconsumedinnecessarypreparationsforthedutiesofthecomingday。

Thesleepingapartments——iftheymaybecalledsuch——havelittleregardtocomfortordecency。Oldandyoung,maleandfemale,marriedandsingle,dropdownuponthecommonclayfloor,eachcoveringupwithhisorherblanket,——theonlyprotectiontheyhavefromcoldorexposure。Thenight,however,isshortenedatbothends。Theslavesworkoftenaslongastheycansee,andarelateincookingandmendingforthecomingday;and,atthefirstgraystreakofmorning,theyaresummonedtothefieldbythedriver"shorn。

Moreslavesarewhippedforoversleepingthanforanyotherfault。Neitheragenorsexfindsanyfavor。Theoverseerstandsatthequarterdoor,armedwithstickandcowskin,readytowhipanywhomaybeafewminutesbehindtime。Whenthehornisblown,thereisarushforthedoor,andthehindermostoneissuretogetablowfromtheoverseer。Youngmotherswhoworkedinthefield,wereallowedanhour,aboutteno"clockinthemorning,togohometonursetheirchildren。Sometimestheywerecompelledtotaketheirchildrenwiththem,andtoleavetheminthecornerofthefences,topreventlossoftimeinnursingthem。Theoverseergenerallyridesaboutthefieldonhorseback。

Acowskinandahickorystickarehisconstantcompanions。The<80>cowskinisakindofwhipseldomseeninthenorthernstates。

Itismadeentirelyofuntanned,butdried,oxhide,andisaboutashardasapieceofwell-seasonedliveoak。Itismadeofvarioussizes,buttheusuallengthisaboutthreefeet。Thepartheldinthehandisnearlyaninchinthickness;and,fromtheextremeendofthebuttorhandle,thecowskintapersitswholelengthtoapoint。Thismakesitquiteelasticandspringy。Ablowwithit,onthehardestback,willgashtheflesh,andmakethebloodstart。Cowskinsarepaintedred,blueandgreen,andarethefavoriteslavewhip。Ithinkthiswhipworsethanthe“cat-o"nine-tails。“Itcondensesthewholestrengthofthearmtoasinglepoint,andcomeswithaspringthatmakestheairwhistle。Itisaterribleinstrument,andissohandy,thattheoverseercanalwayshaveitonhisperson,andreadyforuse。Thetemptationtouseitiseverstrong;andanoverseercan,ifdisposed,alwayshavecauseforusingit。Withhim,itisliterallyawordandablow,and,inmostcases,theblowcomesfirst。

Asageneralrule,slavesdonotcometothequartersforeitherbreakfastordinner,buttaketheir“ashcake“withthem,andeatitinthefield。Thiswassoonthehomeplantation;probably,becausethedistancefromthequartertothefield,wassometimestwo,andeventhreemiles。

Thedinneroftheslavesconsistedofahugepieceofashcake,andasmallpieceofpork,ortwosaltherrings。Nothavingovens,noranysuitablecookingutensils,theslavesmixedtheirmealwithalittlewater,tosuchthicknessthataspoonwouldstanderectinit;and,afterthewoodhadburnedawaytocoalsandashes,theywouldplacethedoughbetweenoakleavesandlayitcarefullyintheashes,completelycoveringit;hence,thebreadiscalledashcake。Thesurfaceofthispeculiarbreadiscoveredwithashes,tothedepthofasixteenthpartofaninch,andtheashes,certainly,donotmakeitverygratefultotheteeth,norrenderitverypalatable。Thebran,orcoarsepartofthemeal,isbakedwiththefine,andbrightscalesrunthroughthebread。<81THECONTRAST>Thisbread,withitsashesandbran,woulddisgustandchokeanorthernman,butitisquitelikedbytheslaves。Theyeatitwithavidity,andaremoreconcernedaboutthequantitythanaboutthequality。Theyarefartooscantilyprovidedfor,andareworkedtoosteadily,tobemuchconcernedforthequalityoftheirfood。Thefewminutesallowedthematdinnertime,afterpartakingoftheircoarserepast,arevariouslyspent。Someliedownonthe“turningrow,“andgotosleep;othersdrawtogether,andtalk;andothersareatworkwithneedleandthread,mendingtheirtatteredgarments。

Sometimesyoumayhearawild,hoarselaugharisefromacircle,andoftenasong。Soon,however,theoverseercomesdashingthroughthefield。_“Tumbleup!Tumbleup_,andto_work,work,“_isthecry;and,now,fromtwelveo"clock(mid-day)tilldark,thehumancattleareinmotion,wieldingtheirclumsyhoes;

hurriedonbynohopeofreward,nosenseofgratitude,noloveofchildren,noprospectofbetteringtheircondition;nothing,savethedreadandterroroftheslave-driver"slash。Sogoesoneday,andsocomesandgoesanother。

But,letusnowleavetheroughusageofthefield,wherevulgarcoarsenessandbrutalcrueltyspreadthemselvesandflourish,rankasweedsinthetropics;whereavilewretch,intheshapeofaman,rides,walks,orstrutsabout,dealingblows,andleavinggashesonbroken-spiritedmenandhelplesswomen,forthirtydollarspermonth——abusinesssohorrible,hardeninganddisgraceful,that,rather,thanengageinit,adecentmanwouldblowhisownbrainsout——andletthereaderviewwithmetheequallywicked,butlessrepulsiveaspectsofslavelife;whereprideandpomprollluxuriouslyatease;wherethetoilofathousandmensupportsasinglefamilyineasyidlenessandsin。

Thisisthegreathouse;itisthehomeoftheLLOYDS!Someideaofitssplendorhasalreadybeengiven——and,itisherethatweshallfindthatheightofluxurywhichistheoppositeofthatdepthofpovertyandphysicalwretchednessthatwehavejustnowbeencontemplating。But,thereisthisdifferenceinthetwoextremes;<82>viz:thatinthecaseoftheslave,themiseriesandhardshipsofhislotareimposedbyothers,and,inthemaster"scase,theyareimposedbyhimself。Theslaveisasubject,subjectedbyothers;theslaveholderisasubject,butheistheauthorofhisownsubjection。Thereismoretruthinthesaying,thatslaveryisagreatereviltothemasterthantotheslave,thanmany,whoutterit,suppose。Theself-executinglawsofeternaljusticefollowcloseontheheelsoftheevil-

doerhere,aswellaselsewhere;makingescapefromallitspenaltiesimpossible。But,letothersphilosophize;itismyprovinceheretorelateanddescribe;onlyallowingmyselfawordortwo,occasionally,toassistthereaderintheproperunderstandingofthefactsnarrated。

CHAPTERVII

LifeintheGreatHouseCOMFORTSANDLUXURIES——ELABORATEEXPENDITURE——HOUSESERVANTS——MEN

SERVANTSANDMAIDSERVANTS——APPEARANCES——SLAVEARISTOCRACY——

STABLEANDCARRIAGEHOUSE——BOUNDLESSHOSPITALITY——FRAGRANCEOF

RICHDISHES——THEDECEPTIVECHARACTEROFSLAVERY——SLAVESSEEM

HAPPY——SLAVESANDSLAVEHOLDERSALIKEWRETCHED——FRETFULDISCONTENT

OFSLAVEHOLDERS——FAULT-FINDING——OLDBARNEY——HISPROFESSION——

WHIPPING——HUMILIATINGSPECTACLE——CASEEXCEPTIONAL——WILLIAM

WILKS——SUPPOSEDSONOFCOL。LLOYD——CURIOUSINCIDENT——SLAVES

PREFERRICHMASTERSTOPOORONES。

Theclose-fistedstinginessthatfedthepoorslaveoncoarsecorn-mealandtaintedmeat;thatclothedhimincrashytow-linen,andhurriedhimtotoilthroughthefield,inallweathers,withwindandrainbeatingthroughhistatteredgarments;thatscarcelygaveeventheyoungslave-mothertimetonurseherhungryinfantinthefencecorner;whollyvanishesonapproachingthesacredprecinctsofthegreathouse,thehomeoftheLloyds。

Therethescripturalphrasefindsanexactillustration;thehighlyfavoredinmatesofthismansionareliterallyarrayed“inpurpleandfinelinen,“andfaresumptuouslyeveryday!Thetablegroansundertheheavyandblood-boughtluxuriesgatheredwithpainstakingcare,athomeandabroad。Fields,forests,riversandseas,aremadetributaryhere。Immensewealth,anditslavishexpenditure,fillthegreathousewithallthatcanpleasetheeye,ortemptthetaste。Here,appetite,notfood,isthegreat_desideratum_。Fish,fleshandfowl,arehereinprofusion。Chickens,of<84>allbreeds;ducks,ofallkinds,wildandtame,thecommon,andthehugeMuscovite;Guineafowls,turkeys,geese,andpeafowls,areintheirseveralpens,fatandfattingforthedestinedvortex。Thegracefulswan,themongrels,theblack-neckedwildgoose;partridges,quails,pheasantsandpigeons;choicewaterfowl,withalltheirstrangevarieties,arecaughtinthishugefamilynet。Beef,veal,muttonandvenison,ofthemostselectkindsandquality,rollbounteouslytothisgrandconsumer。TheteemingrichesoftheChesapeakebay,itsrock,perch,drums,crocus,trout,oysters,crabs,andterrapin,aredrawnhithertoadorntheglitteringtableofthegreathouse。Thedairy,too,probablythefinestontheEasternShoreofMaryland——suppliedbycattleofthebestEnglishstock,importedforthepurpose,poursitsrichdonationsoffragantcheese,goldenbutter,anddeliciouscream,toheightentheattractionofthegorgeous,unendingroundoffeasting。Norarethefruitsoftheearthforgottenorneglected。Thefertilegarden,manyacresinsize,constitutingaseparateestablishment,distinctfromthecommonfarm——withitsscientificgardener,importedfromScotland(aMr。McDermott)

withfourmenunderhisdirection,wasnotbehind,eitherintheabundanceorinthedelicacyofitscontributionstothesamefullboard。Thetenderasparagus,thesucculentcelery,andthedelicatecauliflower;eggplants,beets,lettuce,parsnips,peas,andFrenchbeans,earlyandlate;radishes,cantelopes,melonsofallkinds;thefruitsandflowersofallclimesandofalldescriptions,fromthehardyappleofthenorth,tothelemonandorangeofthesouth,culminatedatthispoint。Baltimoregatheredfigs,raisins,almondsandjuicygrapesfromSpain。

WinesandbrandiesfromFrance;teasofvariousflavor,fromChina;andrich,aromaticcoffeefromJava,allconspiredtoswellthetideofhighlife,whereprideandindolencerolledandloungedinmagnificenceandsatiety。

Behindthetall-backedandelaboratelywroughtchairs,standtheservants,menandmaidens——fifteeninnumber——discriminatelyselected,notonlywithaviewtotheirindustryandfaith<85

HOUSESERVANTS>fulness,butwithspecialregardtotheirpersonalappearance,theirgracefulagilityandcaptivatingaddress。Someofthesearearmedwithfans,andarefanningrevivingbreezestowardtheover-heatedbrowsofthealabasterladies;otherswatchwitheagereye,andwithfawn-likestepanticipateandsupplywantsbeforetheyaresufficientlyformedtobeannouncedbywordorsign。

TheseservantsconstitutedasortofblackaristocracyonCol。

Lloyd"splantation。Theyresembledthefieldhandsinnothing,exceptincolor,andinthistheyheldtheadvantageofavelvet-

likeglossiness,richandbeautiful。Thehair,too,showedthesameadvantage。Thedelicatecoloredmaidrustledinthescarcelywornsilkofheryoungmistress,whiletheservantmenwereequallywellattiredfromtheover-flowingwardrobeoftheiryoungmasters;sothat,indress,aswellasinformandfeature,inmannerandspeech,intastesandhabits,thedistancebetweenthesefavoredfew,andthesorrowandhunger-smittenmultitudesofthequarterandthefield,wasimmense;andthisisseldompassedover。

Letusnowglanceatthestablesandthecarriagehouse,andweshallfindthesameevidencesofprideandluxuriousextravagance。Herearethreesplendidcoaches,softwithinandlustrouswithout。Here,too,aregigs,phaetons,barouches,sulkeysandsleighs。Herearesaddlesandharnesses——beautifullywroughtandsilvermounted——keptwitheverycare。Inthestableyouwillfind,keptonlyforpleasure,fullthirty-fivehorses,ofthemostapprovedbloodforspeedandbeauty。Therearetwomenhereconstantlyemployedintakingcareofthesehorses。Oneofthesemenmustbealwaysinthestable,toanswereverycallfromthegreathouse。Overthewayfromthestable,isahousebuiltexpresslyforthehounds——apackoftwenty-fiveorthirty——

whosefarewouldhavemadegladtheheartofadozenslaves。

Horsesandhoundsarenottheonlyconsumersoftheslave"stoil。

Therewaspracticed,attheLloyd"s,ahospitalitywhichwouldhave<86>astonishedandcharmedanyhealth-seekingnortherndivineormerchant,whomighthavechancedtoshareit。Viewedfromhisowntable,and_not_fromthefield,thecolonelwasamodelofgeneroushospitality。Hishousewas,literally,ahotel,forweeksduringthesummermonths。Atthesetimes,especially,theairwasfreightedwiththerichfumesofbaking,boiling,roastingandbroiling。TheodorsIsharedwiththewinds;butthemeatswereunderamorestringentmonopolyexceptthat,occasionally,IgotacakefromMas"Daniel。InMas"

DanielIhadafriendatcourt,fromwhomIlearnedmanythingswhichmyeagercuriositywasexcitedtoknow。Ialwaysknewwhencompanywasexpected,andwhotheywere,althoughIwasanoutsider,beingtheproperty,notofCol。Lloyd,butofaservantofthewealthycolonel。Ontheseoccasions,allthatpride,tasteandmoneycoulddo,todazzleandcharm,wasdone。

WhocouldsaythattheservantsofCol。Lloydwerenotwellcladandcaredfor,afterwitnessingoneofhismagnificententertainments?Whocouldsaythattheydidnotseemtogloryinbeingtheslavesofsuchamaster?Who,butafanatic,couldgetupanysympathyforpersonswhoseeverymovementwasagile,easyandgraceful,andwhoevincedaconsciousnessofhighsuperiority?AndwhowouldeverventuretosuspectthatCol。

Lloydwassubjecttothetroublesofordinarymortals?Masterandslaveseemalikeintheirgloryhere?Canitallbeseeming?

Alas!itmayonlybeashamatlast!Thisimmensewealth;thisgildedsplendor;thisprofusionofluxury;thisexemptionfromtoil;thislifeofease;thisseaofplenty;aye,whatofitall?

Arethepearlygatesofhappinessandsweetcontentflungopentosuchsuitors?_farfromit!_Thepoorslave,onhishard,pineplank,butscantilycoveredwithhisthinblanket,sleepsmoresoundlythanthefeverishvoluptuarywhoreclinesuponhisfeatherbedanddownypillow。Food,totheindolentlounger,ispoison,notsustenance。Lurkingbeneathalltheirdishes,areinvisiblespiritsofevil,readytofeedtheself-deludedgormandizers<87DECEPTIVECHARACTEROFSLAVERY>whichaches,pains,fiercetemper,uncontrolledpassions,dyspepsia,rheumatism,lumbagoandgout;andofthesetheLloydsgottheirfullshare。Tothepamperedloveofease,thereisnorestingplace。Whatispleasanttoday,isrepulsivetomorrow;whatissoftnow,ishardatanothertime;whatissweetinthemorning,isbitterintheevening。Neithertothewicked,nortotheidler,isthereanysolidpeace:_“Troubled,liketherestlesssea。“_

IhadexcellentopportunitiesofwitnessingtherestlessdiscontentandthecapriciousirritationoftheLloyds。Myfondnessforhorses——notpeculiartomemorethantootherboysattractedme,muchofthetime,tothestables。Thisestablishmentwasespeciallyunderthecareof“old“and“young“

Barney——fatherandson。OldBarneywasafinelookingoldman,ofabrownishcomplexion,whowasquiteportly,andworeadignifiedaspectforaslave。Hewas,evidently,muchdevotedtohisprofession,andheldhisofficeanhonorableone。Hewasafarrieraswellasanostler;hecouldbleed,removelampersfromthemouthsofthehorses,andwaswellinstructedinhorsemedicines。Nooneonthefarmknew,sowellasOldBarney,whattodowithasickhorse。Buthisgiftsandacquirementswereoflittleadvantagetohim。Hisofficewasbynomeansanenviableone。Heoftengotpresents,buthegotstripesaswell;forinnothingwasCol。Lloydmoreunreasonableandexacting,thaninrespecttothemanagementofhispleasurehorses。Anysupposedinattentiontotheseanimalsweresuretobevisitedwithdegradingpunishment。Hishorsesanddogsfaredbetterthanhismen。Theirbedsmustbesofterandcleanerthanthoseofhishumancattle。NoexcusecouldshieldOldBarney,ifthecolonelonlysuspectedsomethingwrongabouthishorses;and,consequently,hewasoftenpunishedwhenfaultless。Itwasabsolutelypainfultolistentothemanyunreasonableandfretfulscoldings,pouredoutatthestable,byCol。Lloyd,hissonsandsons-in-law。Ofthelatter,hehadthree——Messrs。Nicholson,WinderandLownes。Theseall<88>livedatthegreathouseaportionoftheyear,andenjoyedtheluxuryofwhippingtheservantswhentheypleased,whichwasbynomeansunfrequently。

Ahorsewasseldombroughtoutofthestabletowhichnoobjectioncouldberaised。“Therewasdustinhishair;““therewasatwistinhisreins;““hismanedidnotliestraight;““hehadnotbeenproperlygrained;““hisheaddidnotlookwell;“

“hisfore-topwasnotcombedout;““hisfetlockshadnotbeenproperlytrimmed;“somethingwasalwayswrong。Listeningtocomplaints,howevergroundless,Barneymuststand,hatinhand,lipssealed,neveransweringaword。Hemustmakenoreply,noexplanation;thejudgmentofthemastermustbedeemedinfallible,forhispowerisabsoluteandirresponsible。Inafreestate,amaster,thuscomplainingwithoutcause,ofhisostler,mightbetold——“Sir,IamsorryIcannotpleaseyou,but,sinceIhavedonethebestIcan,yourremedyistodismissme。“

Here,however,theostlermuststand,listenandtremble。Oneofthemostheart-saddeningandhumiliatingscenesIeverwitnessed,wasthewhippingofOldBarney,byCol。Lloydhimself。Hereweretwomen,bothadvancedinyears;therewerethesilverylocksofCol。L。,andtherewasthebaldandtoil-wornbrowofOldBarney;

masterandslave;superiorandinferiorhere,but_equals_atthebarofGod;and,inthecommoncourseofevents,theymustbothsoonmeetinanotherworld,inaworldwherealldistinctions,exceptthosebasedonobedienceanddisobedience,areblottedoutforever。“Uncoveryourhead!“saidtheimperiousmaster;hewasobeyed。“Takeoffyourjacket,youoldrascal!“andoffcameBarney"sjacket。“Downonyourknees!“downknelttheoldman,hisshouldersbare,hisbaldheadglisteninginthesun,andhisagedkneesonthecold,dampground。Inhishumbleanddebasingattitude,themaster——thatmastertowhomhehadgiventhebestyearsandthebeststrengthofhislife——cameforward,andlaidonthirtylashes,withhishorsewhip。Theoldmanboreitpatiently,tothelast,answeringeachblowwithaslightshrugoftheshoulders,andagroan。Icannotthinkthat<89A

HUMILIATINGSPECTACLE>Col。LloydsucceededinmarringthefleshofOldBarneyveryseriously,forthewhipwasalight,ridingwhip;butthespectacleofanagedman——ahusbandandafather——

humblykneelingbeforeawormofthedust,surprisedandshockedmeatthetime;andsinceIhavegrownoldenoughtothinkonthewickednessofslavery,fewfactshavebeenofmorevaluetomethanthis,towhichIwasawitness。Itrevealsslaveryinitstruecolor,andinitsmaturityofrepulsivehatefulness。Ioweittotruth,however,tosay,thatthiswasthefirstandthelasttimeIeversawOldBarney,oranyotherslave,compelledtokneeltoreceiveawhipping。

Isaw,atthestable,anotherincident,whichIwillrelate,asitisillustrativeofaphaseofslaverytowhichIhavealreadyreferredinanotherconnection。Besidestwoothercoachmen,Col。

LloydownedonenamedWilliam,who,strangelyenough,wasoftencalledbyhissurname,Wilks,bywhiteandcoloredpeopleonthehomeplantation。Wilkswasaveryfinelookingman。Hewasaboutaswhiteasanybodyontheplantation;andinmanlinessofform,andcomelinessoffeatures,heboreaverystrikingresemblancetoMr。MurrayLloyd。Itwaswhispered,andprettygenerallyadmittedasafact,thatWilliamWilkswasasonofCol。Lloyd,byahighlyfavoredslave-woman,whowasstillontheplantation。Thereweremanyreasonsforbelievingthiswhisper,notonlyinWilliam"sappearance,butintheundeniablefreedomwhichheenjoyedoverallothers,andhisapparentconsciousnessofbeingsomethingmorethanaslavetohismaster。Itwasnotorious,too,thatWilliamhadadeadlyenemyinMurrayLloyd,whomhesomuchresembled,andthatthelattergreatlyworriedhisfatherwithimportunitiestosellWilliam。Indeed,hegavehisfathernorestuntilhedidsellhim,toAustinWoldfolk,thegreatslave-traderatthattime。Beforesellinghim,however,Mr。L。triedwhatgivingWilliamawhippingwoulddo,towardmakingthingssmooth;butthiswasafailure。Itwasacompromise,anddefeateditself;for,imme<90>diatelyaftertheinfliction,theheart-sickenedcolonelatonedtoWilliamfortheabuse,bygivinghimagoldwatchandchain。Anotherfact,somewhatcurious,is,thatthoughsoldtotheremorseless_Woldfolk_,takeninironstoBaltimoreandcastintoprison,withaviewtobeingdriventothesouth,William,by_some_

means——alwaysamysterytome——outbidallhispurchasers,paidforhimself,_andnowresidesinBaltimore,a_FREEMAN。Istherenotroomtosuspect,that,asthegoldwatchwaspresentedtoatoneforthewhipping,apurseofgoldwasgivenhimbythesamehand,withwhichtoeffecthispurchase,asanatonementfortheindignityinvolvedinsellinghisownfleshandblood。AllthecircumstancesofWilliam,onthegreathousefarm,showhimtohaveoccupiedadifferentpositionfromtheotherslaves,and,certainly,thereisnothinginthesupposedhostilityofslaveholderstoamalgamation,toforbidthesuppositionthatWilliamWilkswasthesonofEdwardLloyd。_Practical_

amalgamationiscommonineveryneighborhoodwhereIhavebeeninslavery。

Col。Lloydwasnotinthewayofknowingmuchoftherealopinionsandfeelingsofhisslavesrespectinghim。Thedistancebetweenhimandthemwasfartoogreattoadmitofsuchknowledge。Hisslavesweresonumerous,thathedidnotknowthemwhenhesawthem。Nor,indeed,didallhisslavesknowhim。

Inthisrespect,hewasinconvenientlyrich。Itisreportedofhim,that,whileridingalongtheroadoneday,hemetacoloredman,andaddressedhimintheusualwayofspeakingtocoloredpeopleonthepublichighwaysofthesouth:“Well,boy,whodoyoubelongto?““ToCol。Lloyd,“repliedtheslave。“Well,doesthecoloneltreatyouwell?““No,sir,“wasthereadyreply。

“What?doesheworkyoutoohard?““Yes,sir。““Well,don"thegiveenoughtoeat?““Yes,sir,hegivesmeenough,suchasitis。“Thecolonel,afterascertainingwheretheslavebelonged,rodeon;theslavealsowentonabouthisbusiness,notdreamingthathehadbeenconversingwithhismaster。Hethought,saidandheardnothingmoreofthematter,untiltwoorthreeweeksafter<91PENALTYFORTELLINGTHETRUTH>wards。Thepoormanwastheninformedbyhisoverseer,that,forhavingfoundfaultwithhismaster,hewasnowtobesoldtoaGeorgiatrader。Hewasimmediatelychainedandhandcuffed;andthus,withoutamoment"swarninghewassnatchedaway,andforeversunderedfromhisfamilyandfriends,byahandmoreunrelentingthanthatofdeath。_This_isthepenaltyoftellingthesimpletruth,inanswertoaseriesofplainquestions。Itispartlyinconsequenceofsuchfacts,thatslaves,wheninquiredofastotheirconditionandthecharacteroftheirmasters,almostinvariablysaytheyarecontented,andthattheirmastersarekind。Slaveholdershavebeenknowntosendspiesamongtheirslaves,toascertain,ifpossible,theirviewsandfeelingsinregardtotheircondition。Thefrequencyofthishadtheeffecttoestablishamongtheslavesthemaxim,thatastilltonguemakesawisehead。Theysuppressthetruthratherthantaketheconsequenceoftellingit,and,insodoing,theyprovethemselvesapartofthehumanfamily。Iftheyhaveanythingtosayoftheirmaster,itis,generally,somethinginhisfavor,especiallywhenspeakingtostrangers。Iwasfrequentlyasked,whileaslave,ifIhadakindmaster,andIdonotrememberevertohavegivenanegativereply。NordidI,whenpursuingthiscourse,considermyselfasutteringwhatwasutterlyfalse;forI

alwaysmeasuredthekindnessofmymasterbythestandardofkindnesssetupbyslaveholdersaroundus。However,slavesarelikeotherpeople,andimbibesimilarprejudices。Theyareapttothink_theircondition_betterthanthatofothers。Many,undertheinfluenceofthisprejudice,thinktheirownmastersarebetterthanthemastersofotherslaves;andthis,too,insomecases,whentheveryreverseistrue。Indeed,itisnotuncommonforslaveseventofalloutandquarrelamongthemselvesabouttherelativekindnessoftheirmasters,contendingforthesuperiorgoodnessofhisownoverthatofothers。Attheverysametime,theymutuallyexecratetheirmasters,whenviewedseparately。Itwassoonourplantation。WhenCol。Lloyd"sslavesmetthoseofJacobJepson,they<92>seldompartedwithoutaquarrelabouttheirmasters;Col。Lloyd"sslavescontendingthathewastherichest,andMr。Jepson"sslavesthathewasthesmartest,manofthetwo。Col。Lloyd"sslaveswouldboosthisabilitytobuyandsellJacobJepson;Mr。Jepson"sslaveswouldboasthisabilitytowhipCol。Lloyd。Thesequarrelswouldalmostalwaysendinafightbetweentheparties;thosethatbeatweresupposedtohavegainedthepointatissue。Theyseemedtothinkthatthegreatnessoftheirmasterswastransferabletothemselves。TobeaSLAVE,wasthoughttobebadenough;buttobea_poorman"s_slave,wasdeemedadisgrace,indeed。

CHAPTERVIII

AChapterofHorrorsAUSTINGORE——ASKETCHOFHISCHARACTER——OVERSEERSASACLASS——

THEIRPECULIARCHARACTERISTICS——THEMARKEDINDIVIDUALITYOF

AUSTINGORE——HISSENSEOFDUTY——HOWHEWHIPPED——MURDEROFPOOR

DENBY——HOWITOCCURRED——SENSATION——HOWGOREMADEPEACEWITHCOL。

LLOYD——THEMURDERUNPUNISHED——ANOTHERDREADFULMURDERNARRATED——

NOLAWSFORTHEPROTECTIONOFSLAVESCANBEENFORCEDINTHE

SOUTHERNSTATES。

AsIhavealreadyintimatedelsewhere,theslavesonCol。Lloyd"splantation,whosehardlot,underMr。Sevier,thereaderhasalreadynoticedanddeplored,werenotpermittedtoenjoythecomparativelymoderateruleofMr。Hopkins。Thelatterwassucceededbyaverydifferentman。ThenameofthenewoverseerwasAustinGore。UponthisindividualIwouldfixparticularattention;forunderhisruletherewasmoresufferingfromviolenceandbloodshedthanhad——accordingtotheolderslaveseverbeenexperiencedbeforeonthisplantation。Iconfess,I

hardlyknowhowtobringthismanfitlybeforethereader。Hewas,itistrue,anoverseer,andpossessed,toalargeextent,thepeculiarcharacteristicsofhisclass;yet,tocallhimmerelyanoverseer,wouldnotgivethereaderafairnotionoftheman。Ispeakofoverseersasaclass。Theyaresuch。Theyareasdistinctfromtheslaveholdinggentryofthesouth,asarethefishwomenofParis,andthecoal-heaversofLondon,distinctfromothermembersofsociety。Theyconstituteaseparatefraternityatthesouth,notlessmarkedthanisthefraternityofParkLanebulliesinNewYork。Theyhavebeenarrangedandclassified<94>bythatgreatlawofattraction,whichdeterminesthespheresandaffinitiesofmen;whichordains,thatmen,whosemalignandbrutalpropensitiespredominateovertheirmoralandintellectualendowments,shall,naturally,fallintothoseemploymentswhichpromisethelargestgratificationtothosepredominatinginstinctsorpropensities。Theofficeofoverseertakesthisrawmaterialofvulgarityandbrutality,andstampsitasadistinctclassofsouthernsociety。But,inthisclass,asinallotherclasses,therearecharactersofmarkedindividuality,evenwhiletheybearageneralresemblancetothemass。Mr。Gorewasoneofthose,towhomageneralcharacterizationwoulddonomannerofjustice。Hewasanoverseer;buthewassomethingmore。Withthemalignandtyrannicalqualitiesofanoverseer,hecombinedsomethingofthelawfulmaster。Hehadtheartfulnessandthemeanambitionofhisclass;buthewaswhollyfreefromthedisgustingswaggerandnoisybravadoofhisfraternity。Therewasaneasyairofindependenceabouthim;acalmself-possession,andasternnessofglance,whichmightwelldauntheartslesstimidthanthoseofpoorslaves,accustomedfromchildhoodandthroughlifetocowerbeforeadriver"slash。ThehomeplantationofCol。Lloydaffordedanamplefieldfortheexerciseofthequalificationsforoverseership,whichhepossessedinsuchaneminentdegree。

Mr。Gorewasoneofthoseoverseers,whocouldtorturetheslightestwordorlookintoimpudence;hehadthenerve,notonlytoresent,buttopunish,promptlyandseverely。Heneverallowedhimselftobeansweredback,byaslave。Inthis,hewasaslordlyandasimperiousasCol。EdwardLloyd,himself;actingalwaysuptothemaxim,practicallymaintainedbyslaveholders,thatitisbetterthatadozenslavessufferunderthelash,withoutfault,thanthatthemasterortheoverseershould_seem_

tohavebeenwronginthepresenceoftheslave。_Everythingmustbeabsolutehere_。Guiltyornotguilty,itisenoughtobeaccused,tobesureofaflogging。TheverypresenceofthismanGorewas<95AUSTINGORE>painful,andIshunnedhimasIwouldhaveshunnedarattlesnake。Hispiercing,blackeyes,andsharp,shrillvoice,everawakenedsensationsofterroramongtheslaves。Forsoyoungaman(Idescribehimashewas,twenty-

fiveorthirtyyearsago)Mr。Gorewassingularlyreservedandgraveinthepresenceofslaves。Heindulgedinnojokes,saidnofunnythings,andkepthisowncounsels。Otheroverseers,howbrutalsoevertheymightbe,were,attimes,inclinedtogainfavorwiththeslaves,byindulgingalittlepleasantry;butGorewasneverknowntobeguiltyofanysuchweakness。Hewasalwaysthecold,distant,unapproachable_overseer_ofCol。EdwardLloyd"splantation,andneedednohigherpleasurethanwasinvolvedinafaithfuldischargeofthedutiesofhisoffice。

Whenhewhipped,heseemedtodosofromasenseofduty,andfearednoconsequences。WhatHopkinsdidreluctantly,Goredidwithalacrity。Therewasasternwill,aniron-likereality,aboutthisGore,whichwouldhaveeasilymadehimthechiefofabandofpirates,hadhisenvironmentsbeenfavorabletosuchacourseoflife。Allthecoolness,savagebarbarityandfreedomfrommoralrestraint,whicharenecessaryinthecharacterofapirate-chief,centered,Ithink,inthismanGore。Amongmanyotherdeedsofshockingcrueltywhichheperpetrated,whileIwasatMr。Lloyd"s,wasthemurderofayoungcoloredman,namedDenby。HewassometimescalledBillDenby,orDemby;(Iwritefromsound,andthesoundsonLloyd"splantationarenotverycertain。)Iknewhimwell。Hewasapowerfulyoungman,fullofanimalspirits,and,sofarasIknow,hewasamongthemostvaluableofCol。Lloyd"sslaves。Insomething——Iknownotwhat——

heoffendedthisMr。AustinGore,and,inaccordancewiththecustomofthelatter,heundertooktofloghim。HegaveDenbybutfewstripes;thelatterbrokeawayfromhimandplungedintothecreek,and,standingtheretothedepthofhisneckinwater,herefusedtocomeoutattheorderoftheoverseer;whereupon,forthisrefusal,_Goreshothimdead!_ItissaidthatGoregaveDenbythreecalls,tellinghimthat<96>ifhedidnotobeythelastcall,hewouldshoothim。Whenthethirdcallwasgiven,Denbystoodhisgroundfirmly;andthisraisedthequestion,inthemindsoftheby-standingslaves——“Willhedaretoshoot?“Mr。Gore,withoutfurtherparley,andwithoutmakinganyfurtherefforttoinduceDenbytocomeoutofthewater,raisedhisgundeliberatelytohisface,tookdeadlyaimathisstandingvictim,and,inaninstant,poorDenbywasnumberedwiththedead。Hismangledbodysankoutofsight,andonlyhiswarm,redbloodmarkedtheplacewherehehadstood。

Thisdevilishoutrage,thisfiendishmurder,produced,asitwaswellcalculatedtodo,atremendoussensation。Athrillofhorrorflashedthrougheverysoulontheplantation,ifImayexcepttheguiltywretchwhohadcommittedthehell-blackdeed。

Whiletheslavesgenerallywerepanic-struck,andhowlingwithalarm,themurdererhimselfwascalmandcollected,andappearedasthoughnothingunusualhadhappened。Theatrocityrousedmyoldmaster,andhespokeout,inreprobationofit;butthewholethingprovedtobelessthananinedays"wonder。BothCol。

LloydandmyoldmasterarraignedGoreforhiscrueltyinthematter,butthisamountedtonothing。Hisreply,orexplanation——asIremembertohavehearditatthetimewas,thattheextraordinaryexpedientwasdemandedbynecessity;thatDenbyhadbecomeunmanageable;thathehadsetadangerousexampletotheotherslaves;andthat,withoutsomesuchpromptmeasureasthattowhichhehadresorted,wereadopted,therewouldbeanendtoallruleandorderontheplantation。Thatveryconvenientcovertforallmannerofcrueltyandoutragethatcowardlyalarm-cry,thattheslaveswould_“taketheplace,“_waspleaded,inextenuationofthisrevoltingcrime,justasithadbeencitedindefenseofathousandsimilarones。Heargued,thatifoneslaverefusedtobecorrected,andwasallowedtoescapewithhislife,whenhehadbeentoldthatheshouldloseitifhepersistedinhiscourse,theotherslaveswouldsooncopyhisexample;theresultofwhichwouldbe,thefreedomoftheslaves,andtheenslavementofthe<97HOWGOREMADEPEACE

WITHCOL。LLOYD>whites。IhaveeveryreasontobelievethatMr。

Gore"sdefense,orexplanation,wasdeemedsatisfactory——atleasttoCol。Lloyd。Hewascontinuedinhisofficeontheplantation。

Hisfameasanoverseerwentabroad,andhishorridcrimewasnotevensubmittedtojudicialinvestigation。Themurderwascommittedinthepresenceofslaves,andthey,ofcourse,couldneitherinstituteasuit,nortestifyagainstthemurderer。Hisbarewordwouldgofurtherinacourtoflaw,thantheunitedtestimonyoftenthousandblackwitnesses。

AllthatMr。Gorehadtodo,wastomakehispeacewithCol。

Lloyd。Thisdone,andtheguiltyperpetratorofoneofthemostfoulmurdersgoesunwhippedofjustice,anduncensuredbythecommunityinwhichhelives。Mr。GorelivedinSt。Michael"s,Talbotcounty,whenIleftMaryland;ifheisstillaliveheprobablyyetresidesthere;andIhavenoreasontodoubtthatheisnowashighlyesteemed,andasgreatlyrespected,asthoughhisguiltysoulhadneverbeenstainedwithinnocentblood。IamwellawarethatwhatIhavenowwrittenwillbysomebebrandedasfalseandmalicious。Itwillbedenied,notonlythatsuchathingeverdidtranspire,asIhavenownarrated,butthatsuchathingcouldhappenin_Maryland_。Icanonlysay——believeitornot——thatIhavesaidnothingbuttheliteraltruth,gainsayitwhomay。

IspeakadvisedlywhenIsaythis,——thatkillingaslave,oranycoloredperson,inTalbotcounty,Maryland,isnottreatedasacrime,eitherbythecourtsorthecommunity。Mr。ThomasLanman,shipcarpenter,ofSt。Michael"s,killedtwoslaves,oneofwhomhebutcheredwithahatchet,byknockinghisbrainsout。Heusedtoboastofthecommissionoftheawfulandbloodydeed。Ihaveheardhimdoso,laughingly,saying,amongotherthings,thathewastheonlybenefactorofhiscountryinthecompany,andthatwhen“otherswoulddoasmuchashehaddone,weshouldberelievedofthed——dniggers。“

AsanevidenceoftherecklessdisregardofhumanlifewherethelifeisthatofaslaveImaystatethenotoriousfact,thatthe<98>wifeofMr。GilesHicks,wholivedbutashortdistancefromCol。Lloyd"s,withherownhandsmurderedmywife"scousin,ayounggirlbetweenfifteenandsixteenyearsofage——mutilatingherpersoninamostshockingmanner。Theatrociouswoman,intheparoxysmofherwrath,notcontentwithmurderinghervictim,literallymangledherface,andbrokeherbreastbone。Wild,however,andinfuriatedasshewas,shetooktheprecautiontocausetheslave-girltobeburied;butthefactsofthecasecomingabroad,veryspeedilyledtothedisintermentoftheremainsofthemurderedslave-girl。Acoroner"sjurywasassembled,whodecidedthatthegirlhadcometoherdeathbyseverebeating。Itwasascertainedthattheoffenseforwhichthisgirlwasthushurriedoutoftheworld,wasthis:shehadbeensetthatnight,andseveralprecedingnights,tomindMrs。

Hicks"sbaby,andhavingfallenintoasoundsleep,thebabycried,wakingMrs。Hicks,butnottheslave-girl。Mrs。Hicks,becominginfuriatedatthegirl"stardiness,aftercallingseveraltimes,jumpedfromherbedandseizedapieceoffire-

woodfromthefireplace;andthen,asshelayfastasleep,shedeliberatelypoundedinherskullandbreast-bone,andthusendedherlife。Iwillnotsaythatthismosthorridmurderproducednosensationinthecommunity。It_did_produceasensation;

but,incredibletotell,themoralsenseofthecommunitywasbluntedtooentirelybytheordinarynatureofslaveryhorrors,tobringthemurderesstopunishment。Awarrantwasissuedforherarrest,but,forsomereasonorother,thatwarrantwasneverserved。ThusdidMrs。Hicksnotonlyescapecondignpunishment,buteventhepainandmortificationofbeingarraignedbeforeacourtofjustice。

WhilstIamdetailingthebloodydeedsthattookplaceduringmystayonCol。Lloyd"splantation,Iwillbrieflynarrateanotherdarktransaction,whichoccurredaboutthesametimeasthemurderofDenbybyMr。Gore。

OnthesideoftheriverWye,oppositefromCol。Lloyd"s,therelivedaMr。BealBondley,awealthyslaveholder。Inthedirection<99NOLAWPROTECTSTHESLAVE>ofhisland,andneartheshore,therewasanexcellentoysterfishingground,andtothis,someoftheslavesofCol。Lloydoccasionallyresortedintheirlittlecanoes,atnight,withaviewtomakeupthedeficiencyoftheirscantyallowanceoffood,bytheoystersthattheycouldeasilygetthere。This,Mr。Bondleytookitintohisheadtoregardasatrespass,andwhileanoldmanbelongingtoCol。

Lloydwasengagedincatchingafewofthemanymillionsofoystersthatlinedthebottomofthatcreek,tosatisfyhishunger,thevillainousMr。Bondley,lyinginambush,withouttheslightestceremony,dischargedthecontentsofhismusketintothebackandshouldersofthepooroldman。Asgoodfortunewouldhaveit,theshotdidnotprovemortal,andMr。Bondleycameover,thenextday,toseeCol。Lloyd——whethertopayhimforhisproperty,ortojustifyhimselfforwhathehaddone,I

knownot;butthisI_can_say,thecruelanddastardlytransactionwasspeedilyhushedup;therewasverylittlesaidaboutitatall,andnothingwaspubliclydonewhichlookedliketheapplicationoftheprincipleofjusticetothemanwhom_chance_,only,savedfrombeinganactualmurderer。Oneofthecommonestsayingstowhichmyearsearlybecameaccustomed,onCol。Lloyd"splantationandelsewhereinMaryland,was,thatitwas_“worthbuthalfacenttokillanigger,andahalfacenttoburyhim;“_andthefactsofmyexperiencegofartojustifythepracticaltruthofthisstrangeproverb。Lawsfortheprotectionofthelivesoftheslaves,are,astheymustneedsbe,utterlyincapableofbeingenforced,wheretheverypartieswhoarenominallyprotected,arenotpermittedtogiveevidence,incourtsoflaw,againsttheonlyclassofpersonsfromwhomabuse,outrageandmurdermightbereasonablyapprehended。WhileIheardofnumerousmurderscommittedbyslaveholdersontheEasternShoresofMaryland,Ineverknewasolitaryinstanceinwhichaslaveholderwaseitherhungorimprisonedforhavingmurderedaslave。Theusualpretextforkillingaslaveis,thattheslavehasofferedresistance。Shouldaslave,whenassaulted,butraisehishandinselfdefense,thewhiteassaulting<100>partyisfullyjustifiedbysouthern,orMaryland,publicopinion,inshootingtheslavedown。Sometimesthisisdone,simplybecauseitisallegedthattheslavehasbeensaucy。ButhereIleavethisphaseofthesocietyofmyearlychildhood,andwillrelievethekindreaderoftheseheart-

sickeningdetails。

CHAPTERIX

PersonalTreatmentMISSLUCRETIA——HERKINDNESS——HOWITWASMANIFESTED——“IKE“——A

BATTLEWITHHIM——THECONSEQUENCESTHEREOF——MISSLUCRETIA"S

BALSAM——BREAD——HOWIOBTAINEDIT——BEAMSOFSUNLIGHTAMIDSTTHE

GENERALDARKNESS——SUFFERINGFROMCOLD——HOWWETOOKOURMEALS——

ORDERSTOPREPAREFORBALTIMORE——OVERJOYEDATTHETHOUGHTOF

QUITTINGTHEPLANTATION——EXTRAORDINARYCLEANSING——COUSINTOM"S

VERSIONOFBALTIMORE——ARRIVALTHERE——KINDRECEPTIONGIVENMEBY

MRS。SOPHIAAULD——LITTLETOMMY——MYNEWPOSITION——MYNEWDUTIES——A

TURNINGPOINTINMYHISTORY。

Ihavenothingcruelorshockingtorelateofmyownpersonalexperience,whileIremainedonCol。Lloyd"splantation,atthehomeofmyoldmaster。AnoccasionalcufffromAuntKaty,andaregularwhippingfromoldmaster,suchasanyheedlessandmischievousboymightgetfromhisfather,isallthatIcanmentionofthissort。Iwasnotoldenoughtoworkinthefield,and,therebeinglittleelsethanfieldworktoperform,Ihadmuchleisure。ThemostIhadtodo,was,todriveupthecowsintheevening,tokeepthefrontyardclean,andtoperformsmallerrandsformyyoungmistress,LucretiaAuld。Ihavereasonsforthinkingthisladywasverykindlydisposedtowardme,and,althoughIwasnotoftentheobjectofherattention,I

constantlyregardedherasmyfriend,andwasalwaysgladwhenitwasmyprivilegetodoheraservice。Inafamilywheretherewassomuchthatwasharsh,coldandindifferent,theslightestwordorlookofkindnesspassed,withme,foritsfullvalue。

MissLucretia——<102>asweallcontinuedtocallherlongafterhermarriage——hadbestoweduponmesuchwordsandlooksastaughtmethatshepitiedme,ifshedidnotloveme。Inadditiontowordsandlooks,shesometimesgavemeapieceofbreadandbutter;athingnotsetdowninthebilloffare,andwhichmusthavebeenanextraration,plannedasidefromeitherAuntKatyoroldmaster,solelyoutofthetenderregardandfriendshipshehadforme。Then,too,IonedaygotintothewarswithUncleAble"sson,“Ike,“andhadgotsadlyworsted;infact,thelittlerascalhadstruckmedirectlyintheforeheadwithasharppieceofcinder,fusedwithiron,fromtheoldblacksmith"sforge,whichmadeacrossinmyforeheadveryplainlytobeseennow。

Thegashbledveryfreely,andIroaredveryloudlyandbetookmyselfhome。ThecoldheartedAuntKatypaidnoattentioneithertomywoundormyroaring,excepttotellmeitservedmeright;

IhadnobusinesswithIke;itwasgoodforme;Iwouldnowkeepaway_“fromdemLloydniggers。“_MissLucretia,inthisstateofthecase,cameforward;and,inquiteadifferentspiritfromthatmanifestedbyAuntKaty,shecalledmeintotheparlor(anextraprivilegeofitself)and,withoutusingtowardmeanyofthehard-heartedandreproachfulepithetsofmykitchentormentor,shequietlyactedthegoodSamaritan。Withherownsofthandshewashedthebloodfrommyheadandface,fetchedherownbalsambottle,andwiththebalsamwettedanicepieceofwhitelinen,andboundupmyhead。Thebalsamwasnotmorehealingtothewoundinmyhead,thanherkindnesswashealingtothewoundsinmyspirit,madebytheunfeelingwordsofAuntKaty。Afterthis,MissLucretiawasmyfriend。Ifelthertobesuch;andIhavenodoubtthatthesimpleactofbindingupmyhead,didmuchtoawakeninhermindaninterestinmywelfare。

Itisquitetrue,thatthisinterestwasneververymarked,anditseldomshoweditselfinanythingmorethaningivingmeapieceofbreadwhenIwashungry;butthiswasagreatfavoronaslaveplantation,andIwastheonlyoneofthechildrentowhomsuchattentionwaspaid。<103REALMSOFSUNLIGHT>Whenveryhungry,IwouldgointothebackyardandplayunderMissLucretia"swindow。Whenprettyseverelypinchedbyhunger,Ihadahabitofsinging,whichthegoodladyverysooncametounderstandasapetitionforapieceofbread。WhenIsungunderMissLucretia"swindow,Iwasveryapttogetwellpaidformymusic。ThereaderwillseethatInowhadtwofriends,bothatimportantpoints——Mas"Danielatthegreathouse,andMissLucretiaathome。FromMas"DanielIgotprotectionfromthebiggerboys;andfromMissLucretiaIgotbread,bysingingwhenIwashungry,andsympathywhenIwasabusedbythattermagant,whohadthereinsofgovernmentinthekitchen。ForsuchfriendshipIfeltdeeplygrateful,andbitterasaremyrecollectionsofslavery,Ilovetorecallanyinstancesofkindness,anysunbeamsofhumanetreatment,whichfoundwaytomysoulthroughtheirongratingofmyhouseofbondage。Suchbeamsseemallthebrighterfromthegeneraldarknessintowhichtheypenetrate,andtheimpressiontheymakeisvividlydistinctandbeautiful。

AsIhavebeforeintimated,Iwasseldomwhipped——andneverseverely——bymyoldmaster。IsufferedlittlefromthetreatmentIreceived,exceptfromhungerandcold。Theseweremytwogreatphysicaltroubles。Icouldneithergetasufficiencyoffoodnorofclothing;butIsufferedlessfromhungerthanfromcold。Inhottestsummerandcoldestwinter,Iwaskeptalmostinastateofnudity;noshoes,nostockings,nojacket,notrowsers;

nothingbutcoarsesackclothortow-linen,madeintoasortofshirt,reachingdowntomyknees。ThisIworenightandday,changingitonceaweek。InthedaytimeIcouldprotectmyselfprettywell,bykeepingonthesunnysideofthehouse;andinbadweather,inthecornerofthekitchenchimney。Thegreatdifficultywas,tokeepwarmduringthenight。Ihadnobed。

Thepigsinthepenhadleaves,andthehorsesinthestablehadstraw,butthechildrenhadnobeds。Theylodgedanywhereintheamplekitchen。Islept,generally,inalittlecloset,withoutevenablankettocoverme。Inverycoldweather。Isometimesgotdownthebaginwhichcorn<104>mealwasusuallycarriedtothemill,andcrawledintothat。Sleepingthere,withmyheadinandfeetout,Iwaspartlyprotected,thoughnotcomfortable。Myfeethavebeensocrackedwiththefrost,thatthepenwithwhichIamwritingmightbelaidinthegashes。Themanneroftakingourmealsatoldmaster"s,indicatedbutlittlerefinement。Ourcorn-mealmush,whensufficientlycooled,wasplacedinalargewoodentray,ortrough,likethoseusedinmakingmaplesugarhereinthenorth。Thistraywassetdown,eitheronthefloorofthekitchen,oroutofdoorsontheground;andthechildrenwerecalled,likesomanypigs;andlikesomanypigstheywouldcome,andliterallydevourthemush——somewithoystershells,somewithpiecesofshingles,andnonewithspoons。Hethateatfastestgotmost,andhethatwasstrongestgotthebestplace;

andfewleftthetroughreallysatisfied。Iwasthemostunluckyofany,forAuntKatyhadnogoodfeelingforme;andifIpushedanyoftheotherchildren,oriftheytoldheranythingunfavorableofme,shealwaysbelievedtheworst,andwassuretowhipme。

AsIgrewolderandmorethoughtful,Iwasmoreandmorefilledwithasenseofmywretchedness。ThecrueltyofAuntKaty,thehungerandcoldIsuffered,andtheterriblereportsofwrongandoutragewhichcametomyear,togetherwithwhatIalmostdailywitnessed,ledme,whenyetbuteightornineyearsold,towishIhadneverbeenborn。Iusedtocontrastmyconditionwiththeblack-birds,inwhosewildandsweetsongsIfanciedthemsohappy!Theirapparentjoyonlydeepenedtheshadesofmysorrow。

Therearethoughtfuldaysinthelivesofchildren——atleasttherewereinminewhentheygrapplewithallthegreat,primarysubjectsofknowledge,andreach,inamoment,conclusionswhichnosubsequentexperiencecanshake。Iwasjustaswellawareoftheunjust,unnaturalandmurderouscharacterofslavery,whennineyearsold,asIamnow。Withoutanyappealtobooks,tolaws,ortoauthoritiesofanykind,itwasenoughtoacceptGodasafather,toregardslaveryasacrime。

<105REJOICEDATLEAVINGTHEPLANTATION>

IwasnottenyearsoldwhenIleftCol。Lloyd"splantationforBalitmore{sic}。Ileftthatplantationwithinexpressiblejoy。

InevershallforgettheecstacywithwhichIreceivedtheintelligencefrommyfriend,MissLucretia,thatmyoldmasterhaddeterminedtoletmegotoBaltimoretolivewithMr。HughAuld,abrothertoMr。ThomasAuld,myoldmaster"sson-in-law。

Ireceivedthisinformationaboutthreedaysbeforemydeparture。

Theywerethreeofthehappiestdaysofmychildhood。Ispentthelargestpartofthesethreedaysinthecreek,washingofftheplantationscurf,andpreparingformynewhome。Mrs。

Lucretiatookalivelyinterestingettingmeready。ShetoldmeImustgetallthedeadskinoffmyfeetandknees,beforeI

couldgotoBaltimore,forthepeopletherewereverycleanly,andwouldlaughatmeifIlookeddirty;and,besides,shewasintendingtogivemeapairoftrowsers,whichIshouldnotputonunlessIgotallthedirtoff。ThiswasawarningtowhichI

wasboundtotakeheed;forthethoughtofowningapairoftrowsers,wasgreat,indeed。Itwasalmostasufficientmotive,notonlytoinducemetoscruboffthe_mange_(aspigdroverswouldcallit)buttheskinaswell。SoIwentatitingoodearnest,workingforthefirsttimeinthehopeofreward。Iwasgreatlyexcited,andcouldhardlyconsenttosleep,lestIshouldbeleft。Thetiesthat,ordinarily,bindchildrentotheirhomes,wereallsevered,ortheyneverhadanyexistenceinmycase,atleastsofarasthehomeplantationofCol。L。wasconcerned。Ithereforefoundnoseveretrailatthemomentofmydeparture,suchasIhadexperiencedwhenseparatedfrommyhomeinTuckahoe。Myhomeatmyoldmaster"swascharmlesstome;itwasnothome,butaprisontome;onpartingfromit,IcouldnotfeelthatIwasleavinganythingwhichIcouldhaveenjoyedbystaying。Mymotherwasnowlongdead;mygrandmotherwasfaraway,sothatIseldomsawher;AuntKatywasmyunrelentingtormentor;andmytwosistersandbrothers,owingtoourearlyseparationinlife,andthefamily-destroyingpowerofslavery,were,comparatively,stran<106>gerstome。Thefactofourrelationshipwasalmostblottedout。Ilookedfor_home_

elsewhere,andwasconfidentoffindingnonewhichIshouldrelishlessthantheoneIwasleaving。If,however,IfoundinmynewhometowhichIwasgoingwithsuchblissfulanticipations——hardship,whippingandnakedness,IhadthequestionableconsolationthatIshouldnothaveescapedanyoneoftheseevilsbyremainingunderthemanagementofAuntKaty。

Then,too,Ithought,sinceIhadenduredmuchinthislineonLloyd"splantation,Icouldendureasmuchelsewhere,andespeciallyatBaltimore;forIhadsomethingofthefeelingaboutthatcitywhichisexpressedinthesaying,thatbeing“hangedinEngland,isbetterthandyinganaturaldeathinIreland。“IhadthestrongestdesiretoseeBaltimore。MycousinTom——aboytwoorthreeyearsolderthanI——hadbeenthere,andthoughnotfluent(hestutteredimmoderately)inspeech,hehadinspiredmewiththatdesire,byhiseloquentdescriptionoftheplace。Tomwas,sometimes,Capt。Auld"scabinboy;andwhenhecamefromBaltimore,hewasalwaysasortofheroamongstus,atleasttillhisBaltimoretripwasforgotten。Icouldnevertellhimofanything,orpointoutanythingthatstruckmeasbeautifulorpowerful,butthathehadseensomethinginBaltimorefarsurpassingit。Eventhegreathouseitself,withallitspictureswithin,andpillarswithout,hehadthehardihoodtosay“wasnothingtoBaltimore。“Heboughtatrumpet(worthsixpence)andbroughtithome;toldwhathehadseeninthewindowsofstores;thathehadheardshootingcrackers,andseensoldiers;thathehadseenasteamboat;thattherewereshipsinBaltimorethatcouldcarryfoursuchsloopsasthe“SallyLloyd。“

Hesaidagreatdealaboutthemarket-house;hespokeofthebellsringing;andofmanyotherthingswhichrousedmycuriosityverymuch;and,indeed,whichheightenedmyhopesofhappinessinmynewhome。

WesailedoutofMilesriverforBaltimoreearlyonaSaturdaymorning。Irememberonlythedayoftheweek;for,atthattime,<107ARRIVALATBALTIMORE>Ihadnoknowledgeofthedaysofthemonth,nor,indeed,ofthemonthsoftheyear。Onsettingsail,Iwalkedaft,andgavetoCol。Lloyd"splantationwhatIhopedwouldbethelastlookIshouldevergivetoit,ortoanyplacelikeit。Mystrongaversiontothegreatfarm,wasnotowingtomyownpersonalsuffering,butthedailysufferingofothers,andtothecertaintythatImust,soonerorlater,beplacedunderthebarbarousruleofanoverseer,suchastheaccomplishedGore,orthebrutalanddrunkenPlummer。Aftertakingthislastview,Iquittedthequarterdeck,mademywaytothebowofthesloop,andspenttheremainderofthedayinlookingahead;interestingmyselfinwhatwasinthedistance,ratherthanwhatwasnearbyorbehind。Thevessels,sweepingalongthebay,wereveryinterestingobjects。Thebroadbayopenedlikeashorelessoceanonmyboyishvision,fillingmewithwonderandadmiration。

Lateintheafternoon,wereachedAnnapolis,thecapitalofthestate,stoppingtherenotlongenoughtoadmitofmygoingashore。ItwasthefirstlargetownIhadeverseen;andthoughitwasinferiortomanyafactoryvillageinNewEngland,myfeelings,onseeingit,wereexcitedtoapitchverylittlebelowthatreachedbytravelersatthefirstviewofRome。Thedomeofthestatehousewasespeciallyimposing,andsurpassedingrandeurtheappearanceofthegreathouse。Thegreatworldwasopeninguponmeveryrapidly,andIwaseagerlyacquaintingmyselfwithitsmultifariouslessons。

WearrivedinBaltimoreonSundaymorning,andlandedatSmith"swharf,notfarfromBowly"swharf。Wehadonboardthesloopalargeflockofsheep,fortheBaltimoremarket;and,afterassistingindrivingthemtotheslaughterhouseofMr。Curtis,onLoudonSlater"sHill,IwasspeedilyconductedbyRich——oneofthehandsbelongingtothesloop——tomynewhomeinAllicianastreet,nearGardiner"sship-yard,onFell"sPoint。Mr。andMrs。

HughAuld,mynewmistressandmaster,werebothathome,andmetmeatthedoorwiththeirrosycheekedlittleson,Thomas,<108>totakecareofwhomwastoconstitutemyfutureoccupation。

Infact,itwasto“littleTommy,“ratherthantohisparents,thatoldmastermadeapresentofme;andthoughtherewasno_legal_formorarrangemententeredinto,IhavenodoubtthatMr。andMrs。Auldfeltthat,induetime,Ishouldbethelegalpropertyoftheirbright-eyedandbelovedboy,Tommy。Iwasstruckwiththeappearance,especially,ofmynewmistress。Herfacewaslightedwiththekindliestemotions;andthereflexinfluenceofhercountenance,aswellasthetendernesswithwhichsheseemedtoregardme,whileaskingmesundrylittlequestions,greatlydelightedme,andlitup,tomyfancy,thepathwayofmyfuture。MissLucretiawaskind;butmynewmistress,“MissSophy,“surpassedherinkindnessofmanner。

LittleThomaswasaffectionatelytoldbyhismother,that_“therewashisFreddy,“_andthat“Freddywouldtakecareofhim;“andI

wastoldto“bekindtolittleTommy“——aninjunctionIscarcelyneeded,forIhadalreadyfalleninlovewiththedearboy;andwiththeselittleceremoniesIwasinitiatedintomynewhome,andentereduponmypeculiarduties,withnotacloudabovethehorizon。

Imaysayhere,thatIregardmyremovalfromCol。Lloyd"splantationasoneofthemostinterestingandfortunateeventsofmylife。Viewingitinthelightofhumanlikelihoods,itisquiteprobablethat,butforthemerecircumstanceofbeingthusremovedbeforetherigorsofslaveryhadfasteneduponme;beforemyyoungspirithadbeencrushedundertheironcontroloftheslave-driver,insteadofbeing,today,aFREEMAN,Imighthavebeenwearingthegallingchainsofslavery。Ihavesometimesfelt,however,thattherewassomethingmoreintelligentthan_chance_,andsomethingmorecertainthan_luck_,tobeseeninthecircumstance。IfIhavemadeanyprogressinknowledge;ifI

havecherishedanyhonorableaspirations,orhave,inanymanner,worthilydischargedthedutiesofamemberofanoppressedpeople;thislittlecircumstancemustbealloweditsdueweight<109ATURNINGPOINTINMYHISTORY>ingivingmylifethatdirection。Ihaveeverregardeditasthefirstplainmanifestationofthat_Divinitythatshapesourends,Roughhewthemaswewill_。

IwasnottheonlyboyontheplantationthatmighthavebeensenttoliveinBaltimore。Therewasawidemarginfromwhichtoselect。Therewereboysyounger,boysolder,andboysofthesameage,belongingtomyoldmastersomeathisownhouse,andsomeathisfarm——butthehighprivilegefelltomylot。

Imaybedeemedsuperstitiousandegotistical,inregardingthiseventasaspecialinterpositionofDivineProvidenceinmyfavor;butthethoughtisapartofmyhistory,andIshouldbefalsetotheearliestandmostcherishedsentimentsofmysoul,ifIsuppressed,orhesitatedtoavowthatopinion,althoughitmaybecharacterizedasirrationalbythewise,andridiculousbythescoffer。Frommyearliestrecollectionsofseriousmatters,Idatetheentertainmentofsomethinglikeanineffaceableconviction,thatslaverywouldnotalwaysbeabletoholdmewithinitsfoulembrace;andthisconviction,likeawordoflivingfaith,strengthenedmethroughthedarkesttrialsofmylot。ThisgoodspiritwasfromGod;andtohimIofferthanksgivingandpraise。

CHAPTERX

LifeinBaltimoreCITYANNOYANCES——PLANTATIONREGRETS——MYMISTRESS,MISSSOPHA——HER

HISTORY——HERKINDNESSTOME——MYMASTER,HUGHAULD——HISSOURNESS——

MYINCREASEDSENSITIVENESS——MYCOMFORTS——MYOCCUPATION——THE

BANEFULEFFECTSOFSLAVEHOLDINGONMYDEARANDGOODMISTRESS——HOW

SHECOMMENCEDTEACHINGMETOREAD——WHYSHECEASEDTEACHINGME——

CLOUDSGATHERINGOVERMYBRIGHTPROSPECTS——MASTERAULD"S

EXPOSITIONOFTHETRUEPHILOSOPHYOFSLAVERY——CITYSLAVES——

PLANTATIONSLAVES——THECONTRAST——EXCEPTIONS——MR。HAMILTON"STWO

SLAVES,HENRIETTAANDMARY——MRS。HAMILTON"SCRUELTREATMENTOF

THEM——THEPITEOUSASPECTTHEYPRESENTED——NOPOWERMUSTCOME

BETWEENTHESLAVEANDTHESLAVEHOLDER。

OnceinBaltimore,withhardbrickpavementsundermyfeet,whichalmostraisedblisters,bytheirveryheat,foritwasintheheightofsummer;walledinonallsidesbytoweringbrickbuildings;withtroopsofhostileboysreadytopounceuponmeateverystreetcorner;withnewandstrangeobjectsglaringuponmeateverystep,andwithstartlingsoundsreachingmyearsfromalldirections,Iforatimethoughtthat,afterall,thehomeplantationwasamoredesirableplaceofresidencethanmyhomeonAllicianastreet,inBaltimore。Mycountryeyesandearswereconfusedandbewilderedhere;buttheboysweremychieftrouble。

Theychasedme,andcalledme_“EasternShoreman,“_tillreallyIalmostwishedmyselfbackontheEasternShore。Ihadtoundergoasortofmoralacclimation,andwhenthatwasover,I

didmuchbetter。Mynewmistresshappilyprovedtobeallshe_seemed_tobe,when,withherhusband,shemetmeat<111

KINDNESSOFMYNEWMISTRESS>thedoor,withamostbeaming,benignantcountenance。Shewas,naturally,ofanexcellentdisposition,kind,gentleandcheerful。Thesuperciliouscontemptfortherightsandfeelingsoftheslave,andthepetulanceandbadhumorwhichgenerallycharacterizeslaveholdingladies,wereallquiteabsentfromkind“Miss“Sophia"smannerandbearingtowardme。Shehad,intruth,neverbeenaslaveholder,buthad——athingquiteunusualinthesouth——

dependedalmostentirelyuponherownindustryforaliving。Tothisfactthedearlady,nodoubt,owedtheexcellentpreservationofhernaturalgoodnessofheart,forslaverycanchangeasaintintoasinner,andanangelintoademon。I

hardlyknewhowtobehavetoward“MissSopha,“asIusedtocallMrs。HughAuld。Ihadbeentreatedasa_pig_ontheplantation;

Iwastreatedasa_child_now。IcouldnotevenapproachherasIhadformerlyapproachedMrs。ThomasAuld。HowcouldIhangdownmyhead,andspeakwithbatedbreath,whentherewasnopridetoscornme,nocoldnesstorepelme,andnohatredtoinspiremewithfear?Ithereforesoonlearnedtoregardherassomethingmoreakintoamother,thanaslaveholdingmistress。

Thecrouchingservilityofaslave,usuallysoacceptableaqualitytothehaughtyslaveholder,wasnotunderstoodnordesiredbythisgentlewoman。Sofarfromdeemingitimpudentinaslavetolookherstraightintheface,assomeslaveholdingladiesdo,sheseemedevertosay,“lookup,child;don"tbeafraid;see,Iamfullofkindnessandgoodwilltowardyou。“

ThehandsbelongingtoCol。Lloyd"ssloop,esteemeditagreatprivilegetobethebearersofparcelsormessagestomynewmistress;forwhenevertheycame,theyweresureofamostkindandpleasantreception。IflittleThomaswasherson,andhermostdearlybelovedchild,she,foratime,atleast,mademesomethinglikehishalf-brotherinheraffections。IfdearTommywasexaltedtoaplaceonhismother"sknee,“Feddy“washonoredbyaplaceathismother"sside。Nordidhelackthecaressingstrokesofhergentlehand,toconvincehimthat,though_motherless_,hewasnot_friendless_。Mrs。Auld<112>wasnotonlyakind-heartedwoman,butshewasremarkablypious;frequentinherattendanceofpublicworship,muchgiventoreadingthebible,andtochantinghymnsofpraise,whenalone。Mr。HughAuldwasaltogetheradifferentcharacter。Hecaredverylittleaboutreligion,knewmoreoftheworld,andwasmoreoftheworld,thanhiswife。Hesetout,doubtlesstobe——astheworldgoes——arespectableman,andtogetonbybecomingasuccessfulshipbuilder,inthatcityofshipbuilding。Thiswashisambition,anditfullyoccupiedhim。Iwas,ofcourse,ofverylittleconsequencetohim,comparedwithwhatIwastogoodMrs。

Auld;and,whenhesmileduponme,ashesometimesdid,thesmilewasborrowedfromhislovelywife,and,likeallborrowedlight,wastransient,andvanishedwiththesourcewhenceitwasderived。WhileImustcharacterizeMasterHughasbeingaverysourman,andofforbiddingappearance,itisduetohimtoacknowledge,thathewasneververycrueltome,accordingtothenotionofcrueltyinMaryland。ThefirstyearortwowhichI

spentinhishouse,heleftmealmostexclusivelytothemanagementofhiswife。Shewasmylaw-giver。Inhandssotenderashers,andintheabsenceofthecrueltiesoftheplantation,Ibecame,bothphysicallyandmentally,muchmoresensitivetogoodandilltreatment;and,perhaps,sufferedmorefromafrownfrommymistress,thanIformerlydidfromacuffatthehandsofAuntKaty。Insteadofthecold,dampfloorofmyoldmaster"skitchen,Ifoundmyselfoncarpets;forthecornbaginwinter,Inowhadagoodstrawbed,wellfurnishedwithcovers;forthecoarsecorn-mealinthemorning,Inowhadgoodbread,andmushoccasionally;formypoortow-lienshirt,reachingtomyknees,Ihadgood,cleanclothes。Iwasreallywelloff。Myemploymentwastorunerrands,andtotakecareofTommy;topreventhisgettinginthewayofcarriages,andtokeephimoutofharm"swaygenerally。Tommy,andI,andhismother,gotonswimminglytogether,foratime。Isay_foratime_,becausethefatalpoisonofirresponsiblepower,andthenaturalinfluence<113LEARNINGTOREAD>ofslaverycustoms,werenotlonginmakingasuitableimpressiononthegentleandlovingdispositionofmyexcellentmistress。Atfirst,Mrs。Auldevidentlyregardedmesimplyasachild,likeanyotherchild;

shehadnotcometoregardmeas_property_。Thislatterthoughtwasathingofconventionalgrowth。Thefirstwasnaturalandspontaneous。Anoblenature,likehers,couldnot,instantly,bewhollyperverted;andittookseveralyearstochangethenaturalsweetnessofhertemperintofretfulbitterness。Inherworstestate,however,therewere,duringthefirstsevenyearsIlivedwithher,occasionalreturnsofherformerkindlydisposition。

Thefrequenthearingofmymistressreadingthebibleforsheoftenreadaloudwhenherhusbandwasabsentsoonawakenedmycuriosityinrespecttothis_mystery_ofreading,androusedinmethedesiretolearn。Havingnofearofmykindmistressbeforemyeyes,(shehadthengivenmenoreasontofear,)I

franklyaskedhertoteachmetoread;and,withouthesitation,thedearwomanbeganthetask,andverysoon,byherassistance,Iwasmasterofthealphabet,andcouldspellwordsofthreeorfourletters。Mymistressseemedalmostasproudofmyprogress,asifIhadbeenherownchild;and,supposingthatherhusbandwouldbeaswellpleased,shemadenosecretofwhatshewasdoingforme。Indeed,sheexultinglytoldhimoftheaptnessofherpupil,ofherintentiontopersevereinteachingme,andofthedutywhichshefeltittoteachme,atleasttoread_thebible_。HerearosethefirstcloudovermyBaltimoreprospects,theprecursorofdrenchingrainsandchillingblasts。

MasterHughwasamazedatthesimplicityofhisspouse,and,probablyforthefirsttime,heunfoldedtoherthetruephilosophyofslavery,andthepeculiarrulesnecessarytobeobservedbymastersandmistresses,inthemanagementoftheirhumanchattels。Mr。Auldpromptlyforbadecontinuanceofherinstruction;tellingher,inthefirstplace,thatthethingitselfwasunlawful;thatitwasalsounsafe,andcouldonlyleadtomischief。Touse<114>hisownwords,further,hesaid,“ifyougiveaniggeraninch,hewilltakeanell;““heshouldknownothingbutthewillofhismaster,andlearntoobeyit。““ifyouteachthatnigger——speakingofmyself——howtoreadthebible,therewillbenokeepinghim;““itwouldforeverunfithimforthedutiesofaslave;“and“astohimself,learningwoulddohimnogood,butprobably,agreatdealofharm——makinghimdisconsolateandunhappy。““Ifyoulearnhimnowtoread,he"llwanttoknowhowtowrite;and,thisaccomplished,he"llberunningawaywithhimself。“SuchwasthetenorofMasterHugh"soracularexpositionofthetruephilosophyoftrainingahumanchattel;anditmustbeconfessedthatheveryclearlycomprehendedthenatureandtherequirementsoftherelationofmasterandslave。Hisdiscoursewasthefirstdecidedlyanti-

slaverylecturetowhichithadbeenmylottolisten。Mrs。Auldevidentlyfelttheforceofhisremarks;and,likeanobedientwife,begantoshapehercourseinthedirectionindicatedbyherhusband。Theeffectofhiswords,_onme_,wasneitherslightnortransitory。Hisironsentences——coldandharsh——sunkdeepintomyheart,andstirredupnotonlymyfeelingsintoasortofrebellion,butawakenedwithinmeaslumberingtrainofvitalthought。Itwasanewandspecialrevelation,dispellingapainfulmystery,againstwhichmyyouthfulunderstandinghadstruggled,andstruggledinvain,towit:the_white_man"spowertoperpetuatetheenslavementofthe_black_man。“Verywell,“

thoughtI;“knowledgeunfitsachildtobeaslave。“I

instinctivelyassentedtotheproposition;andfromthatmomentI

understoodthedirectpathwayfromslaverytofreedom。ThiswasjustwhatIneeded;andIgotitatatime,andfromasource,whenceIleastexpectedit。Iwassaddenedatthethoughtoflosingtheassistanceofmykindmistress;buttheinformation,soinstantlyderived,tosomeextentcompensatedmeforthelossIhadsustainedinthisdirection。WiseasMr。Auldwas,heevidentlyunderratedmycomprehension,andhadlittleideaoftheusetowhichIwascapableofputting<115CITYSLAVESAND

COUNTRYSLAVES>theimpressivelessonhewasgivingtohiswife。

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