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`No,no!Whathaveyoudone,whathaveyoudone,thatyoushouldkneeltous!Weknownow,whatastruggleyoumadeofold。Weknownow,whatyouunderwentwhenyoususpectedmydescent,andwhenyouknewit。
Weknownow,thenaturalantipathyyoustroveagainst,andconquered,forherdearsake。Wethankyouwithallourhearts,andallourloveandduty。
Heavenbewithyou!"
Herfather"sonlyanswerwastodrawhishandsthroughhiswhitehair,andwringthemwithashriekofanguish。
`Itcouldnotbeotherwise,"saidtheprisoner。`Allthingshaveworkedtogetherastheyhavefallenout。Itwasthealways-vainendeavourtodischargemypoormother"strustthatfirstbroughtmyfatalpresencenearyou。Goodcouldnevercomeofsuchevil,ahappierendwasnotinnaturetosounhappyabeginning。Becomforted,andforgiveme。Heavenblessyou!"
Ashewasdrawnaway,hiswifereleasedhim,andstoodlookingafterhimwithherhandstouchingoneanotherintheattitudeofprayer,andwitharadiantlookuponherface,inwhichtherewasevenacomfortingsmile。Ashewentoutattheprisoners"door,sheturned,laidherheadlovinglyonherfather"sbreast,triedtospeaktohim,andfellathisfeet。
Then,issuingfromtheobscurecornerfromwhichhehadnevermoved,SydneyCartoncameandtookherup。OnlyherfatherandMr。Lorrywerewithher。Hisarmtrembledasitraisedher,andsupportedherhead。
Yet,therewasanairabouthimthatwasnotallofpity——thathadaflushofprideinit。
`ShallItakehertoacoach?Ishallneverfeelherweight。"
Hecarriedherlightlytothedoor,andlaidhertenderlydowninacoach。Herfatherandtheiroldfriendgotintoit,andhetookhisseatbesidethedriver。
Whentheyarrivedatthegatewaywherehehadpausedinthedarknotmanyhoursbefore,topicturetohimselfonwhichoftheroughstonesofthestreetherfeethadtrodden,heliftedheragain,andcarriedherupthestaircasetotheirrooms。There,helaidherdownonacouch,whereherchildandMissProssweptoverher。
`Don"trecallhertoherself,"hesaid,softly,tothelatter,`sheisbetterso。Don"trevivehertoconsciousness,whilesheonlyfaints。"
`Oh,Carton,Carton,dearCarton!"criedlittleLucie,springingupandthrowingherarmspassionatelyroundhim,inaburstofgrief。`Nowthatyouhavecome,Ithinkyouwilldosomethingtohelpmamma,somethingtosavepapa!O,lookather,dearCarton!Canyou,ofallthepeoplewholoveher,beartoseeherso?"
Hebentoverthechild,andlaidherbloomingcheekagainsthisface。Heputhergentlyfromhim,andlookedatherunconsciousmother。
`BeforeIgo,"hesaid,andpaused——"Imaykissher?"
Itwasrememberedafterwardsthatwhenhebentdownandtouchedherfacewithhislips,hemurmuredsomewords。Thechild,whowasnearesttohim,toldthemafterwards,andtoldhergrandchildrenwhenshewasahandsomeoldlady,thatsheheardhimsay,`Alifeyoulove。"
Whenhehadgoneoutintothenextroom,heturnedsuddenlyonMr。Lorryandherfather,whowerefollowing,andsaidtothelatter:
`Youhadgreatinfluencebutyesterday,DoctorManette;letitatleastbetried。Thesejudges,andallthemeninpower,ireveryfriendlytoyou,andveryrecognisantofyourservices;aretheynot?"
`NothingconnectedwithCharleswasconcealedfromme。IhadthestrongestassurancesthatIshouldsavehim;andIdid。"Hereturnedtheansweringreattrouble,andveryslowly。
`Trythemagain。Thehoursbetweenthisandto-morrowafternoonarefewandshort,buttry。"
`Iintendtotry。Iwillnotrestamoment。"
`That"swell。Ihaveknownsuchenergyasyoursdogreatthingsbeforenow——thoughnever,"headded,withasmileandasightogether,`suchgreatthingsasthis。Buttry!Oflittleworthaslifeiswhenwemisuseit,itisworththateffort。Itwouldcostnothingtolaydownifitwerenot。"
`Iwillgo,"saidDoctorManette,`totheProsecutorandthePresidentstraight,andIwillgotootherswhomitisbetternottoname。Iwillwritetoo,and——Butstay!Thereisacelebrationinthestreets,andnoonewillbeaccessibleuntildark。"
`That"strue。Well!Itisaforlornhopeatthebest,andnotmuchtheforlornerforbeingdelayedtilldark。Ishouldliketoknowhowyouspeed;though,mind!Iexpectnothing!Whenareyoulikelytohaveseenthesedreadpowers,DoctorManette?"
`Immediatelyafterdark,Ishouldhope。Withinanhourortwofromthis。"
`Itwillbedarksoonafterfour。Letusstretchthehourortwo。
IfIgotoMr。Lorry"satnine,shallIhearwhatyouhavedone,eitherfromourfriendorfromyourself?"
`Yes。"`Mayyouprosper!"
Mr。LorryfollowedSydneytotheouterdoor,and,touchinghimontheshoulderashewasgoingaway,causedhimtoturn。
`Ihavenohope,"saidMr。Lorry,inalowandsorrowfulwhisper。
`NorhaveI。"
`Ifanyoneofthesemen,orallofthesemen,weredisposedtosparehim——whichisalargesupposition;forwhatishislife,oranyman"stothem!——Idoubtiftheydurstsparehimafterthedemonstrationinthecourt。"
`AndsodoI。Iheardthefalloftheaxeinthatsound。"
Mr。Lorryleanedhisarmuponthedoor-post,andbowedhisfaceuponit。
`Don"tdespond,"saidCarton,verygently;`don"tgrieve。IencouragedDoctorManetteinthisidea,becauseIfeltthatitmightonedaybeconsolatorytoher。Otherwise,shemightthink"hislifewaswantonlythrownawayorwasted,"andthatmighttroubleher。"
`Yes,yes,yes,"returnedMr。Lorry,dryinghiseyes,`youareright。Buthewillperish;thereisnorealhope。
`Yes。Hewillperish:thereisnorealhope,"echoedCarton。Andwalkedwithasettledstep,down-stairs。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]ATaleofTwoCities:BooktheThird[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXIIDarknessSYDNEYCARTONpausedinthestreet,notquitedecidedwheretogo。`AtTellson"sbanking-houseatnine,"hesaid,withamusingface。`ShallI
dowell,inthemeantime,toshowmyself?Ithinkso。ItisbestthatthesepeopleshouldknowthereissuchamanasIhere;itisasoundprecaution,andmaybeanecessarypreparation。Butcare,care,care!Letmethinkitout!"
Checkinghissteps,whichhadbeguntotendtowardsanobject,hetookaturnortwointhealreadydarkeningstreet,andtracedthethoughtinhismindtoitspossibleconsequences。Hisfirstimpressionwasconfirmed。
`Itisbest,"hesaid,finallyresolved,`thatthesepeopleshouldknowthereissuchamanasIhere。"AndheturnedhisfacetowardsSaintAntoine。
Defargehaddescribedhimself,thatday,asthekeeperofawine-shopintheSaintAntoinesuburb。Itwasnotdifficultforonewhoknewthecitywell,tofindhishousewithoutaskinganyquestion。Havingascertaineditssituation,Cartoncameoutofthosecloserstreetsagain,anddinedataplaceofrefreshmentandfellsoundasleepafterdinner。Forthefirsttimeinmanyyears,hehadnostrongdrink。Sincelastnighthehadtakennothingbutalittlelightthinwine,andlastnighthehaddroppedthebrandyslowlydownonMr。Lorry"shearthlikeamanwhohaddonewithit。
Itwasaslateasseveno"clockwhenheawokerefreshed,andwentoutintothestreetsagain。AshepassedalongtowardsSaintAntoine,hestoppedatashop-windowwheretherewasamirror,andslightlyalteredthedisorderedarrangementofhisloosecravat,andhiscoat-collar,andhiswildhair。Thisdone,hewentondirecttoDefarge"s,andwentin。
TherehappenedtobenocustomerintheshopbutJacquesThree,oftherestlessfingersandthecroakingvoice。Thisman,whomhehadseenupontheJury,stooddrinkingatthelittlecounter,inconversationwiththeDefarges,manandwife。TheVengeanceassistedintheconversation,likearegularmemberoftheestablishment。
AsCartonwalkedin,tookhisseatandasked(inveryindifferentFrench)forasmallmeasureofwine,MadameDefargecastacarelessglanceathim,andthenakeener,andthenakeener,andthenadvancedtohimherself,andaskedhimwhatitwashehadordered。
Herepeatedwhathehadalreadysaid。
`English?"askedMadameDefarge,inquisitivelyraisingherdarkeyebrows。
Afterlookingather,asifthesoundofevenasingleFrenchwordwereslowtoexpressitselftohim,heanswered,inhisformerstrongforeignaccent,`Yes,madame,yes。IamEnglish!"
MadameDefargereturnedtohercountertogetthewine,and,ashetookupaJacobinjournalandfeignedtoporeoveritpuzzlingoutitsmeaning,heheardhersay,`Isweartoyou,likeEvré;monde!"
Defargebroughthimthewine,andgavehimGoodEvening。
`How?"
`Goodevening。"
`Oh!Goodevening,citizen,"fillinghisglass。`Ah!andgoodwine。IdrinktotheRepublic。"
Defargewentbacktothecounter,andsaid,`Certainly,alittlelike。"Madamesternlyretorted,`Itellyouagooddeallike。"JacquesThreepacificallyremarked,`Heissomuchinyourmind,seeyou,madame。"
TheamiableVengeanceadded,withalaugh,`Yes,myfaith!Andyouarelookingforwardwithsomuchpleasuretoseeinghimoncemoreto-morrow!"
Cartonfollowedthelinesandwordsofhispaper,withaslowforefinger,andwithastudiousandabsorbedface。Theywereallleaningtheirarmsonthecounterclosetogether,speakinglow。Afterasilenceofafewmoments,duringwhichtheyalllookedtowardshimwithoutdisturbinghisoutwardattentionfromtheJacobineditor,theyresumedtheirconversation。
`Itistruewhatmadamesays,"observedJacquesThree。`Whystop?
Thereisgreatforceinthat。Whystop?"
`Well,well,"reasonedDefarge,`butonemuststopsomewhere。
Afterall,thequestionisstillwhere?"
`Atextermination,"saidmadame。
`Magnificent!"croakedJacquesThree。TheVengeance,also,highlyapproved。
`Exterminationisgooddoctrine,mywife,"saidDefarge,rathertroubled;`ingeneral,Isaynothingagainstit。ButthisDoctorhassufferedmuch;youhaveseenhimto-day;youhaveobservedhisfacewhenthepaperwasread。"
`Ihaveobservedhisface!"repeatedmadame,contemptuouslyandangrily。`Yes。Ihaveobservedhisface。IhaveobservedhisfacetobenotthefaceofatruefriendoftheRepublic。Lethimtakecareofhisface!"
`Andyouhaveobserved,mywife,"saidDefarge,inadeprecatorymanner,`theanguishofhisdaughter,whichmustbeadreadfulanguishtohim!"
`Ihaveobservedhisdaughter,"repeatedmadame;`yes,Ihaveobservedhisdaughter,moretimesthanone。Ihaveobservedherto-day,andIhaveobservedherotherdays。Ihaveobservedherinthecourt,andIhaveobservedherinthestreetbytheprison。Letmebutliftmyfinger——!"
Sheseemedtoraiseit(thelistener"seyeswerealwaysonhispaper),andtoletitfallwitharattleontheledgebeforeher,asiftheaxehaddropped。
`Thecitizenessissuperb!"croakedtheJuryman。
`SheisanAngel!"saidTheVengeance,andembracedher。
`Astothee,"pursuedmadame,implacably,addressingherhusband,`ifitdependedonthee——which,happily,itdoesnot——thouwouldstrescuethismanevennow。
`No!"protestedDefarge。`Notiftoliftthisglasswoulddoit!
ButIwouldleavethematterthere。Isay,stopthere。"
`Seeyouthen,Jacques,"saidMadameDefarge,wrathfully;`andseeyou,too,mylittleVengeance;seeyouboth!Listen!Forothercrimesastyrantsandoppressors,Ihavethisracealongtimeonmyregister,doomedtodestructionandextermination。Askmyhusband,isthatso。"
`Itisso,"assentedDefarge,withoutbeingasked。
`Inthebeginningofthegreatdays,whentheBastillefalls,hefindsthispaperofto-day,andhebringsithome,andinthemiddleofthenightwhenthisplaceisclearandshut,wereadit,hereonthisspot,bythelightofthislamp。Askhim,isthatso。"
`Itisso,"assentedDefarge。
`Thatnight,Itellhim,whenthepaperisreadthrough,andthelampisburntout,andthedayisgleaminginabovethoseshuttersandbetweenthoseironbars,thatIhavenowasecrettocommunicate。Askhim,isthatso。"
`Itisso,"assentedDefargeagain。
`Icommunicatetohimthatsecret。IsmitethisbosomwiththesetwohandsasIsmiteitnow,andItellhim,"Defarge,Iwasbroughtupamongthefishermenofthesea-shore,andthatpeasantfamilysoinjuredbythetwoEvré;mondebrothers,asthatBastillepaperdescribes,ismyfamily。Defarge,thatsisterofthemortallywoundedboyuponthegroundwasmysister,thathusbandwasmysister"shusband,thatunbornchildwastheirchild,thatbrotherwasmybrother,thatfatherwasmyfather,thosedeadaremydead,andthatsummonstoanswerforthosethingsdescendstome!"Askhim,isthatso。"
`Itisso,"assentedDefargeoncemore。
`ThentellWindandFirewheretostop,"returnedmadame;`butdon"ttellme。"
Bothherhearersderivedahorribleenjoymentfromthedeadlynatureofherwrath——thelistenercouldfeelhowwhiteshewas,withoutseeingher——andbothhighlycommendedit。Defarge,aweakminority,interposedafewwordsforthememoryofthecompassionatewifeoftheMarquis;butonlyelicitedfromhisownwifearepetitionofherlastreply。`TelltheWindandtheFirewheretostop;notme!"
Customersentered,andthegroupwasbrokenup。TheEnglishcustomerpaidforwhathehadhad,perplexedlycountedhischange,andasked,asastranger,tobedirectedtowardstheNationalPalace。MadameDefargetookhimtothedoor,andputherarmonhis,inpointingouttheroad。
TheEnglishcustomerwasnotwithouthisreflectionsthen,thatitmightbeagooddeedtoseizethatarm,liltit,andstrikeunderitsharpanddeep。
But,hewenthisway,andwassoonswallowedupintheshadowoftheprisonwall。Attheappointedhour,heemergedfromittopresenthimselfinMr。Lorry"sroomagain,wherehefoundtheoldgentlemanwalkingtoandfroinrestlessanxiety。HesaidhehadbeenwithLucieuntiljustnow,andhadonlyleftherforafewminutes,tocomeandkeephisappointment。
Herfatherhadnotbeenseen,sincehequittedthebankinghousetowardsfouro"clock。ShehadsomefainthopesthathismediationmightsaveCharles,buttheywereveryslight。Hehadbeenmorethanfivehoursgone:wherecouldhebe?
Mr。Lorrywaiteduntilten;but,DoctorManettenotreturning,andhebeingunwillingtoleaveLucieanylonger,itwasarrangedthatheshouldgobacktoher,andcometothebanking-houseagainatmidnight。
Inthemeanwhile,CartonwouldwaitalonebythefirefortheDoctor。Hewaitedandwaited,andtheclockstrucktwelve;butDoctorManettedidnotcomeback。Mr。Lorryreturned,andfoundnotidingsofhim,andbroughtnone。Wherecouldhebe?
Theywerediscussingthisquestion,andwerealmostbuildingupsomeweakstructureofhopeonhisprolongedabsence,whentheyheardhimonthestairs。Theinstantheenteredtheroom,itwasplainthatallwaslost。
Whetherhehadreallybeentoanyone,orwhetherhehadbeenallthattimetraversingthestreets,wasneverknown。Ashestoodstaringatthem,theyaskedhimnoquestion,forhisfacetoldthemeverything。
`Icannotfindit,"saidhe,`andImusthaveit。Whereisit?"
Hisheadandthroatwerebare,and,ashespokewithahelplesslookstrayingallaround,hetookhiscoatoff,andletitdroponthefloor。
`Whereismybench?Ihavebeenlookingeverywhereformybench,andIcan"tfindit。Whathavethey,donewithmywork?Timepresses:I
mustfinishthoseshoes。
Theylookedatoneanother,andtheirheartsdiedwithinthem。
`Come,come!"saidhe,inawhimperingmiserableway;`letmegettowork。Givememywork。"
Receivingnoanswer,hetorehishair,andbeathisfeetupontheground,likeadistractedchild。
`Don"ttortureapoorforlornwretch,"heimploredthem,withadreadfulcry;`butgivememywork!Whatistobecomeofus,ifthoseshoesarenotdoneto-night?"
Lost,utterlylost!
Itwassoclearlybeyondhopetoreasonwithhim,ortrytorestorehim,——that——asifbyagreement——theyeachputahanduponhisshoulder,andsoothedhimtositdownbeforethefire,withapromisethatheshouldhavehisworkpresently。Hesankintothechair,andbroodedovertheembers,andshedtears。Asifallthathadhappenedsincethegarrettimewereamomentaryfancy,oradream,Mr。LorrysawhimshrinkintotheexactfigurethatDefargehadhadinkeeping。
Affected,andimpressedwithterrorastheybothwere,bythisspectacleofruin,itwasnotatimetoyieldtosuchemotions。Hislonelydaughter,bereftofherfinalhopeandreliance,appealedtothembothtoostrongly。Again,asifbyagreement,theylookedatoneanotherwithonemeaningintheirfaces。Cartonwasthefirsttospeak:
`Thelastchanceisgone:Itwasnotmuch。Yes;hehadbetterbetakentoher。But,beforeyougo,willyou,foramoment,steadilyattendtome?Don"taskmewhyImakethestipulationsIamgoingtomake,andexactthepromiseIamgoingtoexact;Ihaveareason——agoodone。"
`Idonotdoubtit,"answeredMr。Lorry。`Sayon。"
Thefigureinthechairbetweenthem,wasallthetimemonotonouslyrockingitselftoandfro,andmoaning。Theyspokeinsuchatoneastheywouldhaveusediftheyhadbeenwatchingbyasick-bedintilenight。
Cartonstoopedtopickupthecoat,whichlayalmostentanglinghisfeet。Ashedidso,asmallcaseinwhichtheDoctorwasaccustomedtocarrythelistofhisday"sduties,felllightlyonthefloor。Cartontookitup,andtherewasafoldedpaperinit。`Weshouldlookatthis!"
hesaid。Mr。Lorrynoddedhisconsent。Heopenedit,andexclaimed,`ThankGOD"
`Whatisit?"askedMr。Lorry,eagerly。
`Amoment!Letmespeakofitinitsplace。First,"heputhishandinhiscoat,andtookanotherpaperfromit,`thatisthecertificatewhichenablesmetopassoutofthiscity。Lookatit。Yousee——SydneyCarton,anEnglishman?"
Mr。Lorryhelditopeninhishand,gazinginhisearnestface。
`Keepitformeuntilto-morrow。Ishallseehimto-morrow,youremember;andIhadbetternottakeitintotheprison。"
`Whynot?"
`Idon"tknow;Iprefernottodoso。Now,takethispaperthatDoctorManettehascarriedabouthim。Itisasimilarcertificate,enablinghimandhisdaughterandherchildatanytime,topassthebarrierandthefrontier?Yousee?"
`Yes!"
`Perhapsheobtaineditashislastandutmostprecautionagainstevil,yesterday。Whenisitdated?Butnomatter;don"tstaytolook;putitupcarefullywit!,mineandyourown。Now,observe!Ineverdoubteduntilwithinthishourortwo,tathehad,orcouldhavesuchapaper。
Itisgood,untilrecalled。Butitmaybesoonrecalled,and,Ihavereasontothink,willbe。"
`Theyarenotindanger?"
`Theyareingreatdanger。TheyareindangerofdenunciationbyMadameDefarge。Iknowitfromherownlips。Ihaveoverheardwordsofthatwoman"s,to-night,whichhavepresentedtheirdangertomeinstrongcolours。Ihavelostnotime,andsincethen,Ihaveseenthespy。Heconfirmsme。Heknowsthatawood-sawyer,livingbytheprison-wall,isunderthecontroloftheDefarges,andhasbeenrehearsedbyMadameDefargeastohishavingseenHer"——henevermentionedLucie"sname——"makingsignsandsignalstoprisoners。Itiseasytoforeseethatthepretencewillbethecommonone,aprisonplot,andthatitwillinvolveherlife——andperhapsherchild"s——andperhapsherfather"s——forbothhavebeenseenwithheratthatplace。Don"tlooksohorrified。Youwillsavethemall。"
`HeavengrantImay,Carton!Buthow?"
`Iamgoingtotellyouhow。Itwilldependonyou,anditcoulddependonnobetterman。Thisnewdenunciationwillcertainlynottakeplaceuntilafterto-morrow;probablynotuntiltwoorthreedaysafterwards;
moreprobablyaweekafterwards。Youknowitisacapitalcrime,tomournfor,orsympathisewith,avictimoftheGuillotine。Sheandherfatherwouldunquestionablybeguiltyofthiscrime,andthiswoman(theinveteracyofwhosepursuitcannotbedescribed)wouldwaittoaddthatstrengthtohercase,andmakeherselfdoublysure。Youfollowme?"
`Soattentively,andwithsomuchconfidenceinwhatyousay,thatforthemomentIlosesight,"touchingthebackoftheDoctor"schair,`evenofthisdistress。"
`Youhavemoney,andcanbuythemeansoftravellingtotileSea-coastasquicklyasthejourneycanbemade。Yourpreparationshavebeencompletedforsomedays,toreturntoEngland。Earlyto-morrowhaveyourhorsesready,sothattheymaybeinstartingtrimattwoo"clockintheafternoon。"
`Itshallbedone!"
Hismannerwassoferventandinspiring,thatMr。Lorrycaughttheflame,andwasasquickasyouth。
`Youareanobleheart。DidIsaywecoulddependuponnobetterman?Tellher,to-night,whatyouknowofherdangerasinvolvingherchildandherfather。Dwelluponthat,forshewouldlayherownfairheadbesideherhusband"scheerfully。"Hefalteredforaninstant;thenwentonasbefore。`Forthesakeofherchildandherfather,pressuponherthenecessityofleavingParis,withthemandyou,atthathour。Tellherthatitwasherhusband"slastarrangement。Tellherthatmoredependsuponitthanshedarebelieve,orhope。Youthinkthatherfather,eveninthissadstate,willsubmithimselftoher;doyounot?"
`Iamsureofit。"
`Ithoughtso。Quietlyandsteadilyhaveallthesearrangementsmadeinthecourt-yardhere,eventothetakingofyourownseatinthecarriage。ThemomentIcometoyou,takemein,anddriveaway。"
`IunderstandthatIwaitforyouunderallcircumstances?"
`Youhavemycertificateinyourhandwiththerest,youknow,andwillreservemyplace。Waitfornothingbuttohavemyplaceoccupied,andthenforEngland!"
`Why,then,"saidMr。Lorry,graspinghiseagerbutsofirmandsteadyhand,`itdoesnotalldependononeoldman,butIshallhaveayoungandardentmanatmyside。"
`BythehelpofHeavenyoushall!Promisemesolemnlythatnothingwillinfluenceyoutoalterthecourseonwhichwenowstandpledgedtooneanother。"
`Nothing,Carton。"
`Rememberthesewordsto-morrow:changethecourse,ordelayinit——foranyreason——andnolifecanpossiblybesaved,andmanylivesmustinevitablybesacrificed。"
`Iwillrememberthem。Ihopetodomypartfaithfully。"`AndIhopetodomine。Now,good-bye!"
Thoughhesaiditwithagravesmileofearnestness,andthoughlieevenputtheoldman"shandtohislips,hedidnotpartfromhimthen。
Hehelpedhimsofartoarousetherockingfigurebeforethedyingembers,astogetacloakandhatputuponit,andtotemptitforthtofindwherethebenchandworkwerehiddenthatitstillmoaninglybesoughttohave。
Hewalkedontheothersideofitandprotectedittothecourt-yardofthehousewheretheafflictedheart——sohappyinthememorabletimewhenhehadrevealedhisowndesolatehearttoit——outwatchedtheawfulnight。
Heenteredthecourt-yardandremainedthereforafewmomentsalone,lopingupatthelightinthewindowofherroom。Beforehewentaway,hebreathedablessingtowardsit,andaFarewell。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]ATaleofTwoCities:BooktheThird[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXIIIFifty-twoINtheblackprisonoftheConciergerie,thedoomedofthedayawaitedtheirfate。Theywereinnumberastheweeksoftheyear。Fifty-twoweretorollthatafternoononthelife-tideofthecitytotheboundlesseverlastingsea。Beforetheircellswerequitofthem,newoccupantswereappointed;
beforetheirbloodranintothebloodspilledyesterday,thebloodthatwastominglewiththeirsto-morrowwasalreadysetapart。
TwoscoreandtwelveweretoldoffFromthefarmer-generalofseventy,whoserichescouldnotbuyhislife,totheseamstressoftwenty,whosepovertyandobscuritycouldnotsaveher。Physicaldiseases,engenderedinthevicesandneglectsofmen,willseizeonvictimsofalldegrees;
andthefrightfulmoraldisorder,bornofunspeakablesuffering,intolerableoppression,andheartlessindifference,smoteequallywithoutdistinction。
CharlesDarnay,aloneinacell,hadsustainedhimselfwithnoflatteringdelusionsincehecametoitfromtheTribunal。Ineverylineofthenarrativehehadheard,hehadheardhiscondemnation。Hehadfullycomprehendedthatnopersonalinfluencecouldpossiblysavehim,thathewasvirtuallysentencedbythemillions,andthatunitscouldavailhimnothing。
Nevertheless,itwasnoteasy,withthefaceofhisbelovedwifefreshbeforehim,tocomposehismindtowhatitmustbear。Hisholdonlifewasstrong,anditwasvery,veryhardtoloosen;bygradualeffortsanddegreesunclosedalittlehere,itclenchedthetighterthere;andwhenhebroughthisstrengthtobearonthathandandityielded,thiswasclosedagain。Therewasahurry,too,inallhisthoughts,aturbulentandheatedworkingofhisheart,thatcontendedagainstresignation。Ifforamoment,hedidfeelresigned,thenhiswifeandchildwhohadtoliveafterhim,seemedtoprotestandtomakeitaselfishthing。
But,allthiswasatfirst。Beforelong,theconsiderationthattherewasnodisgraceinthefatehemustmeet,andthatnumberswentthesameroadwrongfully,andtroditfirmlyeveryday,spranguptostimulatehim。Nextfollowedthethoughtthatmuchofthefuturepeaceofmindenjoyablebythedearones,dependedonhisquietfortitude。So,bydegreeshecalmedintothebetterstate,whenhecouldraisehisthoughtsmuchhigher,anddrawcomfortdown。
Beforeithadsetindarkonthenightofhiscondemnation,hehadtravelledthusfaronhislastway。Beingallowedtopurchasethemeansofwriting,andalight,hesatdowntowriteuntilsuchtimeastheprisonlampsshouldbeextinguished。
HewrotealonglettertoLucie,showingherthathehadknownnothingofherfather"simprisonment,untilhehadheardofitfromherself,andthathehadbeenasignorantassheofhisfather"sanduncle"sresponsibilityforthatmisery,untilthepaperhadbeenread。Hehadalreadyexplainedtoherthathisconcealmentfromherselfofthenamehehadrelinquished,wastheonecondition——fullyintelligiblenow——thatherfatherhadattachedtotheirbetrothal,andwastheonepromisehehadstillexactedonthemorningoftheirmarriage。Heentreatedher,forherfather"ssake,nevertoseektoknowwhetherherfatherhadbecomeobliviousoftheexistenceofthepaper,orhadhaditrecalledtohim(forthemoment,orforgood),bythestoryoftheTower,onthatoldSundayunderthedearoldplane-treeinthegarden。Ifhehadpreservedanydefiniteremembranceofit,therecouldbenodoubtthathehadsupposeditdestroyedwiththeBastille,whenhehadfoundnomentionofitamongtherelicsofprisonerswhichthepopulacehaddiscoveredthere,andwhichhadbeendescribedtoalltheworld。Hebesoughther——thoughheaddedthatheknewitwasneedless——toconsoleherfather,byimpressinghimthrougheverytendermeansshecouldthinkof,withthetruththathehaddonenothingforwhichhecouldjustlyreproachhimself,buthaduniformlyforgottenhimselffortheirjointsakes。
Nexttoherpreservationofhisownlastgratefulloveandblessing,andherovercomingofhersorrow,todevoteherselftotheirdearchild,headjuredher,astheywouldmeetinHeaven,tocomfortherfather。
Toherfatherhimselfhewroteinthesamestrain;but,hetoldherfatherthatheexpresslyconfidedhiswifeandchildtohiscare。Andhetoldhimthis,verystrongly,withthehopeofrousinghimfromanydespondencyordangerousretrospecttowardswhichheforesawhemightbetending。
ToMr。Lorry,hecommendedthemall,andexplainedhisworldlyaffairs。
Thatdone,withmanyaddedsentencesofgratefulfriendshipandwarmattachment,allwasdone。HeneverthoughtofCarton。Hismindwassofulloftheothers,thatheneveroncethoughtofhim。
Hehadtimetofinishtheselettersbeforethelightswereputout。Whenhelaydownonhisstrawbed,hethoughthehaddonewiththisworld。
But,itbeckonedhimbackinhissleep,andshoweditselfinshiningforms。Freeandhappy,backintheoldhouseinSoho(thoughithadnothinginitliketherealhouse),unaccountablyreleasedandlightofheart,hewaswithLucieagain,andshetoldhimitwasalladream,andhehadnevergoneaway。Apauseofforgetfulness,andthenliehadevensuffered,andhadcomebacktoher,deadandatpeace,andyettherewasnodifferenceinhim。Anotherpauseofoblivion,andheawokeinthesombremorning,unconsciouswherehewasorwhathadhappened,untilitflasheduponhismind,`thisisthedayofmydeath"
Thus,hadhecomethroughthehours,tothedaywhenthefifty-twoheadsweretofall。Andnow,whilehewascomposed,andhopedthathecouldmeettheendwithquietheroism,anewactionbeganinhiswakingthoughts,whichwasverydifficulttomaster。
Hehadneverseentheinstrumentthatwastoterminatehislife。
Howhighitwasfromtheground,howmanystepsithad,wherehewouldbestood,howhewouldbetouched,whetherthetouchinghandswouldbedyedred,whichwayhisfacewouldbeturned,whetherhewouldbethefirst,ormightbethelast:theseandmanysimilarquestions,innowisedirectedbyhiswill,obtrudedthemselvesoverandoveragain,countlesstimes。
Neitherweretheyconnectedwithfear:hewasconsciousofnofear。Rather,theyoriginatedinastrangebesettingdesiretoknowwhattodowhenthetimecame;adesiregiganticallydisproportionatetothefewswiftmomentstowhichitreferred;awonderingthatwasmorelikethewonderingofsomeotherspiritwithinhis,thanhisown。
Thehourswentonasliewalkedtoandfro,andtheclocksstruckthenumbershewouldneverhearagain。Nineconeforever,tengoneforever,elevengoneforever,twelvecomingontopassaway。Afterahardcontestwiththateccentricactionofthoughtwhichhadlastperplexedhim,hehadgotthebetterofit。Hewalkedupanddown,softlyrepeatingtheirnamestohimself。Theworstofthestrifewasover。Hecouldwalkupanddown,freefromdistractingfancies,prayingforhimselfandforthem。
Twelvegoneforever。
HehadbeenapprisedthatthefinalhourwasThree,andheknewhewouldbesummonedsometimeearlier,inasmuchasthetumbrilsjoltedheavilyandslowlythroughthestreets。Therefore,heresolvedtokeepTwobeforehismind,asthehour,andsotostrengthenhimselfintheintervalthathemightbeable,afterthattime,tostrengthenothers。
Walkingregularlytoandfrowithhisarmsfoldedonhisbreast,averydifferentmanfromtheprisoner,whohadwalkedtoandfroatLaForce,heheardOnestruckawayfromhim,withoutsurprise。Thehourhadmeasuredlikemostotherhours。DevoutlythankfultoHeavenforhisrecoveredself-possession,hethought,`Thereisbutanothernow,"andturnedtowalkagain。
Footstepsinthestonepassageoutsidethedoor。Hestopped。
Thekeywasputinthelock,andturned。Beforethedoorwasopened,orasitopened,amansaidinalowvoice,inEnglish:`Hehasneverseenmehere;Ihavekeptoutofhisway。Goyouinalone;Iwaitnear。Losenotime!"
Thedoorwasquicklyopenedandclosed,andtherestoodbeforehimfacetoface,quiet,intentuponhim,withthelightofasmileonhisfeatures,andacautionaryfingeronhislip,SydneyCarton。
Therewassomethingsobrightandremarkableinhislook,that,forthefirstmoment,theprisonermisdoubtedhimtobeanapparitionofhisownimagining。But,hespoke,anditwashisvoice;hetooktheprisoner"shand,anditwashisrealgrasp。
`Ofallthepeopleuponearth,youleastexpectedtoseeme?"
hesaid。
`Icouldnotbelieveittobeyou。Icanscarcelybelieveitnow。
Youarenot"——theapprehensioncamesuddenlyintohismind——`aprisoner?"
`No。Iamaccidentallypossessedofapoweroveroneofthekeepershere,andinvirtueofitIstandbeforeyou。Icomefromher——yourwife,dearDarnay。"
Theprisonerwrunghishand。
`Ibringyouarequestfromher。"
`Whatisit?"
`Amostearnest,pressing,andemphaticentreaty,addressedtoyouinthemostpathetictonesofthevoicesodeartoyou,thatyouwellremember。"
Theprisonerturnedhisfacepartlyaside。
`YouhavenotimetoaskmewhyIbringit,orwhatitmeans;
Ihavenotimetotellyou。Youmustcomplywithit——takeoffthosebootsyouwear,anddrawontheseofmine。"
Therewasachairagainstthewallofthecell,behindtheprisoner。
Carton,pressingforward,hadalready,withthespeedoflightning,gothimdownintoit,andstoodoverhim,barefoot。
`Drawonthesebootsofmine。Putyourhandstothem;putyourwilltothem。Quick!"
`Carton,thereisnoescapingfromthisplace;itnevercanbedone。Youwillonlydiewithme。Itismadness。"
`ItwouldbemadnessifIaskedyoutoescape;butdoI?
WhenIaskyoutopassoutatthatdoor,tellmeitismadnessandremainhere。Changethatcravatforthisofmine,thatcoatforthisofmine。
Whileyoudoit,letmetakethisribbonfromyourhair,andshakeoutyourhairlikethisofmine!"
Withwonderfulquickness,andwithastrengthbothofwillandaction,thatappearedquitesupernatural,heforcedallthesechangesuponhim。Theprisonerwaslikeayoungchildinhishands。
`Carton!DearCarton!Itismadness。Itcannotbeaccomplished,itnevercanbedone,ithasbeenattempted,andhasalwaysfailed。Iimploreyounottoaddyourdeathtothebitternessofmine。
`DoIaskyou,mydearDarnay,topassthedoor?WhenIaskthat,refuse。Therearepenandinkandpaperonthistable。Isyourhandsteadyenoughtowrite?"
`Itwaswhenyoucamein。