第5章
Nowwearefriends-seeeachotheralmosteveryday。Ihavemovedintothispart,youknow。Ihaveonlyjustmoved。I"vebeenwithhimtoLuiseIvanovnaonceortwice……DoyourememberLuise,LuiseIvanovna?
“DidIsayanythingindelirium？”
“Ishouldthinkso!Youwerebesideyourself。“
“WhatdidIraveabout？”
“Whatnext?Whatdidyouraveabout?Whatpeopledoraveabout……
Well,brother,nowImustnotlosetime。Towork。“Hegotupfromthetableandtookuphiscap。
“WhatdidIraveabout？”
“Howhekeepson!Areyouafraidofhavingletoutsomesecret?
Don"tworryyourself;yousaidnothingaboutacountess。Butyousaidalotaboutabulldog,andaboutear-ringsandchains,andaboutKrestovskyIsland,andsomeporter,andNikodimFomitchandIlyaPetrovitch,theassistantsuperintendent。Andanotherthingthatwasofspecialinteresttoyouwasyourownsock。Youwhined,"Givememysock。"Zametovhuntedallaboutyourroomforyoursocks,andwithhisownscented,ring-bedeckedfingershegaveyoutherag。Andonlythenwereyoucomforted,andforthenexttwenty-fourhoursyouheldthewretchedthinginyourhand;wecouldnotgetitfromyou。Itismostlikelysomewhereunderyourquiltatthismoment。Andthenyouaskedsopiteouslyforfringeforyourtrousers。Wetriedtofindoutwhatsortoffringe,butwecouldnotmakeitout。Nowtobusiness!Herearethirty-fiveroubles;Itaketenofthem,andshallgiveyouanaccountoftheminanhourortwo。IwillletZossimovknowatthesametime,thoughheoughttohavebeenherelongago,foritisnearlytwelve。Andyou,Nastasya,lookinprettyoftenwhileIamaway,toseewhetherhewantsadrinkoranythingelse。AndIwilltellPashenkawhatiswantedmyself。Good-bye！”
“HecallsherPashenka!Ah,he"sadeepone！”saidNastasyaashewentout;thensheopenedthedoorandstoodlistening,butcouldnotresistrunningdownstairsafterhim。Shewasveryeagertohearwhathewouldsaytothelandlady。ShewasevidentlyquitefascinatedbyRazumihin。
Nosoonerhadshelefttheroomthanthesickmanflungoffthebedclothesandleaptoutofbedlikeamadman。Withburning,switchingimpatiencehehadwaitedforthemtobegonesothathemightsettowork。Buttowhatwork?Now,asthoughtospitehim,iteludedhim。
“GoodGod,onlytellmeonething：dotheyknowofityetornot?
Whatiftheyknowitandareonlypretending,mockingmewhileIamlaidup,andthentheywillcomeinandtellmethatit"sbeendiscoveredlongagoandthattheyhaveonly……WhatamItodonow?
That"swhatI"veforgotten,asthoughonpurpose;forgottenitallatonce,Irememberedaminuteago。“
Hestoodinthemiddleoftheroomandgazedinmiserablebewildermentabouthim;hewalkedtothedoor,openedit,listened;
butthatwasnotwhathewanted。Suddenly,asthoughrecallingsomething,herushedtothecornerwheretherewasaholeunderthepaper,beganexaminingit,puthishandintothehole,fumbled-butthatwasnotit。Hewenttothestove,openeditandbeganrummagingintheashes;thefrayededgesofhistrousersandtheragscutoffhispocketwerelyingtherejustashehadthrownthem。Noonehadlooked,then!Thenheremembered,thesockaboutwhichRazumihinhadjustbeentellinghim。Yes,thereitlayonthesofaunderthequilt,butitwassocoveredwithdustandgrimethatZametovcouldnothaveseenanythingonit。
“Bah,Zametov!Thepoliceoffice!AndwhyamIsentfortothepoliceoffice?Where"sthenotice?Bah!Iammixingitup;thatwasthen。Ilookedatmysockthen,too,butnow……nowIhavebeenill。
ButwhatdidZametovcomefor?WhydidRazumihinbringhim？”hemuttered,helplesslysittingonthesofaagain。“Whatdoesitmean?AmIstillindelirium,orisitreal?Ibelieveitisreal……Ah,I
remember,Imustescape!Makehastetoescape。Yes,Imust,Imustescape!Yes……butwhere?Andwherearemyclothes?I"venoboots。
They"vetakenthemaway!They"vehiddenthem!Iunderstand!Ah,hereismycoat-theypassedthatover!Andhereismoneyonthetable,thankGod!Andhere"stheI。O。U……I"lltakethemoneyandgoandtakeanotherlodging。Theywon"tfindme!……Yes,buttheaddressbureau?They"llfindme,Razumihinwillfindme。Betterescapealtogether……faraway……toAmerica,andletthemdotheirworst!AndtaketheI。O。U……itwouldbeofusethere……WhatelseshallI
take?TheythinkIamill!Theydon"tknowthatIcanwalk,ha-ha-ha!Icouldseebytheireyesthattheyknowallaboutit!IfonlyIcouldgetdownstairs!Andwhatiftheyhavesetawatchthere-policemen!What"sthistea?Ah,andhereisbeerleft,halfabottle,cold！”
Hesnatchedupthebottle,whichstillcontainedaglassfulofbeer,andgulpeditdownwithrelish,asthoughquenchingaflameinhisbreast。Butinanotherminutethebeerhadgonetohishead,andafaintandevenpleasantshiverrandownhisspine。Helaydownandpulledthequiltoverhim。Hissickandincoherentthoughtsgrewmoreandmoredisconnected,andsoonalight,pleasantdrowsinesscameuponhim。Withasenseofcomforthenestledhisheadinthepillow,wrappedmorecloselyabouthimthesoft,waddedquiltwhichhadreplacedtheold,raggedgreat-coat,sighedsoftlyandsankintoadeep,sound,refreshingsleep。
Hewokeup,hearingsomeonecomein。HeopenedhiseyesandsawRazumihinstandinginthedoorway,uncertainwhethertocomeinornot。Raskolnikovsatupquicklyonthesofaandgazedathim,asthoughtryingtorecallsomething。
“Ah,youarenotasleep!HereIam!Nastasya,bringintheparcel！”Razumihinshouteddownthestairs。“Youshallhavetheaccountdirectly。“
“Whattimeisit？”askedRaskolnikov,lookingrounduneasily。
“Yes,youhadafinesleep,brother,it"salmostevening,itwillbesixo"clockdirectly。Youhavesleptmorethansixhours。“
“Goodheaven!HaveI？”
“Andwhynot?Itwilldoyougood。What"sthehurry?Atryst,isit?
We"vealltimebeforeus。I"vebeenwaitingforthelastthreehoursforyou;I"vebeenuptwiceandfoundyouasleep。I"vecalledonZossimovtwice;notathome,onlyfancy!Butnomatter,hewillturnup。AndI"vebeenoutonmyownbusiness,too。YouknowI"vebeenmovingto-day,movingwithmyuncle。Ihaveanunclelivingwithmenow。Butthat"snomatter,tobusiness。Givemetheparcel,Nastasya。Wewillopenitdirectly。Andhowdoyoufeelnow,brother？”
“Iamquitewell,Iamnotill。Razumihin,haveyoubeenherelong？”
“ItellyouI"vebeenwaitingforthelastthreehours。“
“No,before。“
“Howdoyoumean？”
“Howlonghaveyoubeencominghere？”
“WhyItoldyouallaboutitthismorning。Don"tyouremember？”
Raskolnikovpondered。Themorningseemedlikeadreamtohim。Hecouldnotrememberalone,andlookedinquiringlyatRazumihin。
“Hm！”saidthelatter,“hehasforgotten。Ifanciedthenthatyouwerenotquiteyourself。Nowyouarebetterforyoursleep……Youreallylookmuchbetter。Firstrate!Well,tobusiness。Lookhere,mydearboy。“
Hebeganuntyingthebundle,whichevidentlyinterestedhim。
“Believeme,brother,thisissomethingspeciallynearmyheart。Forwemustmakeamanofyou。Let"sbeginfromthetop。Doyouseethiscap？”hesaid,takingoutofthebundleafairlygood,thoughcheap,andordinarycap。“Letmetryiton。“
“Presently,afterwards,“saidRaskolnikov,wavingitofpettishly。
“Come,Rodya,myboy,don"topposeit,afterwardswillbetoolate;andIshan"tsleepallnight,forIboughtitbyguess,withoutmeasure。Justright！”hecriedtriumphantly,fittingiton,“justyoursize!Aproperhead-coveringisthefirstthingindressandarecommendationinitsownway。Tolstyakov,afriendofmine,isalwaysobligedtotakeoffhispuddingbasinwhenhegoesintoanypublicplacewhereotherpeopleweartheirhatsorcaps。Peoplethinkhedoesitfromslavishpoliteness,butit"ssimplybecauseheisashamedofhisbird"snest;heissuchabashfulfellow!Look,Nastasya,herearetwospecimensofheadgear：thisPalmerston“-hetookfromthecornerRaskolnikov"sold,batteredhat,whichforsomeunknownreason,hecalledaPalmerston-“orthisjewel!Guesstheprice,Rodya,whatdoyousupposeIpaidforit,Nastasya！”hesaid,turningtoher,seeingthatRaskolnikovdidnotspeak。
“Twentycopecks,nomore,Idaresay,“answeredNastasya。
“Twentycopecks,silly！”hecried,offended。“Why,nowadaysyouwouldcostmorethanthat-eightycopecks!Andthatonlybecauseithasbeenworn。Andit"sboughtonconditionthatwhen"sit"swornout,theywillgiveyouanothernextyear。Yes,onmyword!Well,nowletuspasstotheUnitedStatesofAmerica,astheycalledthematschool。IassureyouIamproudofthesebreeches,“andheexhibitedtoRaskolnikovapairoflight,summertrousersofgreywoollenmaterial。“Noholes,nospots,andquiterespectable,althoughalittleworn;andawaistcoattomatch,quiteinthefashion。Anditsbeingwornreallyisanimprovement,it"ssofter,smoother……Yousee,Rodya,tomythinking,thegreatthingforgettingonintheworldisalwaystokeeptotheseasons;ifyoudon"tinsistonhavingasparagusinJanuary,youkeepyourmoneyinyourpurse!andit"sthesamewiththispurchase。It"ssummernow,soI"vebeenbuyingsummerthings-warmermaterialswillbewantedforautumn,soyouwillhavetothrowtheseawayinanycase……especiallyastheywillbedoneforbythenfromtheirownlackofcoherenceifnotyourhigherstandardofluxury。Come,pricethem!Whatdoyousay?Tworoublestwenty-fivecopecks!Andremembertheconditions：ifyouweartheseout,youwillhaveanothersuitfornothing!TheyonlydobusinessonthatsystematFedyaev"s;ifyou"veboughtathingonce,youaresatisfiedforlife,foryouwillnevergothereagainofyourownfreewill。Nowfortheboots。Whatdoyousay?Youseethattheyareabitworn,butthey"lllastacoupleofmonths,forit"sforeignworkandforeignleather;thesecretaryoftheEnglishEmbassysoldthemlastweek-hehadonlywornthemsixdays,buthewasveryshortofcash。Price-aroubleandahalf。Abargain？”
“Butperhapstheywon"tfit,“observedNastasya。
“Notfit?Justlook！”andhepulledoutofhispocketRaskolnikov"sold,brokenboot,stifflycoatedwithdrymud。“Ididnotgoempty-handed-theytookthesizefromthismonster。Wealldidourbest。Andastoyourlinen,yourlandladyhasseentothat。
Here,tobeginwitharethreeshirts,hempenbutwithafashionablefront……Wellnowthen,eightycopecksthecap,tworoublestwenty-fivecopecksthesuit-togetherthreeroublesfivecopecks-aroubleandahalffortheboots-for,yousee,theyareverygood-andthatmakesfourroublesfifty-fivecopecks;fiveroublesfortheunderclothes-theywereboughtinthelot-whichmakesexactlynineroublesfifty-fivecopecks。Forty-fivecopeckschangeincoppers。Willyoutakeit?Andso,Rodya,youaresetupwithacompletenewrig-out,foryourovercoatwillserve,andevenhasastyleofitsown。Thatcomesfromgettingone"sclothesfromSharmer"s!Asforyoursocksandotherthings,Ileavethemtoyou;we"vetwenty-fiveroublesleft。AndasforPashenkaandpayingforyourlodging,don"tyouworry。Itellyoushe"lltrustyouforanything。Andnow,brother,letmechangeyourlinen,forIdaresayyouwillthrowoffyourillnesswithyourshirt。“
“Letmebe!Idon"twantto！”Raskolnikovwavedhimoff。HehadlistenedwithdisgusttoRazumihin"seffortstobeplayfulabouthispurchases。
“Come,brother,don"ttellmeI"vebeentrudgingaroundfornothing,“Razumihininsisted。“Nastasya,don"tbebashful,buthelpme-that"sit,“andinspiteofRaskolnikov"sresistancehechangedhislinen。Thelattersankbackonthepillowsandforaminuteortwosaidnothing。
“ItwillbelongbeforeIgetridofthem,“hethought。“Whatmoneywasallthatboughtwith？”heaskedatlast,gazingatthewall。
“Money?Why,yourown,whatthemessengerbroughtfromVahrushin,yourmothersentit。Haveyouforgottenthat,too？”
“Iremembernow,“saidRaskolnikovafteralong,sullensilence。
Razumihinlookedathim,frowninganduneasy。
Thedooropenedandatall,stoutmanwhoseappearanceseemedfamiliartoRaskolnikovcamein。
“Zossimov!Atlast！”criedRazumihin,delighted。
ChapterFourZOSSIMOVWASatall,fatmanwithapuffy,colourless,clean-shavenfaceandstraightflaxenhair。Heworespectacles,andabiggoldringonhisfatfinger。Hewastwenty-seven。Hehadonalightgreyfashionableloosecoat,lightsummertrousers,andeverythingabouthimloose,fashionableandspickandable,hislinenwasirreproachable,hiswatch-chainwasmassive。Inmannerhewasslowand,asitwere,nonchalant,andatthesametimestudiouslyfreeandeasy;hemadeeffortstoconcealhisself-importance,butitwasapparentateveryinstant。Allhisacquaintancesfoundhimtedious,butsaidhewascleverathiswork。
“I"vebeentoyoutwiceto-day,brother。Yousee,he"scometohimself,“criedRazumihin。
“Isee,Isee;andhowdowefeelnow,eh？”saidZossimovtoRaskolnikov,watchinghimcarefullyand,sittingdownatthefootofthesofa,hesettledhimselfascomfortablyashecould。
“Heisstilldepressed,“Razumihinwenton。“We"vejustchangedhislinenandhealmostcried。“
“That"sverynatural;youmighthaveputitoffifhedidnotwishit……Hispulseisfirst-rate。Isyourheadstillaching,eh？”
“Iamwell,Iamperfectlywell！”Raskolnikovdeclaredpositivelyandirritably。Heraisedhimselfonthesofaandlookedatthemwithglitteringeyes,butsankbackontothepillowatonceandturnedtothewall。Zossimovwatchedhimintently。
“Verygood……Goingonallright,“hesaidlazily。“Hasheeatenanything？”
Theytoldhim,andaskedwhathemighthave。
“Hemayhaveanything……soup,tea……mushroomsandcucumbers,ofcourse,youmustnotgivehim;he"dbetternothavemeateither,and……butnoneedtotellyouthat！”Razumihinandhelookedateachother。“Nomoremedicineoranything。I"lllookathimagainto-morrow。Perhaps,to-dayeven……butnevermind……“
“To-morroweveningIshalltakehimforawalk,“saidRazumihin。“WearegoingtotheYusupovgardenandthentothePalaisdeCrystal。“
“Iwouldnotdisturbhimto-morrowatall,butIdon"tknow……alittle,maybe……butwe"llsee。“
“Ach,whatanuisance!I"vegotahouse-warmingpartytonight;
it"sonlyastepfromhere。Couldn"thecome?Hecouldlieonthesofa。Youarecoming？”RazumihinsaidtoZossimov。“Don"tforget,youpromised。“
“Allright,onlyratherlater。Whatareyougoingtodo？”
“Oh,nothing-tea,vodka,herrings。Therewillbeapie……justourfriends。“
“Andwho？”
“Allneighbourshere,almostallnewfriends,exceptmyolduncle,andheisnewtoo-heonlyarrivedinPetersburgyesterdaytoseetosomebusinessofhis。Wemeetonceinfiveyears。“
“Whatishe？”
“He"sbeenstagnatingallhislifeasadistrictpostmaster;getsalittlepension。Heissixty-five-notworthtalkingabout……ButIamfondofhim。PorfiryPetrovitch,theheadoftheInvestigationDepartmenthere……Butyouknowhim。“
“Ishearelationofyours,too？”
“Averydistantone。Butwhyareyouscowling?Becauseyouquarrelledonce,won"tyoucomethen？”
“Idon"tcareadamnforhim。“
“Somuchthebetter。Well,therewillbesomestudents,ateacher,agovernmentclerk,amusician,anofficerandZametov。“
“Dotellme,please,whatyouorhe“-ZossimovnoddedatRaskolnikov-“canhaveincommonwiththisZametov？”
“Oh,youparticulargentleman!Principles!Youareworkedbyprinciples,asitwerebysprings;youwon"tventuretoturnroundonyourownaccount。Ifamanisanicefellow,that"stheonlyprincipleIgoupon,Zametovisadelightfulperson。“
“Thoughhedoestakebribes。“
“Well,hedoes!andwhatofit?Idon"tcareifhedoestakebribes,“Razumihincriedwithunnaturalirritability。“Idon"tpraisehimfortakingbribes。Ionlysayheisanicemaninhisownway!Butifonelooksatmeninallways-aretheremanygoodonesleft?Why,IamsureIshouldn"tbeworthabakedonionmyself……
perhapswithyouthrownin。“
“That"stoolittle;I"dgivetwoforyou。“
“AndIwouldn"tgivemorethanoneforyou。Nomoreofyourjokes!
Zametovisnomorethanaboy。Icanpullhishairandonemustdrawhimnotrepelhim。You"llneverimproveamanbyrepellinghim,especiallyaboy。Onehastobetwiceascarefulwithaboy。Oh,youprogressivedullards!Youdon"tunderstand。Youharmyourselvesrunninganothermandown……Butifyouwanttoknow,wereallyhavesomethingincommon。“
“Ishouldliketoknowwhat。“
“Why,it"sallaboutahouse-painter……Wearegettinghimoutofamess!Thoughindeedthere"snothingtofearnow。Thematterisabsolutelyself-evident。Weonlyputonsteam。“
“Apainter？”
“Why,haven"tItoldyouaboutit?Ionlytoldyouthebeginningthenaboutthemurderoftheoldpawnbroker-woman。Well,thepainterismixedupinit……“
“Oh,Iheardaboutthatmurderbeforeandwasratherinterestedinit……partly……foronereason……Ireadaboutitinthepapers,too……“
“Lizavetawasmurdered,too,“Nastasyablurtedout,suddenlyaddressingRaskolnikov。Sheremainedintheroomallthetime,standingbythedoorlistening。
“Lizaveta,“murmuredRaskolnikovhardlyaudibly。
“Lizaveta,whosoldoldclothes。Didn"tyouknowher?Sheusedtocomehere。Shemendedashirtforyou,too。“
Raskolnikovturnedtothewallwhereinthedirty,yellowpaperhepickedoutoneclumsy,whiteflowerwithbrownlinesonitandbeganexamininghowmanypetalstherewereinit,howmanyscallopsinthepetalsandhowmanylinesonthem。Hefelthisarmsandlegsaslifelessasthoughtheyhadbeencutoff。Hedidnotattempttomove,butstaredobstinatelyattheflower。
“Butwhataboutthepainter？”ZossimovinterruptedNastasya"schatterwithmarkeddispleasure。Shesighedandwassilent。
“Why,hewasaccusedofthemurder,“Razumihinwentonhotly。
“Wasthereevidenceagainsthimthen？”
“Evidence,indeed!Evidencethatwasnoevidence,andthat"swhatwehavetoprove。Itwasjustastheypitchedonthosefellows,KochandPestryakov,atfirst。Foo!howstupidlyit"salldone,itmakesonesick,thoughit"snotone"sbusiness!Pestryakovmaybecomingto-night……Bytheway,Rodya,you"veheardaboutthebusinessalready;ithappenedbeforeyouwereill,thedaybeforeyoufaintedatthepoliceofficewhiletheyweretalkingaboutit。“
ZossimovlookedcuriouslyatRaskolnikov。Hedidnotstir。
“ButIsay,Razumihin,Iwonderatyou。Whatabusybodyyouare！”
Zossimovobserved。
“MaybeIam,butwewillgethimoffanyway,“shoutedRazumihin,bringinghisfistdownonthetable。“What"sthemostoffensiveisnottheirlying-onecanalwaysforgivelying-lyingisadelightfulthing,foritleadstotruth-whatisoffensiveisthattheylieandworshiptheirownlying……IrespectPorfiry,but……Whatthrewthemoutatfirst?Thedoorwaslocked,andwhentheycamebackwiththeporteritwasopen。SoitfollowedthatKochandPestryakovwerethemurderers-thatwastheirlogic！”
“Butdon"texciteyourself;theysimplydetainedthem,theycouldnothelpthat……And,bytheway,I"vemetthatmanKoch。Heusedtobuyunredeemedpledgesfromtheoldwoman?Eh？”
“Yes,heisaswindler。Hebuysupbaddebts,too。Hemakesaprofessionofit。Butenoughofhim!Doyouknowwhatmakesmeangry?It"stheirsickeningrotten,petrifiedroutine……Andthiscasemightbethemeansofintroducinganewmethod。Onecanshowfromthepsychologicaldataalonehowtogetonthetrackoftherealman。"Wehavefacts,"theysay。Butfactsarenoteverything-atleasthalfthebusinessliesinhowyouinterpretthem！”
“Canyouinterpretthem,then？”
“Anyway,onecan"tholdone"stonguewhenonehasafeeling,atangiblefeeling,thatonemightbeahelpifonly……Eh!Doyouknowthedetailsofthecase？”
“Iamwaitingtohearaboutthepainter。“
“Oh,yes!Well,here"sthestory。Earlyonthethirddayafterthemurder,whentheywerestilldandlingKochandPestryakov-thoughtheyaccountedforeverysteptheytookanditwasasplainasapikestaff-
anunexpectedfactturnedup。ApeasantcalledDushkin,whokeepsadram-shopfacingthehouse,broughttothepoliceofficeajeweller"scasecontainingsomegoldear-rings,andtoldalongrigamarole。"Thedaybeforeyesterday,justaftereighto"clock"-markthedayandthehour!-"ajourneymanhouse-painter,Nikolay,whohadbeenintoseemealreadythatday,broughtmethisboxofgoldear-ringsandstones,andaskedmetogivehimtworoublesforthem。
WhenIaskedhimwherehegotthem,hesaidthathepickedthemupinthestreet。Ididnotaskhimanythingmore。"IamtellingyouDushkin"sstory。"Igavehimanote"-aroublethatis-"forIthoughtifhedidnotpawnitwithmehewouldwithanother。Itwouldallcometothesamething-he"dspenditondrink,sothethinghadbetterbewithme。Thefurtheryouhideitthequickeryouwillfindit,andifanythingturnsup,ifIhearanyrumours,I"lltakeittothepolice。"Ofcourse,that"salltaradiddle;helieslikeahorse,forI
knowthisDushkin,heisapawnbrokerandareceiverofstolengoods,andhedidnotcheatNikolayoutofathirty-roubletrinketinordertogiveittothepolice。Hewassimplyafraid。Butnomatter,toreturntoDushkin"sstory。"I"veknownthispeasant,NikolayDementyev,fromachild;hecomesfromthesameprovinceanddistrictofZaraisk,wearebothRyazanmen。AndthoughNikolayisnotadrunkard,hedrinks,andIknewhehadajobinthathouse,paintingworkwithDmitri,whocomesfromthesamevillage,too。Assoonashegottheroublehechangedit,hadacoupleofglasses,tookhischangeandwentout。ButIdidnotseeDmitriwithhimthen。AndthenextdayIheardthatsomeonehadmurderedAlyonaIvanovnaandhersister,LizavetaIvanovna,withanaxe。Iknewthem,andIfeltsuspiciousabouttheear-ringsatonce,forIknewthemurderedwomanlentmoneyonpledges。Iwenttothehouse,andbegantomakecarefulinquirieswithoutsayingawordtoanyone。FirstofallI
asked,“IsNikolayhere？”DmitritoldmethatNikolayhadgoneoffonthespree;hehadcomehomeatdaybreakdrunk,stayedinthehouseabouttenminutes,andwentoutagain。Dmitrididn"tseehimagainandisfinishingthejobalone。Andtheirjobisonthesamestaircaseasthemurder,onthesecondfloor。WhenIheardallthatIdidnotsayawordtoanyone"-that"sDushkin"stale-"butI
foundoutwhatIcouldaboutthemurder,andwenthomefeelingassuspiciousasever。Andateighto"clockthismorning"-thatwasthethirdday,youunderstand-"IsawNikolaycomingin,notsober,thoughnotsoverydrunk-hecouldunderstandwhatwassaidtohim。Hesatdownonthebenchanddidnotspeak。TherewasonlyonestrangerinthebarandamanIknewasleeponabenchandourtwoboys。“HaveyouseenDmitri？”saidI。“No,Ihaven"t,“saidhe。“Andyou"venotbeenhereeither？”“Notsincethedaybeforeyesterday,“saidhe。“Andwheredidyousleeplastnight？”“InPeski,withtheKolomenskymen。““Andwheredidyougetthoseear-rings？”Iasked。“Ifoundtheminthestreet,“andthewayhesaiditwasabitqueer;hedidnotlookatme。“Didyouhearwhathappenedthatveryevening,atthatveryhour,onthatsamestaircase？”saidI。“No,“saidhe,“Ihadnotheard,“andallthewhilehewaslistening,hiseyeswerestaringoutofhisheadandheturnedaswhiteaschalk。Itoldhimallaboutitandhetookhishatandbegangettingup。Iwantedtokeephim。“Waitabit,Nikolay,“saidI,“won"tyouhaveadrink？”AndIsignedtotheboytoholdthedoor,andIcameoutfrombehindthebar;buthedartedoutanddownthestreettotheturningatarun。
Ihavenotseenhimsince。Thenmydoubtswereatanend-itwashisdoing,asclearascouldbe……“
“Ishouldthinkso,“saidZossimov。
“Wait!Heartheend。OfcoursetheysoughthighandlowforNikolay;
theydetainedDushkinandsearchedhishouse;Dmitri,too,wasarrested;theKolomenskymenalsowereturnedinsideout。AndthedaybeforeyesterdaytheyarrestedNikolayinatavernattheendofthetown。Hehadgonethere,takenthesilvercrossoffhisneckandaskedforadramforit。Theygaveittohim。Afewminutesafterwardsthewomanwenttothecowshed,andthroughacrackinthewallshesawinthestableadjoininghehadmadeanooseofhissashfromthebeam,stoodonablockofwood,andwastryingtoputhisneckinthenoose。
Thewomanscreechedherhardest;peopleranin。"Sothat"swhatyouareupto!""Takeme,"hesays,"tosuch-and-suchapoliceofficer;
I"llconfesseverything。"Well,theytookhimtothatpolicestation-thatishere-withasuitableescort。Sotheyaskedhimthisandthat,howoldheis,"twenty-two,"andsoon。Atthequestion,"WhenyouwereworkingwithDmitri,didn"tyouseeanyoneonthestaircaseatsuch-and-suchatime?"-answer："Tobesurefolksmayhavegoneupanddown,butIdidnotnoticethem。""Anddidn"tyouhearanything,anynoise,andsoon?""Weheardnothingspecial。""Anddidyouhear,Nikolay,thatonthesamedayWidowSo-and-soandhersisterweremurderedandrobbed?""Ineverknewathingaboutit。ThefirstIheardofitwasfromAfanasyPavlovitchthedaybeforeyesterday。""Andwheredidyoufindtheear-rings?"
"Ifoundthemonthepavement。“Whydidn"tyougotoworkwithDmitritheotherday?""BecauseIwasdrinking。""Andwherewereyoudrinking?""Oh,insuch-and-suchaplace。""WhydidyourunawayfromDushkin"s?""BecauseIwasawfullyfrightened。""Whatwereyoufrightenedof?""ThatIshouldbeaccused。""Howcouldyoubefrightened,ifyoufeltfreefromguilt?"Now,Zossimov,youmaynotbelieveme,thatquestionwasputliterallyinthosewords。Iknowitforafact,itwasrepeatedtomeexactly!Whatdoyousaytothat？”
“Well,anyway,there"stheevidence。“
“Iamnottalkingoftheevidencenow,Iamtalkingaboutthatquestion,oftheirownideaofthemselves。Well,sotheysqueezedandsqueezedhimandheconfessed："Ididnotfinditinthestreet,butintheflatwhereIwaspaintingwithDmitri。""Andhowwasthat?"
"Why,DmitriandIwerepaintingthereallday,andwewerejustgettingreadytogo,andDmitritookabrushandpaintedmyface,andheranoffandIafterhim。Iranafterhim,shoutingmyhardest,andatthebottomofthestairsIranrightagainsttheporterandsomegentlemen-andhowmanygentlemenwerethereIdon"tremember。Andtheportersworeatme,andtheotherporterswore,too,andtheporter"swifecameout,andsworeatus,too;andagentlemancameintotheentrywithalady,andhesworeatus,too,forDmitriandIlayrightacrosstheway。IgotholdofDmitri"shairandknockedhimdownandbeganbeatinghim。AndDmitri,too,caughtmebythehairandbeganbeatingme。Butwediditallnotfortemper,butinafriendlyway,forsport。AndthenDmitriescapedandranintothestreet,andIranafterhim;butIdidnotcatchhim,andwentbacktotheflatalone;Ihadtoclearupmythings。Ibeganputtingthemtogether,expectingDmitritocome,andthereinthepassage,inthecornerbythedoor,Isteppedonthebox。Isawitlyingtherewrappedupinpaper。Itookoffthepaper,sawsomelittlehooks,undidthem,andintheboxweretheear-rings……"“
“Behindthedoor?Lyingbehindthedoor?Behindthedoor？”
Raskolnikovcriedsuddenly,staringwithablanklookofterroratRazumihin,andheslowlysatuponthesofa,leaningonhishand。
“Yes……why?What"sthematter?What"swrong？”Razumihin,too,gotupfromhisseat。
“Nothing,“Raskolnikovansweredfaintly,turningtothewall。Allweresilentforawhile。
“Hemusthavewakedfromadream,“Razumihinsaidatlast,lookinginquiringlyatZossimov。Thelatterslightlyshookhishead。
“Well,goon,“saidZossimov。“Whatnext？”
“Whatnext?Assoonashesawtheear-rings,forgettingDmitriandeverything,hetookuphiscapandrantoDushkinand,asweknow,gotaroublefromhim。Hetoldaliesayinghefoundtheminthestreet,andwentoffdrinking。Hekeepsrepeatinghisoldstoryaboutthemurder："Iknewnothingofit,neverheardofittillthedaybeforeyesterday。""Andwhydidn"tyoucometothepolicetillnow?""Iwasfrightened。""Andwhydidyoutrytohangyourself?""Fromanxiety。"
"Whatanxiety?""ThatIshouldbeaccusedofit。"Well,that"sthewholestory。Andnowwhatdoyousupposetheydeducedfromthat？”
“Why,there"snosupposing。There"saclue,suchasitis,afact。
Youwouldn"thaveyourpaintersetfree？”
“Nowthey"vesimplytakenhimforthemurderer。Theyhaven"tashadowofdoubt。“
“That"snonsense。Youareexcited。Butwhatabouttheear-rings?Youmustadmitthat,ifontheverysamedayandhourear-ringsfromtheoldwoman"sboxhavecomeintoNikolay"shands,theymusthavecometheresomehow。That"sagooddealinsuchacase。“
“Howdidtheygetthere?Howdidtheygetthere？”criedRazumihin。
“Howcanyou,adoctor,whosedutyitistostudymanandwhohasmoreopportunitythananyoneelseforstudyinghumannature-howcanyoufailtoseethecharacterofthemaninthewholestory?Don"tyouseeatoncethattheanswershehasgivenintheexaminationaretheholytruth?Theycameintohishandpreciselyashehastoldus-hesteppedontheboxandpickeditup。“
“Theholytruth!Butdidn"theownhimselfthathetoldalieatfirst？”
“Listentome,listenattentively。TheporterandKochandPestryakovandtheotherporterandthewifeofthefirstporterandthewomanwhowassittingintheporter"slodgeandthemanKryukov,whohadjustgotoutofacabatthatminuteandwentinattheentrywithaladyonhisarm,thatiseightortenwitnesses,agreethatNikolayhadDmitriontheground,waslyingonhimbeatinghim,whileDmitrihungontohishair,beatinghim,too。Theylayrightacrosstheway,blockingthethoroughfare。Theywereswornatonallsideswhilethey"likechildren"(theverywordsofthewitnesses)
werefallingoveroneanother,squealing,fightingandlaughingwiththefunniestfaces,and,chasingoneanotherlikechildren,theyranintothestreet。Nowtakecarefulnote。Thebodiesupstairswerewarm,youunderstand,warmwhentheyfoundthem!Ifthey,orNikolayalone,hadmurderedthemandbrokenopentheboxes,orsimplytakenpartintherobbery,allowmetoaskyouonequestion：dotheirstateofmind,theirsquealsandgigglesandchildishscufflingatthegatefitinwithaxes,bloodshed,fiendishcunning,robbery?They"djustkilledthem,notfiveortenminutesbefore,forthebodieswerestillwarm,andatonce,leavingtheflatopen,knowingthatpeoplewouldgothereatonce,flingingawaytheirbooty,theyrolledaboutlikechildren,laughingandattractinggeneralattention。
Andthereareadozenwitnessestosweartothat！”
“Ofcourseitisstrange!It"simpossible,indeed,but……“
“No,brother,nobuts。Andiftheear-rings"beingfoundinNikolay"shandsattheverydayandhourofthemurderconstitutesanimportantpieceofcircumstantialevidenceagainsthim-althoughtheexplanationgivenbyhimaccountsforit,andthereforeitdoesnottellseriouslyagainsthim-onemusttakeintoconsiderationthefactswhichprovehiminnocent,especiallyastheyarefactsthatcannotbedenied。Anddoyousuppose,fromthecharacterofourlegalsystem,thattheywillaccept,orthattheyareinapositiontoaccept,thisfact-restingsimplyonapsychologicalimpossibility-asirrefutableandconclusivelybreakingdownthecircumstantialevidencefortheprosecution?No,theywon"tacceptit,theycertainlywon"t,becausetheyfoundthejewel-caseandthemantriedtohanghimself,"whichhecouldnothavedoneifhehadn"tfeltguilty。"That"sthepoint,that"swhatexcitesme,youmustunderstand！”
“Oh,Iseeyouareexcited!Waitabit。Iforgottoaskyou;whatproofistherethattheboxcamefromtheoldwoman？”
“That"sbeenproved,“saidRazumihinwithapparentreluctance,frowning。“Kochrecognisedthejewel-caseandgavethenameoftheowner,whoprovedconclusivelythatitwashis。“
“That"sbad。Nowanotherpoint。DidanyoneseeNikolayatthetimethatKochandPestryakovweregoingupstairsatfirst,andistherenoevidenceaboutthat？”
“Nobodydidseehim,“Razumihinansweredwithvexation。“That"stheworstofit。EvenKochandPestryakovdidnotnoticethemontheirwayupstairs,though,indeed,theirevidencecouldnothavebeenworthmuch。Theysaidtheysawtheflatwasopen,andthattheremustbeworkgoingoninit,buttheytooknospecialnoticeandcouldnotrememberwhetherthereactuallyweremenatworkinit。“
“Hm!……Sotheonlyevidenceforthedefenceisthattheywerebeatingoneanotherandlaughing。Thatconstitutesastrongpresumption,but……Howdoyouexplainthefactsyourself？”
“HowdoIexplainthem?Whatistheretoexplain?It"sclear。Atanyrate,thedirectioninwhichexplanationistobesoughtisclear,andthejewel-casepointstoit。Therealmurdererdroppedthoseear-rings。Themurdererwasupstairs,lockedin,whenKochandPestryakovknockedatthedoor。Koch,likeanass,didnotstayatthedoor;sothemurdererpoppedoutandrandown,too,forhehadnootherwayofescape。HehidfromKoch,PestryakovandtheporterintheflatwhenNikolayandDmitrihadjustrunoutofit。Hestoppedtherewhiletheporterandothersweregoingupstairs,waitedtilltheywereoutofhearing,andthenwentcalmlydownstairsattheveryminutewhenDmitriandNikolayranoutintothestreetandtherewasnooneintheentry;possiblyhewasseen,butnotnoticed。Therearelotsofpeoplegoinginandout。Hemusthavedroppedtheear-ringsoutofhispocketwhenhestoodbehindthedoor,anddidnotnoticehedroppedthem,becausehehadotherthingstothinkof。Thejewel-caseisaconclusiveproofthathedidstandthere……That"showIexplainit。“
“Tooclever!No,myboy,you"retooclever。Thatbeatseverything。“
“But,why,why？”
“Why,becauseeverythingfitstoowell……it"stoomelodramatic。“
“A-ach！”Razumihinwasexclaiming,butatthatmomentthedooropenedandapersonagecameinwhowasastrangertoallpresent。
ChapterFiveTHISWASagentlemannolongeryoung,ofastiffandportlyappearance,andacautiousandsourcountenance。Hebeganbystoppingshortinthedoorway,staringabouthimwithoffensiveandundisguisedastonishment,asthoughaskinghimselfwhatsortofplacehehadcometo。Mistrustfullyandwithanaffectationofbeingalarmedandalmostaffronted,hescannedRaskolnikov"slowandnarrow“cabin。“WiththesameamazementhestaredatRaskolnikov,wholayundressed,dishevelled,unwashed,onhismiserabledirtysofa,lookingfixedlyathim。Thenwiththesamedeliberationhescrutinisedtheuncouth,unkemptfigureandunshavenfaceofRazumihin,wholookedhimboldlyandinquiringlyinthefacewithoutrisingfromhisseat。A
constrainedsilencelastedforacoupleofminutes,andthen,asmightbeexpected,somescene-shiftingtookplace。Reflecting,probablyfromcertainfairlyunmistakablesigns,thathewouldgetnothinginthis“cabin“byattemptingtooverawethem,thegentlemansoftenedsomewhat,andcivilly,thoughwithsomeseverity,emphasisingeverysyllableofhisquestion,addressedZossimov：
“RodionRomanovitchRaskolnikov,astudent,orformerlyastudent？”
Zossimovmadeaslightmovement,andwouldhaveanswered,hadnotRazumihinanticipatedhim。
“Hereheislyingonthesofa!Whatdoyouwant？”
Thisfamiliar“whatdoyouwant“seemedtocutthegroundfromthefeetofthepompousgentleman。HewasturningtoRazumihin,butcheckedhimselfintimeandturnedtoZossimovagain。
“ThisisRaskolnikov,“mumbledZossimov,noddingtowardshim。Thenhegaveaprolongedyawn,openinghismouthaswideaspossible。
Thenhelazilyputhishandintohiswaistcoat-pocket,pulledoutahugegoldwatchinaroundhunter"scase,openedit,lookedatitandasslowlyandlazilyproceededtoputitback。
Raskolnikovhimselflaywithoutspeaking,onhisback,gazingpersistently,though"withoutunderstanding,atthestranger。Nowthathisfacewasturnedawayfromthestrangefloweronthepaper,itwasextremelypaleandworealookofanguish,asthoughhehadjustundergoneanagonisingoperationorjustbeentakenfromtherack。Butthenew-comergraduallybegantoarousehisattention,thenhiswonder,thensuspicionandevenalarm。WhenZossimovsaid“ThisisRaskolnikov“hejumpedupquickly,satonthesofaandwithanalmostdefiant,butweakandbreaking,voicearticulated：
“Yes,IamRaskolnikov!Whatdoyouwant？”
Thevisitorscrutinisedhimandpronouncedimpressively：
“PyotrPetrovitchLuzhin。IbelieveIhavereasontohopethatmynameisnotwhollyunknowntoyou？”
ButRaskolnikov,whohadexpectedsomethingquitedifferent,gazedblanklyanddreamilyathim,makingnoreply,asthoughheheardthenameofPyotrPetrovitchforthefirsttime。
“Isitpossiblethatyoucanuptothepresenthavereceivednoinformation？”askedPyotrPetrovitch,somewhatdisconcerted。
InreplyRaskolnikovsanklanguidlybackonthepillow,puthishandsbehindhisheadandgazedattheceiling。AlookofdismaycameintoLuzhin"sface。ZossimovandRazumihinstaredathimmoreinquisitivelythanever,andatlastheshowedunmistakablesignsofembarrassment。
“Ihadpresumedandcalculated,“hefaltered,“thataletterpostedmorethantendays,ifnotafortnightago……“
“Isay,whyareyoustandinginthedoorway？”Razumihininterruptedsuddenly。“Ifyou"vesomethingtosay,sitdown。
Nastasyaandyouaresocrowded。Nastasya,makeroom。Here"sachair,threadyourwayin！”
Hemovedhischairbackfromthetable,madealittlespacebetweenthetableandhisknees,andwaitedinarathercrampedpositionforthevisitorto“threadhiswayin。“Theminutewassochosenthatitwasimpossibletorefuse,andthevisitorsqueezedhiswaythrough,hurryingandstumbling。Reachingthechair,hesatdown,lookingsuspiciouslyatRazumihin。
“Noneedtobenervous,“thelatterblurtedout。“Rodyahasbeenillforthelastfivedaysanddeliriousforthree,butnowheisrecoveringandhasgotanappetite。Thisishisdoctor,whohasjusthadalookathim。IamacomradeofRodya"s,likehim,formerlyastudent,andnowIamnursinghim;sodon"tyoutakeanynoticeofus,butgoonwithyourbusiness。“
“Thankyou。ButshallInotdisturbtheinvalidbymypresenceandconversation？”PyotrPetrovitchaskedofZossimov。
“N-no,“mumbledZossimov;“youmayamusehim。“Heyawnedagain。
“Hehasbeenconsciousalongtime,sincethemorning,“wentonRazumihin,whosefamiliarityseemedsomuchlikeunaffectedgood-naturethatPyotrPetrovitchbegantobemorecheerful,partly,perhaps,becausethisshabbyandimpudentpersonhadintroducedhimselfasastudent。
“Yourmamma,“beganLuzhin。
“Hm！”Razumihinclearedhisthroatloudly。Luzhinlookedathiminquiringly。
“That"sallright,goon。“
Luzhinshruggedhisshoulders。
“YourmammahadcommencedalettertoyouwhileIwassojourninginherneighbourhood。OnmyarrivalhereIpurposelyallowedafewdaystoelapsebeforecomingtoseeyou,inorderthatImightbefullyassuredthatyouwereinfullpossessionofthetidings;butnow,tomyastonishment……“
“Iknow,Iknow！”Raskolnikovcriedsuddenlywithimpatientvexation。“Soyouarethefiance?Iknow,andthat"senough！”
TherewasnodoubtaboutPyotrPetrovitch"sbeingoffendedthistime,buthesaidnothing。Hemadeaviolentefforttounderstandwhatitallmeant。Therewasamoment"ssilence。
MeanwhileRaskolnikov,whohadturnedalittletowardshimwhenheanswered,begansuddenlystaringathimagainwithmarkedcuriosity,asthoughhehadnothadagoodlookathimyet,orasthoughsomethingnewhadstruckhim;herosefromhispillowonpurposetostareathim。TherecertainlywassomethingpeculiarinPyotrPetrovitch"swholeappearance,somethingwhichseemedtojustifythetitleof“fiance“sounceremoniouslyappliedtohim。Inthefirstplace,itwasevident,fartoomuchsoindeed,thatPyotrPetrovitchhadmadeeageruseofhisfewdaysinthecapitaltogethimselfupandrighimselfoutinexpectationofhisbetrothed-aperfectlyinnocentandpermissibleproceeding,indeed。Evenhisown,perhapstoocomplacent,consciousnessoftheagreeableimprovementinhisappearancemighthavebeenforgiveninsuchcircumstances,seeingthatPyotrPetrovitchhadtakenuptheroleoffiance。Allhisclotheswerefreshfromthetailor"sandwereallright,exceptforbeingtoonewandtoodistinctlyappropriate。Eventhestylishnewroundhathadthesamesignificance。PyotrPetrovitchtreatedittoorespectfullyandheldittoocarefullyinhishands。Theexquisitepairoflavendergloves,realLouvain,toldthesametale,ifonlyfromthefactofhisnotwearingthem,butcarryingtheminhishandforshow。LightandyouthfulcolourspredominatedinPyotrPetrovitch"sattire。Heworeacharmingsummerjacketofafawnshade,lightthintrousers,awaistcoatofthesame,newandfinelinen,acravatofthelightestcambricwithpinkstripesonit,andthebestofitwas,thisallsuitedPyotrPetrovitch。Hisveryfreshandevenhandsomefacelookedyoungerthanhisforty-fiveyearsatalltimes。Hisdark,mutton-chopwhiskersmadeanagreeablesettingonbothsides,growingthicklyabouthisshining,clean-shavenchin。Evenhishair,touchedhereandtherewithgrey,thoughithadbeencombedandcurledatahairdresser"s,didnotgivehimastupidappearance,ascurledhairusuallydoes,byinevitablysuggestingaGermanonhiswedding-day。Iftherereallywassomethingunpleasingandrepulsiveinhisrathergood-lookingandimposingcountenance,itwasduetoquiteothercauses。AfterscanningMr。Luzhinunceremoniously,Raskolnikovsmiledmalignantly,sankbackonthepillowandstaredattheceilingasbefore。
ButMr。Luzhinhardenedhisheartandseemedtodeterminetotakenonoticeoftheiroddities。
“Ifeelthegreatestregretatfindingyouinthissituation,“hebegan,againbreakingthesilencewithaneffort。“IfIhadbeenawareofyourillnessIshouldhavecomeearlier。Butyouknowwhatbusinessis。Ihave,too,averyimportantlegalaffairintheSenate,nottomentionotherpreoccupationswhichyoumaywellconjecture。Iamexpectingyourmammaandsisteranyminute。“
Raskolnikovmadeamovementandseemedabouttospeak;hisfaceshowedsomeexcitement。PyotrPetrovitchpaused,waited,butasnothingfollowed,hewenton：
“……Anyminute。Ihavefoundalodgingforthemontheirarrival。“
“Where？”askedRaskolnikovweakly。
“Verynearhere,inBakaleyev"shouse。“
“That"sinVoskresensky,“putinRazumihin。“Therearetwostoreysofrooms,letbyamerchantcalledYushin;I"vebeenthere。“
“Yes,rooms……“
“Adisgustingplace-filthy,stinkingand,what"smore,ofdoubtfulcharacter。Thingshavehappenedthere,andthereareallsortsofqueerpeoplelivingthere。AndIwentthereaboutascandalousbusiness。It"scheap,though……“
“Icouldnot,ofcourse,findoutsomuchaboutit,forIamastrangerinPetersburgmyself,“PyotrPetrovitchrepliedhuffily。
“However,thetworoomsareexceedinglyclean,andasitisforsoshortatime……Ihavealreadytakenapermanent,thatis,ourfutureflat,“hesaid,addressingRaskolnikov,“andIamhavingitdoneup。AndmeanwhileIammyselfcrampedforroominalodgingwithmyfriendAndreySemyonovitchLebeziatnikov,intheflatofMadameLippevechsel;itwashewhotoldmeofBakaleyev"shouse,too……“
“Lebeziatnikov？”saidRaskolnikovslowly,asifrecallingsomething。
“Yes,AndreySemyonovitchLebeziatnikov,aclerkintheMinistry。Doyouknowhim？”
“Yes……no,“Raskolnikovanswered。
“Excuseme,Ifanciedsofromyourinquiry。Iwasoncehisguardian……Averyniceyoungmanandadvanced。Iliketomeetyoungpeople：onelearnsnewthingsfromthem。“Luzhinlookedroundhopefullyatthemall。
“Howdoyoumean？”askedRazumihin。
“Inthemostseriousandessentialmatters,“PyotrPetrovitchreplied,asthoughdelightedatthequestion。“Yousee,it"stenyearssinceIvisitedPetersburg。Allthenovelties,reforms,ideashavereachedusintheprovinces,buttoseeitallmoreclearlyonemustbeinPetersburg。Andit"smynotionthatyouobserveandlearnmostbywatchingtheyoungergeneration。AndIconfessIamdelighted……“
“Atwhat？”
“Yourquestionisawideone。Imaybemistaken,butIfancyI
findclearerviews,more,sotosay,criticism,morepracticality……“
“That"strue,“Zossimovletdrop。
“Nonsense!There"snopracticality。“Razumihinflewathim。
“Practicalityisadifficultthingtofind;itdoesnotdropdownfromheaven。Andforthelasttwohundredyearswehavebeendivorcedfromallpracticallife。Ideas,ifyoulike,arefermenting,“hesaidtoPyotrPetrovitch,“anddesireforgoodexists,thoughit"sinachildishform,andhonestyyoumayfind,althoughtherearecrowdsofbrigands。Anyway,there"snopracticality。Practicalitygoeswellshod。“
“Idon"tagreewithyou,“PyotrPetrovitchreplied,withevidentenjoyment。“Ofcourse,peopledogetcarriedawayandmakemistakes,butonemusthaveindulgence;thosemistakesaremerelyevidenceofenthusiasmforthecauseandofabnormalexternalenvironment。Iflittlehasbeendone,thetimehasbeenbutshort;ofmeansIwillnotspeak。It"smypersonalview,ifyoucaretoknow,thatsomethinghasbeenaccomplishedalready。Newvaluableideas,newvaluableworksarecirculatingintheplaceofourolddreamyandromanticauthors。Literatureistakingamaturerform,manyinjuriousprejudicehavebeenrootedupandturnedintoridicule……Inaword,wehavecutourselvesoffirrevocablyfromthepast,andthat,tomythinking,isagreatthing……“
“He"slearntitbyhearttoshowoffRaskolnikovpronouncedsuddenly。
“What？”askedPyotrPetrovitch,notcatchinghiswords;buthereceivednoreply。
“That"salltrue,“Zossimovhastenedtointerpose。
“Isn"titso？”PyotrPetrovitchwenton,glancingaffablyatZossimov。“Youmustadmit,“hewenton,addressingRazumihinwithashadeoftriumphandsuperciliousness-healmostadded“youngman“-
“thatthereisanadvance,or,astheysaynow,progressinthenameofscienceandeconomictruth……“
“Acommonplace。“
“No,notacommonplace!Hitherto,forinstance,ifIweretold,"lovethyneighbour,"whatcameofit？”PyotrPetrovitchwenton,perhapswithexcessivehaste。“Itcametomytearingmycoatinhalftosharewithmyneighbourandwebothwerelefthalfnaked。AsaRussianproverbhasit,"catchseveralharesandyouwon"tcatchone。"
Sciencenowtellsus,loveyourselfbeforeallmen,foreverythingintheworldrestsonself-interest。Youloveyourselfandmanageyourownaffairsproperlyandyourcoatremainswhole。Economictruthaddsthatthebetterprivateaffairsareorganisedinsociety-themorewholecoats,sotosay-thefirmerareitsfoundationsandthebetteristhecommonwelfareorganisedtoo。Therefore,inacquiringwealthsolelyandexclusivelyformyself,Iamacquiringsotospeak,forall,andhelpingtobringtopassmyneighbour"sgettingalittlemorethanatorncoat;andthatnotfromprivate,personalliberality,butasaconsequenceofthegeneraladvance。Theideaissimple,butunhappilyithasbeenalongtimereachingus,beinghinderedbyidealismandsentimentality。Andyetitwouldseemtowantverylittlewittoperceiveit……“
“Excuseme,I"veverylittlewitmyself,“Razumihincutinsharply,“andsoletusdropit。Ibeganthisdiscussionwithanobject,butI"vegrownsosickduringthelastthreeyearsofthischatteringtoamuseoneself,ofthisincessantflowofcommonplaces,alwaysthesame,that,byJove,Iblushevenwhenotherpeopletalklikethat。Youareinahurry,nodoubt,toexhibityouracquirements;
andIdon"tblameyou,that"squitepardonable。Ionlywantedtofindoutwhatsortofmanyouare,forsomanyunscrupulouspeoplehavegotholdoftheprogressivecauseoflateandhavesodistortedintheirowninterestseverythingtheytouched,thatthewholecausehasbeendraggedinthemire。That"senough！”
“Excuseme,sir,“saidLuzhin,affronted,andspeakingwithexcessivedignity。“DoyoumeantosuggestsounceremoniouslythatI
too……“
“Oh,mydearsir……howcouldI?……Come,that"senough,“
Razumihinconcluded,andheturnedabruptlytoZossimovtocontinuetheirpreviousconversation。
PyotrPetrovitchhadthegoodsensetoacceptthedisavowal。Hemadeuphismindtotakeleaveinanotherminuteortwo。
“Itrustouracquaintance,“hesaid,addressingRaskolnikov,“may,uponyourrecoveryandinviewofthecircumstancesofwhichyouareaware,becomecloser……Aboveall,Ihopeforyourreturntohealth……“
Raskolnikovdidnoteventurnhishead。PyotrPetrovitchbegangettingupfromhischair。
“Oneofhercustomersmusthavekilledher,“Zossimovdeclaredpositively。
“Notadoubtofit,“repliedRazumihin。“Porfirydoesn"tgivehisopinion,butisexaminingallwhohaveleftpledgeswithherthere。“
“Examiningthem？”Raskolnikovaskedaloud。
“Yes。Whatthen？”
“Nothing。“
“Howdoeshegetholdofthem？”askedZossimov。
“Kochhasgiventhenamesofsomeofthem,othernamesareonthewrappersofthepledgesandsomehavecomeforwardofthemselves。“
“Itmusthavebeenacunningandpractisedruffian!Theboldnessofit!Thecoolness！”
“That"sjustwhatitwasn"t！”interposedRazumihin。“That"swhatthrowsyoualloffthescent。ButImaintainthatheisnotcunning,norpractised,andprobablythiswashisfirstcrime!Thesuppositionthatitwasacalculatedcrimeandacunningcriminaldoesn"twork。Supposehimtohavebeeninexperienced,andit"sclearthatitwasonlyachancethatsavedhim-andchancemaydoanything。Why,hedidnotforeseeobstacles,perhaps!Andhowdidhesettowork?Hetookjewelsworthtenortwentyroubles,stuffinghispocketswiththem,ransackedtheoldwoman"strunk,herrags-
andtheyfoundfifteenhundredroubles,besidesnotes,inaboxinthetopdrawerofthechest!Hedidnotknowhowtorob;hecouldonlymurder。Itwashisfirstcrime,Iassureyou,hisfirstcrime;helosthishead。Andhegotoffmorebyluckthangoodcounsel！”
“Youaretalkingofthemurderoftheoldpawnbroker,Ibelieve？”
PyotrPetrovitchputin,addressingZossimov。Hewasstanding,hatandglovesinhand,butbeforedepartinghefeltdisposedtothrowoffafewmoreintellectualphrases。Hewasevidentlyanxioustomakeafavourableimpressionandhisvanityovercamehisprudence。
“Yes。You"veheardofit？”
“Oh,yes,beingintheneighbourhood。“
“Doyouknowthedetails？”
“Ican"tsaythat;butanothercircumstanceinterestsmeinthecase-thewholequestion,sotosay。Nottospeakofthefactthatcrimehasbeengreatlyontheincreaseamongthelowerclassesduringthelastfiveyears,nottospeakofthecasesofrobberyandarsoneverywhere,whatstrikesmeasthestrangestthingisthatinthehigherclasses,too,crimeisincreasingproportionately。Inoneplaceonehearsofastudent"srobbingthemailonthehighroad;inanotherplacepeopleofgoodsocialpositionforgefalsebanknotes;inMoscowoflateawholeganghasbeencapturedwhousedtoforgelotterytickets,andoneoftheringleaderswasalecturerinuniversalhistory;thenoursecretaryabroadwasmurderedfromsomeobscuremotiveofgain……Andifthisoldwoman,thepawnbroker,hasbeenmurderedbysomeoneofahigherclassinsociety-forpeasantsdon"tpawngoldtrinkets-howarewetoexplainthisdemoralisationofthecivilisedpartofoursociety？”
“Therearemanyeconomicchanges,“putinZossimov。
“Howarewetoexplainit？”Razumihincaughthimup。“Itmightbeexplainedbyourinveterateunpracticality。“
“Howdoyoumean？”
“WhatanswerhadyourlecturerinMoscowtomaketothequestionwhyhewasforgingnotes?"Everybodyisgettingrichonewayoranother,soIwanttomakehastetogetrichtoo。"Idon"tremembertheexactwords,buttheupshotwasthathewantsmoneyfornothing,withoutwaitingorworking!We"vegrownusedtohavingeverythingready-made,towalkingoncrutches,tohavingourfoodchewedforus。Thenthegreathourstruck,*andeverymanshowedhimselfinhistruecolours。“-
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“Butmorality?Andsotospeak,principles……“
“Butwhydoyouworryaboutit？”Raskolnikovinterposedsuddenly。
“It"sinaccordancewithyourtheory！”
“Inaccordancewithmytheory？”
“Why,carryoutlogicallythetheoryyouwereadvocatingjustnow,anditfollowsthatpeoplemaybekilled……“
“Uponmyword！”criedLuzhin。
“No,that"snotso,“putinZossimov。
Raskolnikovlaywithawhitefaceandtwitchingupperlip,breathingpainfully。
“There"sameasureinallthings,“Luzhinwentonsuperciliously。
“Economicideasarenotanincitementtomurder,andonehasbuttosuppose……“
“Andisittrue,“Raskolnikovinterposedoncemoresuddenly,againinavoicequiveringwithfuryanddelightininsultinghim,“isittruethatyoutoldyourfiancee……withinanhourofheracceptance,thatwhatpleasedyoumost……wasthatshewasabeggar……becauseitwasbettertoraiseawifefrompoverty,sothatyoumayhavecompletecontroloverher,andreproachherwithyourbeingherbenefactor？”
“Uponmyword,“Luzhincriedwrathfullyandirritably,crimsonwithconfusion,“todistortmywordsinthisway!Excuseme,allowmetoassureyouthatthereportwhichhasreachedyou,orratherletmesay,hasbeenconveyedtoyou,hasnofoundationintruth,andI……suspectwho……inaword……thisarrow……inaword,yourmamma……Sheseemedtomeinotherthings,withallherexcellentqualities,ofasomewhathighflownandromanticwayofthinking……
ButIwasathousandmilesfromsupposingthatshewouldmisunderstandandmisrepresentthingsinsofancifulaway……Andindeed……
indeed……“
“Itellyouwhat,“criedRaskolnikov,raisinghimselfonhispillowandfixinghispiercing,glitteringeyesuponhim,“Itellyouwhat。“
“What？”Luzhinstoodstill,waitingwithadefiantandoffendedface。Silencelastedforsomeseconds。
“Why,ifeveragain……youdaretomentionasingleword……aboutmymother……Ishallsendyouflyingdownstairs！”
“What"sthematterwithyou？”criedRazumihin。
“Sothat"showitis？”Luzhinturnedpaleandbithislip。“Letmetellyou,sir,“hebegandeliberately,doinghisutmosttorestrainhimselfbutbreathinghard,“atthefirstmomentIsawyouyouwereill-disposedtome,butIremainedhereonpurposetofindoutmore。I
couldforgiveagreatdealinasickmanandaconnection,butyou……neverafterthis……“
“Iamnotill,“criedRaskolnikov。
“Somuchtheworse……“
“Gotohell！”
ButLuzhinwasalreadyleavingwithoutfinishinghisspeech,squeezingbetweenthetableandthechair;Razumihingotupthistimetolethimpass。Withoutglancingatanyone,andnotevennoddingtoZossimov,whohadforsometimebeenmakingsignstohimtoletthesickmanalone,hewentout,liftinghishattothelevelofhisshoulderstoavoidcrushingitashestoopedtogooutofthedoor。Andeventhecurveofhisspinewasexpressiveofthehorribleinsulthehadreceived。
“Howcouldyou-howcouldyou！”Razumihinsaid,shakinghisheadinperplexity。
“Letmealone-letmealoneallofyou！”Raskolnikovcriedinafrenzy。“Willyoueverleaveofftormentingme?Iamnotafraidofyou!Iamnotafraidofanyone,anyonenow!Getawayfromme!Iwanttobealone,alone,alone！”
“Comealong,“saidZossimov,noddingtoRazumihin。
“Butwecan"tleavehimlikethis！”
“Comealong,“Zossimovrepeatedinsistently,andhewentout。
Razumihinthoughtaminuteandrantoovertakehim。
“Itmightbeworsenottoobeyhim,“saidZossimovonthestairs。
“Hemustn"tbeirritated。“
“What"sthematterwithhim？”
“Ifonlyhecouldgetsomefavourableshock,that"swhatwoulddoit!Atfirsthewasbetter……Youknowhehasgotsomethingonhismind!Somefixedideaweighingonhim……Iamverymuchafraidso;hemusthave！”
“Perhapsit"sthatgentleman,PyotrPetrovitch。FromhisconversationIgatherheisgoingtomarryhissister,andthathehadreceivedaletteraboutitjustbeforehisillness……“
“Yes,confoundtheman!hemayhaveupsetthecasealtogether。Buthaveyounoticed,hetakesnointerestinanything,hedoesnotrespondtoanythingexceptonepointonwhichheseemsexcited-that"sthemurder？”
“Yes,yes,“Razumihinagreed,“Inoticedthat,too。Heisinterested,frightened。Itgavehimashockonthedayhewasillinthepoliceoffice;hefainted。“
“TellmemoreaboutthatthiseveningandI"lltellyousomethingafterwards。Heinterestsmeverymuch!InhalfanhourI"llgoandseehimagain……There"llbenoinflammationthough。“
“Thanks!AndI"llwaitwithPashenkameantimeandwillkeepwatchonhimthroughNastasya……“
Raskolnikov,leftalone,lookedwithimpatienceandmiseryatNastasya,butshestilllingered。
“Won"tyouhavesometeanow？”sheasked。
“Later!Iamsleepy!Leaveme。“
Heturnedabruptlytothewall;Nastasyawentout。
ChapterSixBUTASSOONasshewentout,hegotup,latchedthedoor,undidtheparcelwhichRazumihinhadbroughtinthateveningandhadtiedupagainandbegandressing。Strangetosay,heseemedimmediatelytohavebecomeperfectlycalm;notatraceofhisrecentdeliriumnorofthepanicfearthathadhauntedhimoflate。Itwasthefirstmomentofastrangesuddencalm。Hismovementswerepreciseanddefinite;afirmpurposewasevidentinthem。“To-day,to-day,“hemutteredtohimself。Heunderstoodthathewasstillweak,buthisintensespiritualconcentrationgavehimstrengthandself-confidence。
Hehoped,moreover,thathewouldnotfalldowninthestreet。Whenhehaddressedinentirelynewclothes,helookedatthemoneylyingonthetable,andafteramoment"sthoughtputitinhispocket。Itwastwenty-fiveroubles。HetookalsoallthecopperchangefromthetenroublesspentbyRazumihinontheclothes。Thenhesoftlyunlatchedthedoor,wentout,slippeddownstairsandglancedinattheopenkitchendoor。Nastasyawasstandingwithherbacktohim,blowingupthelandlady"ssamovar。Sheheardnothing。Whowouldhavedreamedofhisgoingout,indeed?Aminutelaterhewasinthestreet。
Itwasnearlyeighto"clock,thesunwassetting。Itwasasstiflingasbefore,butheeagerlydrankinthestinking,dustytownair。Hisheadfeltratherdizzy;asortofsavageenergygleamedsuddenlyinhisfeverisheyesandhiswasted,paleandyellowface。Hedidnotknowanddidnotthinkwherehewasgoing,hehadonethoughtonly“thatallthismustbeendedto-day,onceforall,immediately;thathewouldnotreturnhomewithoutit,becausehewouldnotgoonlivinglikethat。“How,withwhattomakeanend?Hehadnotanideaaboutit,hedidnotevenwanttothinkofit。Hedroveawaythought;
thoughttorturedhim。Allheknew,allhefeltwasthateverythingmustbechanged“onewayoranother,“herepeatedwithdesperateandimmovableself-confidenceanddetermination。
FromoldhabithetookhisusualwalkinthedirectionoftheHayMarket。Adark-hairedyoungmanwithabarrelorganwasstandingintheroadinfrontofalittlegeneralshopandwasgrindingoutaverysentimentalsong。Hewasaccompanyingagirloffifteen,whostoodonthepavementinfrontofhim。Shewasdressedupinacrinoline,amantleandastrawhatwithaflame-colouredfeatherinit,allveryoldandshabby。Inastrongandratheragreeablevoice,crackedandcoarsenedbystreetsinging,shesanginhopeofgettingacopperfromtheshop。Raskolnikovjoinedtwoorthreelisteners,tookoutafivecopeckpieceandputitinthegirl"shand。Shebrokeoffabruptlyonasentimentalhighnote,shoutedsharplytotheorgangrinder“Comeon,“andbothmovedontothenextshop。
“Doyoulikestreetmusic？”saidRaskolnikov,addressingamiddle-agedmanstandingidlybyhim。Themanlookedathim,startledandwondering。
“Ilovetohearsingingtoastreetorgan,“saidRaskolnikov,andhismannerseemedstrangelyoutofkeepingwiththesubject-“Ilikeitoncold,dark,dampautumnevenings-theymustbedamp-whenallthepassers-byhavepalegreen,sicklyfaces,orbetterstillwhenwetsnowisfallingstraightdown,whenthere"snowind-youknowwhatI
mean?andthestreetlampsshinethroughit……“
“Idon"tknow……Excuseme……“mutteredthestranger,frightenedbythequestionandRaskolnikov"sstrangemanner,andhecrossedovertotheothersideofthestreet。
RaskolnikovwalkedstraightonandcameoutatthecorneroftheHayMarket,wherethehucksterandhiswifehadtalkedwithLizaveta;
buttheywerenottherenow。Recognisingtheplace,hestopped,lookedroundandaddressedayoungfellowinaredshirtwhostoodgapingbeforeacornchandler"sshop。
“Isn"tthereamanwhokeepsaboothwithhiswifeatthiscorner？”
“Allsortsofpeoplekeepboothshere,“answeredtheyoungman,glancingsuperciliouslyatRaskolnikov。
“What"shisname？”
“Whathewaschristened。“
“Aren"tyouaZaraiskyman,too?Whichprovince？”
TheyoungmanlookedatRaskolnikovagain。
“It"snotaprovince,yourexcellency,butadistrict。Graciouslyforgiveme,yourexcellency！”
“Isthatatavernatthetopthere？”
“Yes,it"saneating-houseandthere"sabilliard-roomandyou"llfindprincessestheretoo……La-la！”
Raskolnikovcrossedthesquare。Inthatcornertherewasadensecrowdofpeasants。Hepushedhiswayintothethickestpartofit,lookingatthefaces。Hefeltanunaccountableinclinationtoenterintoconversationwithpeople。Butthepeasantstooknonoticeofhim;
theywereallshoutingingroupstogether。HestoodandthoughtalittleandtookaturningtotherightinthedirectionofV。
Hehadoftencrossedthatlittlestreetwhichturnsatanangle,leadingfromthemarket-placetoSadovyStreet。Oflatehehadoftenfeltdrawntowanderaboutthisdistrict,whenhefeltdepressed,thathemightfeelmoreso。
Nowhewalkedalong,thinkingofnothing。Atthatpointthereisagreatblockofbuildings,entirelyletoutindramshopsandeating-houses;womenwerecontinuallyrunninginandout,bare-headedandintheirindoorclothes。Hereandtheretheygatheredingroups,onthepavement,especiallyabouttheentrancestovariousfestiveestablishmentsinthelowerstoreys。Fromoneofthesealouddin,soundsofsinging,thetinklingofaguitarandshoutsofmerriment,floatedintothestreet。Acrowdofwomenwerethrongingroundthedoor;someweresittingonthesteps,othersonthepavement,otherswerestandingtalking。Adrunkensoldier,smokingacigarette,waswalkingnearthemintheroad,swearing;heseemedtobetryingtofindhiswaysomewhere,buthadforgottenwhere。Onebeggarwasquarrellingwithanother,andamandeaddrunkwaslyingrightacrosstheroad。Raskolnikovjoinedthethrongofwomen,whoweretalkinginhuskyvoices。Theywerebare-headedandworecottondressesandgoatskinshoes。Therewerewomenoffortyandsomenotmorethanseventeen;almostallhadblackenedeyes。